4 times cos i hv 4 projects till my internship ends in mid-Feb. suckit i thought my last 2 weeks can rot in the office but i’m booked for a job for the last 2 wks. damn.

ok so that bad day is all in the past. i don’t wanna think abt it. too lazy to blog abt it. thanks amanda for that sweet sms also.

work this week was tiring. i won’t call it stressful. it’s never stressful at an intern level, and besides i slack too much anyway haha. check this out. i hv officially broken this record this week. Tues was 9pm. Wed was 8.30pm. noone could guess what Thurs was.

*drumroll* 1.30am! like how cool is that? it’s not like i’m excited abt setting a new record, not that i’m excited about my work, not that i’m excited about staying late. i’ve accepted that it comes with it. besides i was slacking. haha not good. basically cos the work had to be completed and sent to the manager for review first thing in Fri mornin. so my senior had to go through with me on Thurs, seeing that it’s my first full official job of my internship. and i was slacking because i’ve already done what i could, he reviewed and made all the necessary changes. (and believe you me, there were A LOT of changes that’s why we stayed so late). if i was stoned i think my poor senior was worse.

i think i could have done better. prolly prep more, read more. but i’m not exactly beating myself up over it cos i know it’s my first project and with almost no references (last year’s working papers don’t count; my senior was appalled at the work they did last year), i don’t really blame myself. besides i’m a low achiever haha.

needless to say, i was freaking shagged on Fri morn. my very nice senior insisted on sending me home even though he stays in woodlands and has a 9am meeting the next day. gosh. yea so i slept abt 3 and went to work before 8.30am on Fri. i toyed with the idea of going into the office late since i worked so late, (since all the perm staff do that anyway), but i couldn’t bring myself to do it. worst (or is it good?) thing was that i had no work to do on Fri. since i ‘ve already completed that job, my next job won’t start till the next week. so i just stoned in the office and tried my very best not to strike up a conversation with the computing guy next to me cos he was busy with his work. well i tried to do some work by preparing for my next 2 jobs, but well, how interested can one be in reading manuals of an application?

but i kid you not, it’s damn freaky to stay in the office so late, especially when there’s no1 else except your senior and you. some more my senior left me for some time to call his wife and smoke, so i was kinda ALL ALONE IN THE OFFICE. believe you me it was damn freaky. i was like how scared can. was sitting up straight, trying to do my work, perking my ears open to any sounds that would alert me to either my senior’s return, or some ghostly apparition. there were weird noises that i attributed to the lights and aircon. while i was working halfway, the lights shut off. omg i was like how freaked. luckily as i got up and walked like 1cm, the sensor picked up my action and the lights promptly turned on again. ya auto lights, irritating. then about halfway through, i heard weird noises again. sounded like the door opening, and someone or something moving around. i heard papers rustling, a thermos flask being knocked against the table or something. i was majorly freaked lah. as far as i knew, the tax dept was all quiet. the last people in my dept were the IT consulting guys who left at 11.30pm or so; i saw them leave. so i got up to check out. haha i also don’t know how come i so brave can. LUCKILY it was one of the guys from the IT consulting side. man he gave me a shock. funny lah he, don’t know why he work so late when all the people on the same project as me had left. ya so i juz carried on with my work.

anw, some thoughts about my work so far. finally completed one whole job. OS/400 and Unix. it was damn difficult, scary and intimidating at first, but it’s better now. even though my next 2 jobs would cover Windows and SAP and i won’t be revisiting the OS/400 or Unix, at least i feel a little more confident about learning the new applications. work-wise, it’s getting a bit more fun to learn after i get over the initial fear and apprehension. but i’m not so sure i like the hours and the people in the dept.

i know before i started this, i wanted to do well and get a priority job offer. now i’m not so sure anymore. at the beginning, the work was totally getting me down. now it’s a little of the work and the people as well. i’m even thinking that i should hope not to get an offer so that i don’t have to make the choice so early. i’m leaning towards the personal tax job, cos of a fixed working place, cos of the people and environment. i know the people would be likely to change if i were to join them, but at least i thought it was generally easier to get along with them. in my current place, i don’t like it. it’s been 4 weeks so far, 6 more to go. i’m actually quite looking forward to getting out of here. i’m not unhappy to the extent that i fear going to work or crying every night, that kinda shit you know. but i’m just sian to go to work. the situation may improve, but i doubt. i’m quite unhappy here cos of the general environment and the people. i know it’s partly my fault, but well. anyway, other factors such as there’s also more satisfaction as i clear tax file after tax file each day, as compared to having to have to work 2 weeks on one project that i get so sick of it at the end and don’t even wanna see it ever again. even though there is documentation for tax, the documentation for IT audit is a pain in the butt. irritating like hell. aiya don’t know lah. don’t wanna think about it now, don’t have to think about it now anyway.