it sux like crap when you’re feeling as though you just got run over by a huge truck, yet various people are just coming to you with various different issues to deal with and you just gotta listen and help. because you can’t don’t want to say anything to anyone. sux like crap to have to smile and pretend everything it’s ok.

but everything is ok now. for now.

i’m still in a state of inertia. can’t get myself to start studying. doing work is ok – i need to do assignments anyway. but trying to get myself to get started on the mountain of readings is like trying to move the mountain. impossible!! how how how!!! week 3 already and i still don’t feel like studying!!! wanna go back to work, cos after i throw myself into work and work like a dog the whole day, i can come home and stone. on weeknights, there’s tv!! and weekends i can still stone. no homework, no readings. i can read whatever i want to instead of a pile load of crap about what some supposed expert says about some crap topic. oh shit, i need HELP!!