haha i realised dat i sounded kinda bimbotic in the previous entry. :blush1 haha dun care cant wait to go to work and see all those ppl (read:guys!) haha! :tongue1

anw yes i think i hv officially given my soul to my company. haha my latest record now is 10.20pm last Thurs. shiok rite? i’m too responsible liaoz lah haha. deadlines still nt over yet..but at least i think the program that i’m workin on is moving abit more. haha i asked my snr wat’s the max i can charge. she told me go ahead and charge, cos we’re gonna burst the budget anw. and bcos it’s such a difficult prog, and the mgr knoes we’ve been spending a lot of time on it, i shld juz charge. and anw my charge-out rate is so low. haha so actualli, basically i can slack for my last timesheet cos i can defn charge the most to this prog. yups the same snr gave me a pack of M&Ms crispy “to keep you going”. nice rite? i :heart1 nice snrs..juz like the other one who gave me an extra big blackcurrant pastilles. haha the piggish me needs motivation in the form of food to work!

took leave last Fri for the comm svc fair. pretty disappointing actually. the traffic was quite minimal, and it was early in the morning so most ppl still very sleepy. so we only got a grand total of 3 ppl to sign up. sobz. hope the monday ppl do betta.

scared to go to work tmrw! haha cos one day nv go work, scared that there will be one pile of files on my table. CS say there wasn’t anythn, but dat was midday. Jason was supposed to tell me..so either he 4got or got nothin lor. hope it’s nothin, den i can work on the comps of my prog. got 2 more to churn out and the faster i finish it, the less loaded i would be when the o/s info starts coming in later in the week.

oh yar the title of this entry is a line from Mr & Mrs Smith. hv i alrdy mentioned dat Brangelina are H-O-T?? gosh a guy his age can still look lydat, amazing. and jolie is so sexy!! and the way she said this line was so..i wld use the word arousing but i think sexy can lah. haha. smthn tells me i’ll be drooling over new ppl later this wk – Fantastic 4’s Ioan and Jessica! :yum1

:psycho1 i left work onli at 8.30pm today!!! wanted to complete sm stuff, and had to key in my timesheet. actually felt abit cheated. cos jason told me sm stuff, so i thought okie i betta work harder and stay later and complete more stuff. den ltr i realised dat mebbe i dun need to (not bcos jason din stay or jason cheat me) juz a feelin abt my snr. oh but AN was quite nice to me today. called me “Wonder Woman” haha. she said cos there’s a Superman (what she normally calls Jason) so there muz be a wonderwoman as well. and she told me dat if i cant cope i muz say, so i thought dat was pretty decent for her. think she’s reallie very caring; too bad she’s nt my snr. the other day she told my mgr hw gd jason was and i overheard. think jason overheard aso lah. ya lor got snr who sings your praises to the mgr means nt bad leh. dunno whether mine will say anythn anot, or at least give me a gd appraisal anot.

anw, long day, still more stuff to clear. shitamama, i wanted to start on the other program today, but had to rush other stuff cos of the 30th june deadline. but i aso reallie need to finish those in the other progm. dats why was very confused when jason told me.

oh wells, long day has its perks as well. like AN talkin to me. and AG smiling at me!! wah~!! not the big grin like previously, but hey it’s betta den nothing!! :tongue1 he is so darn cute! and SH talkin to me as well! pretty weird and surprising, cos i din expect SH to strike up a conversation with me.

oh yar, one last note: office printers and photocopyin machines are the best way to meet ppl and chat!! it’s supposed to be the pantry/water cooler, but dat place hasnt realie worked for me yet. i hvn’t even seen the cute AM guy!! growls.

need to slp. think tmrw, and this whole week gonna work late again. hv to finish dat prog!! :sleep1

it’s fri tmrw!! haha time passes so fast when u get a day off work. the wk is juz so much shorter. only blardy problem is dat this is the last public hol im gonna get frm nw till the end of my internship. sux blardy big time. grrrr. no hot dates this wk haha decided to go easy on my wallet and my health. need to juz chill and tk things easy. but yups, aft a break this wk, i’m bz arranging stuff for nxt wk! :grin so many more ppl to catch up with!

