i always thought that i was bi, or at least marginally inclined towards the female gender. until last week. i got the shock of my life and realised that i’m really really completely utterly irrevocably straight after all. :buck1

haha moving on. i’m quite sad today actually. when i grad, i won’t get a job in my dream company already. :sad1 “The way is shut.” at least, i think so. no chance unless i pull strings, and even then, i don’t even think i hv any strings to pull! and it also looks like i may not be working this summer hols, which on the bad side, one less experience for me but which can be a good thing also lah. at least i would get a break after working all my past hols away, and maybe settle my exchange stuff IF i am going overseas. BUT still NO DREAM JOB!! :sad1 sobs.

and i’ve just seen the stuff for my new school term next week. !@$#%$^&*( see already i sianz. so much shit again. all that readings. double major triple quadruple sianz. i used to be scared. like at the beginning of each term, lookin at all the shit to do, i get scared and worried, wondering if i can cope with everything and whether it would be too difficult for my minute brain. but this term, i just feel more sian than anything. only 2 things to look forward to. firstly, my FT class on Thurs is filled with all my favourite boys! :yum1 secondly, well i’m not gonna share the second thing with you! :finger: