right, aft the really bleak entry the last time, i’m back!! <\/p>\n
okie spent a week in taiwan. 7 days to be exact. damn tiring. every nite sleep late..go ye shi (nite market) mah..go taiwan how can dun go nite market rite? so aft reach hotel+shower+pack stuff cos hv to change hotel everynite, it’s alrdy like 1,2am liaoz man. and the next morning gotta wake up at like 6-7am. wat sort of holiday is this man?! came back reallie shagged and still had to go to work the following monday aft i came back on saturday. will blog more abt tw if i feel like it another time haha.<\/p>\n
work is..damn challenging and difficult. so much so tt i dun hv the motivation to carry on. i reallie cant bear to think tt i hv 9 weeks left of work to do. i dunno issit bcos i’m tired, aft working so hard during summer, den sch den tiring hols and now workin again. or issit bcos it’s difficult? it reallie wasn’t what i expected or envisioned before i joined. and i really never expected it to be so IT-based. i guess i had a skewed impression aft AA this sem. it’s really quite bad cos i either spend the time sorting out the data into info (by opening notepad files into excel and sorting out the data), or i spend the time trying to file the particular file i need to test the controls. and it’s hard finding the file cos it’s all in abbreviated tech-speak. like dispautobj (sys) or smth to this effect lah i can’t rem. i so not a techie and i hvnt been in any contact with any of these stuff before. but now i have to even understand the different O\/S (operating systems).<\/p>\n
darrell asked if i regretted my decision. i don’t, and i would still mk the same decision to come to this dept. it’s definitely an eye opener. at least, if i really don’t like, i would know at the end of my internship tt i won’t wanna do this. rather den if i didn’t do this, but joined str aft i graduated, which would hv been even worse. get wat i mean?<\/p>\n
and horrors, i dunno why, i’ve really bcome very very anti-social now. i dun like to talk to new ppl. at work, i hide in one corner and juz do my work. i dun talk to the ppl in the dept at all. they aso dun reallie talk to me aso leh..so i aso nv tk the initiative to do anythin. so basically, it’s like i dun reallie exist in the dept lah. so bcos of that, i dun realli feel like i belong, so there’s no sense of belonging (it’s maslow’s hierarchy of needs rite?) so i dun reallie feel motivated to work as well. <\/p>\n
oh well. pls pray for me. i’m praying for myself too. really want this 9 weeks to go by quickly.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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