actualli, i guess i reallie dun hv to work so hard. my snrs keep tellin me to go home instead of stayin so late or ask me why im nt gg hm yet or tellin me dat i can finish up their work the nxt morn. i guess i shld juz pay more attention to my work. it’s a problem dat’s still plaguing me. everytime i feel bad, i tell myself the nxt time im nt gonna mk any mistks. for a day or two, it’s okie, den the bug creeps back. smtimes, it’s juz so hard to find the energy inside to open ur eyes wide and spot the mistks aft u’re so exhuasted frm completing the whole task. i made a stupid mistk yesterday, and i was very sure i checked my work b4 i submitted it. yet smhw it came back to me and i see dat glarin mistk. hw cld i hv missed dat the first time? and i got the shock of my life when another case came back to me with one attachmt completely wrong. i was wonderin hw i cld hv been so mad as to even submit the wrong attachment, cos if i miss small stuff, i can’t possibly miss the difference in the title of the attachment rite? turns out i originally 4got to submit dat attachment, so my snr pulled out sm old attachmt to show me the sample. weird u knoe. i checked my lappie and realised dat i hv the soft copy of dat attachmt, yet i din print it out. hw cld i hv forgotten things lydat?

had a long talk with ma last wk abt my performance at work and i felt cheered up aft dat. last nite got scolded by her cos i told her i was still mkin mistakes. ya i feel bad yet im nt tryin hard enuf. i guess i’ve been too complacent, and the past internship was so much more diff. YT’s hvin the same exp dat i used to hv at my old workplace, so i’m reallie happy for her, yet envious at the same time. i like my job scope, but increasingly i’ve been askin myself whether it’s reallie wat i want. smtimes i aim for the top, yet at other times i wonder whether im cut out for it. hai.

actually, i wanted to wake up at like 2+am to watch the Champions League final match. c’mon it’s Liverpool vs AC Milan for goodness sakes! and it’s the finals! and it’s gonna be like the last soccer match for this season. gosh, nxt few mths will be darn boring. but aft the scolding from Ma, I decided that I should get more sleep so that I won’t be so sleepy and blur in the morning. It was defn a fantastic match, judging from the replays that I saw, but i think Liverpool is darn lucky. Just like hw Man Utd were unlucky to lose the FA Cup to ARSE when they were definitely the much better team during that match. I think it was just luck on Dudek’s side as well, though Man Utd should have gotten him as their GK instead of Carroll, who didn’t even move around before the shot was taken. :mad1

no OT today! haha i managed to charge 7 hrs so can come home…last fri’s shortfall i shall mk up another day lor..or tk from my cookie jar :wink1 hope everyday can be smooth sailin and dat i will alwayz hv work to do.

haha i think im siao lah. i see one whole stack of green files on my table and i feel very happy. there’s a bit of stress lah..machiam like i so slow dats why got so many files, dat kinda impression. but i like knowin dat there’s work and i wun be free/wasting time. i feel happy gg to work!! cos it means i can tackle those files!! feels good to see the high pile dwindle down to like 1 or 2 at the end of the day :cool1 okok im mad lah. mebbe i aso feel happy gg to work cos can see my crush!! :grin1

jason was askin me hw to read sm words today. everyday we hv to check with each other wat our supervisors/managers are writing. the handwriting is like darn hard to read smtimes lah!! we alwayz waste time tryin to decipher it. anw he showed me his file, and i saw AN wrote “good attempt!” on the cover ltr. i dunno wat he was doin lah..mebbe he wrote the ltr all by himself w/o any template, so dats quite commendable lah. it’s darn hard to churn out a whole new cover ltr on ur own. but aft i saw it..i juz felt..i dunno..stupid? useless? jealous? scared? lousy? hai dunno lah. mebbe im juz bein oversensitive lah. mebbe im mad again. is schizo the word? paranoid? juz keep thinkin dat AN they all wld think im lousy. :sad1

tmrw got 1 more tax com dat AN gave me last wk when i had nothin to do. wanna do it well and do it properly to mk up for my stupidity last wk. but scared i mk mistakes again and wld further confirm to her dat im lousy.

today a lot of ppl at lunch!! all the interns were startin work today! haha so suddenly it was like a mini sch gathering durin lunch. me and CS were talkin abt hw we shld bully the newbies by pretendin to be perm staff cos of our pass. wahahha. so fun, so many ppl ard the place dat we all knoe.

