i woke up this morning feeling a bit sad – while one friend was on the plane out, another was on another plane coming back. i won’t be able to meet either one til June when my exams end, and the both of them won’t be able to meet each other until the other one that flew out today returns to Singapore. suddenly just felt sad cos everyone was flying here and there while i’m still stuck here studying. (ok whining again i shld shuddup) but felt sad aso is this the life that we would all lead in future? granted the flying we’re all doing now is for holiday and studies, and short trips. but in future, would we fly for business? to migrate? would we all be so busy with our own things that we won’t be able to find the time to meet up? and if we were all scattered all over the world, how to meet up?

saw my friend’s msn nick about “leaving on a jet plane, don’t know when i’ll be back again”. a lot of my friends are feeling this way when they have to leave the country after spending half or one year there on exchange. would i feel the same way? it just seems so final – to leave and to part. and not knowing when we can go back again hints at the uncertain future. i always cannot deal with leaving and having to part with something, someone or someplace. it’s just the sentimental fart in me. am i making sense?

i was supposed to be studying last nite, but ended up reading a book i borrowed from my school library. amazing that a school library can carry such an interesting range of (sometimes thrashy) fiction books. i was randomly searching the catalogue for some book related to accounting, and i stumbled upon this book. british book, lots of humour, with lots of awareness of life in general. anyway, themes i picked up from the book: the importance of communication; of keeping your temper in check and not jumping to conclusions; one should not have regrets in life; one should live life to the fullest, and “just do it”; second chances and hope is possible in life; friends are very important; children are a pain but can be counted on in times of trouble; one should not conform to society or family expectations but be oneself; one should be bitchy!! haha. i thought the “being your own self” was the main underlying theme throughout the whole book; if you’re not yourself, it leads to a lot of painful consequences that leads to regrets. and anw, i should learn to be bitchy like the characters in the book!

back to the books. Agenda for this week (by ThursdaY): have to finish up AT ppt slides to send out for compilation, have to practise for QM quiz, have to finish up AFA consol and analysis for the project, have to study for TWC quiz. i bitched a lot abt the AFA project and how difficult it is but i actually volunteered to do the painful task of calculating the financial ratios. did that once for corpse reporting and i remembered being up late on Fri nite, punching furiously on my calculator and writing figures on slips of paper as i sat at a table under the faint hall light while the rest of the house was dead silent. lookin forward to the challenge of doing it again another time. i must be mad.