i’m tired, as usual, but i juz wanted to drop a short note. <\/p>\n
not too sure who is realli readin this anymore, but juz to say hi to the ppl whom i think used to read.<\/p>\n
evie – sorrie i hvnt reallie been talkin to u much as well. hw do i put it? it’s so hard to find time to talk to u, and i was even supposed to meet up with u like since a million yrs ago! pls msg me when u leavin k. muz be careful over there!! will miss u.. tho nt as much as the bf rite? :grin1<\/p>\n
damon – yo jie mei, so wat u doin nw? slackin isst? tell ur shuai ge fren dat i miss him leh!! fridays are so boring now, haha!<\/p>\n
juz met up with frens frm sec sch and jc; as usual it was good to see everyone. smtimes, u dun realise u miss the person until u actually talk to that person. hw do u explain it? like this one time, i was talkin to amanda on msn. juz talkin rubbish, abt guys all that. aft i logged off, i hadn’t realised hw much i missed those nonsense chats we used to hv talkin rubbish esp abt guys.
\nden meetin up with ivan. it’s been ages since i talked or even seen him. and it feels so gd to be able to be out with him again, yet things are diff.<\/p>\n
guo qu hen shou xi, xian zai bu dong ni.<\/i><\/p>\n
this phrase is so descriptive of the r\/s dat i hv with quite a few of my frens, esp the ones dat i used to be close to in jc. <\/p>\n
anw, it shocked me juz nw when amanda said dat i dun care abt my frens anymore; she said i cared more abt my work. and it struck me hw true dat was. it’s reallie scary but i cant reallie rem when was the last time i actually got off work earli. brought work home the past few wkends, told myself last wk dat i wun bring back this wkend. work has been overwhelming me dat i dun even hv the energy to talk abt work. and on wkends, it’s another whirlwind of activity. so amanda’s words reallie left me stunned, esp when i juz found a a fren had to go thru sm stuff. i knew we were supposed to talk, but i was so tired dat i wanted to slp. and i cant even rem which of the days we were on the phone bcos time juz slips by me. darrell, i’m sorry i missed the calls. perhaps u wld hv told me, perhaps u wouldn’t. but sorry i missed the calls. <\/p>\n
the pile of work(shit) is still waitin for me in the office. problem is, im such a pig dat when i spend too much time at work, i get too tired, not enuf slp, den i cant function properly the nxt day.<\/p>\n
i realise dat in the mornings, i’m usually reallie slow cos i hvnt reallie woken up yet. so my productivity gets reallie low. juz realised dat i dun hv my cookie jar anymore; i’m so screwed. i need to work a lot harder this wk. shite. yea anw as i was sayin, i onli start to pick up speed in the aftn. prolly abt 3pm or ltr. (cos aft lunch u aso feel sleepy one mah) so by the time i churn out productive work, it’s almost 5.30pm. so i end up workin late. but i work alot betta when it’s later. cos no1 is in the office, well actualli most ppl hv gone off for dinner first. so the office is reallie quiet, and i can think betta and i can listen to my mp3s. but den i cant work for long b4 i hv to go home for dinner. sux. i reallie muz work harder nxt wk. lots of computations to churn out. shitamama. <\/p>\n
so many things hv happened recently, most recently last nite, but i hadn’t had the time to reallie sit down properly and think abt them. a lot of things are scaring me at the moment but i don’t know hw to put them into words. things are so different, and difficult.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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