jiak lat, tmrw nt much work left. my boss MC half day and this other person i help today aso nv come for work. so most of my stuff finished liaoz. hope tmrw nt much changes. amendmts waste the most time, but today no1 around for me to check if i’m right. hope i din do anythin wrong today. hope tmrw i will get work to do aso. i dun mind if i hv one big pile of files. i rather hv a lot of things to do den nthin to do. actualli i think my boss quite happenin leh. aft last fri’s party, i think she’s quite alrite. shld call her out for lunch soon to bond. haha think easier to bond with her den with any1 else, cos i work with her the most. muz maintain good relations with at least 1 person here lah!

so much for bein happy on thurs. fri my productivity was darn low. did very little stuff. sm more i made mistakes. even tho it was my first time doin submission, but i still felt stupid n bad and pai seh. dunno why. mebbe cos it was the first time jason’s boss AN ask me to do work, so i felt dat i hv to prove smthn or do it properly. or mebbe it’s cos the cases, tho under the supervision of AN, is actualli handled by the cute guy. or mebbe it’s bcos the person who came and told me dat “ni zhuo cuo le” was actualli the TK lookalike. hai. sux. i was feelin darn depressed.

submission do wrong still nvm. my cover ltr i cant even amend properly. careless mistake. it took me like an hr or even 2 hrs to sort out the mess i had created. it was a little confusing bcos it was the first time i was doin. and i think i got it wrong bcos i misread the amendments and amended the cover ltr wrongly aso. i knoe i shld hv asked if i din understand the amendmts, but i wanted to try and do it on my own. dun eveythin dunno aso ask. i mean, i knoe if u dunno u shld ask. but if u keep askin and dun think logically and properly first, den abit silly aso rite? hai. mebbe if i had asked, and amended properly, it might not hv been so bad? but aft my senior explained to me, i understood liaoz lor. and he aso tried to console me by tellin me dat it’s very confusin 1, and dat the first time he did it aso he was very luan. okie nxt time i muz ask. and nxt time i muz do betta. when i handed it back to jason’s boss dat time, she was in the good mood lah; in fact they all juz finished laughin at sm joke. so when i passed back to her and apologized, she told me nvm.

tell u aH! sean told me it’s the cockanaden’s curse. fri morn i was darn free. nothin to do. i went ard askin ppl and buggin them. nobody had anythin for me to do. den met the cockanaden for lunch. and aft lunch, i had one whole stack of files. OMG. all came at once!! suddenly, the ppl i’ve been helpin all hv work!! so nw i hv one stack of green files waitin for me to clear when i get back to work. actualli i dun mind hvin work lah..like i said, im more worried abt hw long i spend on it..and whether i can charge my full 7 hrs, if nt reallie jiak lat. actualli luckily nick cancelled dinner on mon, so i think i can work OT on mon if necessary. which i think will be necessary cos the number of hrs i charged on fri reallie very little.

anw i was depressed the whole aftnn until i went for the party. haha my dept’s party. quite cool lah. learnt sm dance moves haha.. they forced us all to learn. at the start, they made CS and I and sm other new perm staff go up on stage to introduce ourselves. den aft learnin the dance, they made all the new ppl go up to dance aso. so pai seh!! im like hw horrible at dancin man! but it was fun lah, and at least i learnt smthin new hehe.

actualli was quite disappointed dat CS forgot abt me and juz went off home lor. aiyah nvm lah. over liaoz. she lent me her jacket tho cos i 4got to bring mine and was freezin under the air con vent in the office.

nw i hv vids of the cute guy in my office! woo hoo!! it’s a vid of the ppl who kena sabo-ed to go up and dance. :tongue1:heart1

very stoned again this morn. really nt enuf slp.

but im happy! cos (i thinK!) i managed to charge out 7 hrs of work!! yayness!! hehe today got a lot of work liaoz. suddenly this person whom i dunno came to me and ask if im free. so of course say im free lor. haha den my boss gave me this new client to do. had to source for the info all over the file. hm reallie hope i did it correctly. i hate it when i complete it and she returns to me with a lot of mistakes. grrrr. i charged 3 hrs to it!! hope it’s okie man. cos it reallie took me dat much time to collate all the info and double check dat it’s correct cos it’s all over the place. aso had to double check and key in the travel schedule which was so darn long. i even fill up sui sui the input sheet k. and as usual, the stupid sys took darn long to generate my stuff.

