{"id":112,"date":"2005-03-27T03:39:48","date_gmt":"2005-03-26T22:09:48","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/blackiris.fakedevil.com\/wp\/?p=112"},"modified":"2005-03-27T03:39:48","modified_gmt":"2005-03-26T22:09:48","slug":"i-am-nothing-without-you","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/caryn.6eptember.com\/?p=112","title":{"rendered":"I am nothing without you"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>am tired but i feel like bloggin. except i dunno wat to talk abt haha. i mean, look at the time, <b>i juz got home<\/b>, and im in the mellow mood again, as i alwayz am at this time of the nite.<\/p>\n<p>yea so last wk, or issit considered wk b4 last, the wk ending 18th Apr. it was a shittified wk rushin corpse reporting. yea i knoe xn had a tough wk too, and i think her BAV is so much like my corp lah. WTH shld hv asked her and her brainiac frens for help right from the start lah. crapshitcurryfishhead. and they hv bloomberg in their sch!! not like us! we hv lousy reuters! canot find no shit man!<\/p>\n<p>yea so as a few of u might alrdy knoe, my cockanaden grp mate for corp was reallie damn pissifying. and i tell u, if it wasnt for my proving him the cost of equity, he would hv been so screwed lah. he would hv taken the whole of thurs to calculate his market risk premium and market return and beta and he wouldnt hv been able to finish man. i mean, hw GL can any1 get man? whole aftnn keep tellin me report damn easy to write, all he needs to do is churn out the figures, very easy one. den dat very same nite at 10pm, he is still in sch. and askin stupid qns like &#8216;hw do u analysis ah?&#8217; wtf. tell me it&#8217;s easy to write report when u dun even knoe hw to analyse?! think u so smart issit. and the analysis he came out with was damn fucked up lah. i mean seriously, i think he din even knoe wth he was analysing. i mean, okie i wasnt too sure either, if not for past proj reports, i wldnt hv known. but wahlau eh, it&#8217;s ur part, u cant juz crap lydat rite? cant u even go and find out what does dat figure mean and analyse properly? and i thought my analysis sux bad enuf, his is even worse. wth. i even had to change for him. crap man.<\/p>\n<p>den me and ven were gonna get dinner ard like 7+pm or so. so we asked him whether wanna get dinner. he was like, no need lah, 8pm can go home alrdy. WTF. 12am he was still in sch lor. i cldnt even care if he was hungry anot.<\/p>\n<p>and wed nite he din even wanna skip trainin lah. like wtf. he says nxt mth got test so he gotta go trainin to learn sm shit. but this freakin thing is due on Fri and u hvnt even finished ur part?! when i actually said the wk b4 dat we gotta finish by wed?! and on thurs nite he still had the cheek to ask us, &#8220;eh wasnt this supposed to be done by now?&#8221;. wtf man. who was the asshole who took so long to finish his part?! at least we din finish our parts bcos we were refining it lor. we were editing and spent wed nite editing till quite late in sch while u were off trainin for ur stupid test lah. <\/p>\n<p>so lemme count hw many hrs of slp i had. cant reallie rem mon or tues. but wed had to wake up early for my personality consultation, den had coy law, and den we did the proj. so did until quite late, reached home, crashed. <\/p>\n<p>thurs morn 8.30am had corp class. den pia all the way until Fri. so from like 7.30am on Thursday mornin, all the way until Fri aftnn 5pm i was awake. well i did slpt for like 15mins on Fri morn prolly ard 7am or so. but dat was it. and this was even worse den the camp last yr; at least last yr in the mornin i took cat naps cos my help wasnt needed so i cld slp. but this time, there were so many times when i reallie juz wanted to close my eyes and put my head down on the table but i knew dat if i did dat, i wld nv wake up. den we wld be damn screwed. <\/p>\n<p>it was quite cool actually, like ven would feel sleepy but i wld be awake. den i wld feel sleepy and she wld be awake. so&#8230;not so bad lah at least we both din stone at the same time and managed to get work done. in case u were wonderin, the cockanaden went home at 12mn. ven told her to go. well he cldnt hv done much anythin. he finished his excel, which was crap so ven was gg thru it. he finished his report, which was crap so i was gg thru it. <\/p>\n<p>and it was cool to like, stay up the whole nite? haha watch the sun go down and come up again. and we actualli cramped into the room with shangbin and e-mei. oh and danny! who got us supper from serangoon i think. so it was quite fun. they were all so