at this rate, it does seem like i can possibly finish whatever i’m supposed to cover for the exams (cross fingers, touch wood, hold four leaf clover, rub lucky horse shoe).

yet even though i’m eating up the chapters in my texts, it seems as though i don’t seem to be understanding what i’m studying. like there’s a subconscious voice telling me to just skim through, cos if i stop to think properly and realise that i don’t understand what i’m reading and think even harder about what the book is trying to say, i would not have enough time to finish. so while i think i’m studying, in essence i seem to be just skiming or speed reading through my texts, and another subconscious voice (yes i have a lot of inner voices) seem to say that it’s ok because most of the stuff the text is explaining i do know or have a vague idea of it so it doesn’t really matter cos i can probably crap force something out during the exam.

which is another point of concern. what happens if i think that i understand, and most stuff i do know vaguely already, yet i can’t seem to apply during the exams? seems like this semester, it’s a lot of more chim application questions (not just on the surface kinda application qns). so i’m feeling scared. but i don’t have time to properly digest every single thing in all my texts.

and i don’t know why, just shoot me, but i keep thinking about next semester too! something is terribly wrong! how can i think about next semester when i haven’t even cleared this one? but i’m just thinking of how studying for 4 modules this semester is quite a killer, and how next semester will be even worse. even though i will still be studying for 4 modules next semester, the modules are super chim. all numbers and financial stuff. no crapping of my way thru kinda modules. Advanced Financial Accounting, which is strictly numbers and all consolidation stuff. Accounting Theory, which i don’t know is about what but i heard it’s super chim. Qualitative Methods, which i also don’t know about what but i heard quite difficult. Technology & World Change, seems like a module that i can crap, yet it seems to also require a lot of readings and hard facts. i am so screwed. now pray tell, why am i thinking about next semester, next year, 2006, when this semester this year isn’t over yet?