nice even tho we weren&#8217;t very close. shangbin was offerin us his shower stuff and e-mei was offerin us her biscuits. so yea at least we made new frens hehe. <\/p>\n<p>so we pia until noon on fri i think..den printed out the stuff, burnt the stuff, binded the stuff. i was supposed to go for the car wash, but in the end reallie no time and i cldnt mk it liaoz, so i had to tell them. but felt quite bad. i reallie thought i could finish in time and go for the car wash. at least like, finish at 4am go home and shower den come back at 8am for the car wash. but reallie cmi. mag and kw were so nice abt it lor. but there wasn&#8217;t much biz anyway. soooo by the time we binded and submitted, it was abt 3.30pm liaoz. so by the time i got home and bathed, 5pm b4 i crashed. quite dirty rite? one whole day nv bath. haha. 24 hrs without slp. wahlau i was like thinkin dunno hw those ppl who join the car competition can survive without slp man. <\/p>\n<p>ya i knoe a lot of ppl tell me we shld go complain to the prof. but aiya same sch, same fac, u will still see each other ard, dun mk things awkward lah. like, i guess we were stupid enuf to hv worked with him. but seriously, i worked with him like hw many times? 3 alrdy? and all 3 times it was okie! BUT i found out last wed onli, dat actualli he was quite sucky durin one of the proj last sem. but my fren nv told us lah! bcos the proj last sem we split up the work, so me and ven worked together onli while he worked with the rest. and my fren nv complain to us lah. wth. i still happy happy bid with him so many modules this sem. wtf. i wonder if he knoes we are pissed with him? i think so man. haha suddenly the whole world knoes dat ven was mad at him last wk. crap man. haha but she was reallie damn angry at him lah. aft a while, i juz stopped feelin anythn alrdy. like wat&#8217;s the use? he&#8217;s a goner, we hv no choice but to juz keep gg and finish it up. so no pt wastin energy gettin angry lah. or mebbe cos i knew ven was smart enuf to clean up the shit. haha<\/p>\n<p>actualli good to work with ven lah. as workin partners, we work well together. but for sm other stuff, i cant lah. shall not talk abt it here lah. too open. but for work, she is damn smart lah. well smarter den me at least, so for the stuff i dunno, at least she knoes. so not so bad hehe. like the excel and the figures, im not too gd at it. so luckily she handle. and she took CAT and she&#8217;s a perfectionist, so it was good. whereas for me, i do the report, editin, all the talkin cock part lor haha. like AIS last sem lydat. she did the technical stuff for the webbie while i wrote up the crappy content for the webbie. ya well, i dunno whether she was juz bein nice but she did say dat i can do the crappy writing part lor. haha think she was juz bein nice lah. but this workin partnership is not one dat i wld wanna break i think. haha.<\/p>\n<p>aniweas..yea i think i&#8217;ve got sm other stuff to blog abt..but i cant rem and im too tired. i reallie shld go slp man. gotta mug tmrw. im reallie damn scared by ven and liting and shiuan. like wth. hmmmmmm but i wanna stone abt..and dream abt..abt&#8230;hehe&#8230;.im not gonna say anythin here! :wink1<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>am tired but i feel like bloggin. except i dunno wat to talk abt haha. i mean, look at the time, i juz got home, and im in the mellow mood again, as i alwayz am at this time of the nite. yea so last wk, or issit considered wk b4 last, the wk ending [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[10],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/caryn.6eptember.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/112"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/caryn.6eptember.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/caryn.6eptember.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/caryn.6eptember.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/caryn.6eptember.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=112"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/caryn.6eptember.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/112\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/caryn.6eptember.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=112"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/caryn.6eptember.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=112"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/caryn.6eptember.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=112"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}