den towards the end of the day, jason’s boss AN came and loaded sm more work on him. den she asked him whether he got a lot of things to do. den my manager happened to walk out and heard her, and she told her dat can share some work with me. so now i got another person to report to. haha den AN called jason for my email address and emailed me work. wah. so now i hv like 4 outstandin files on my table to be done tmrw. im like hw busy. wahaha. but it’s good man. i reallie need to charge 7 hrs a day. so i muz work faster and harder without mkin mistakes so i wun waste time correctin my mistakes.

haha im happy aso cos yesterday i helped jason clear 2 files and the person in charge said i could charge :beam1

tell u k..today CS said i looked like a slut. :err1 cos my skirt was very short and had slits on both sides. but RY said i din look like one. Tiff asked why i wear so black today. then CS said i looked very retro cos of my earrings. :pout1 CS alwayz comments on my outfits!! first she said i act cute, den she say my shoes cute, den she say hw come everythin muz match, den today she say i look like a slut :sad1 haha but i knoe she’s a nice person lah. and i liked wat i wore today so bah! but so sad, the cute guy in my office on leave today. i was so disappointed!! :pout1 (when i say the cute guy, it’s nt my senior aka the takuya lookalike guy. it’s another guy!) haha den at the photocopyin room today, i realised that there’s this other guy whom i hvnt seen b4 who is passable leh. haha i think it’s bcos of his height and build. nt dat he’s very good lookin lah haha.

there’s this person in jason’s side but i helped her with stuff yesterday. think she’s very sweet and nice. very friendly aso. if i were a guy, i would like her. haha! but i’m les so i :heart1 her alrdy! haha! then there’s this other person whom i started helpin today..when she speaks to me, i feel as tho she’s belittling me. but when she emails me the stuff, she’s very nice in the email msg! den jason’s boss. i used to think she’s unfriendly (at least to me lah) mebbe cos she doesn’t knoe me. think she looks scary/fierce. but while she was handing work to me today, she was quite nice abt it leh. hmmm…

aiyo siao liaoz lah. jas told us today abt the performance appraisal form. she said at the bottom there’s this section that’s “Offer/No offer”. wth. u and i know very well what that means lah. shite man. crap. argh. im in the no offer range lor, confirm!! hai. 3 of us onli leh..why cant they juz offer us??? u mean they will only choose 1 out of 3?? omg. then confirm wun be me liaoz. think jason wld be the more likely one. shite. hai. den CS told me that my manager would be collating the opinions of ALL the ppl i worked for b4 she comes up with the final opinion for my performance appraisal. wth. dat means i cant juz be nice and suck up to my boss onli. i hv to be nice to EVERYONE. ohgod help!

actualli today i very good mood one..but i think it got chased away by my tiredness haha. i woke up feelin darn shagged. den my mood started to improve, esp when i found out dat chelsea lost to liverpool. wahaha! losers! they suck man. win EPL so wat..champions league is like betta lah they CMI. losers! but liverpool was lucky. those kinda in-but-not-in kinda goal aso counted.

who missed me today? you, you or you? i sneezed so many times today!! muz be sm1 thinkin of me lor!! admit it quick!! haha pls hor it’s not the cockanaden k!!

aniweas ya so i was happy the whole day. even tho i had a lot of work today. kaoz yesterday i feedback to my manager dat i din hv work to do. grrr i shld hv phrased it differently. and it din help dat jason told her i alwayz ask him for work to do. hai. ya i told her i alwayz happy when i hv work to do. seriously, it sux being bored u knoe. the standard procedure: i ask my boss for work, she says will give me shortly. i sit and wait. den i whine to jason. aft abt half an hr, i go and bug my boss again. den when i come back with work, i cant help grinnin like a madass and exclaimin to jason dat i hv work. madness.

so very good, i think my manager feedback to my boss. so today my boss give me more work!! wahhhhhh. nv stop. one file aft another. but i was hvin fun seriously. im mad lah. there was some pressure lah..cos i was takin sm time to complete them. but overall it was all good. good to hv pressure if nt i slack too much.

wth i was usin the fone and my boss came!! haha so paiseh. and some more it wasnt becos i was free leh. i had work to do leh. den i still usin fone. haha darn jiak lat. i reali think my performance appraisal gg down the drain liaoz. nxt time they sure dun wanna offer me work. “oh that girl ah? canot lah, do things so slowly, still use fone durin office hrs. dun hire her lah!” jiak lat. hai. die die die hw to do damage control? actualli im reallie quite worried abt it leh. reallie nt a good impression. even tho the perm staff got tk personal calls..but still.. 2nd wk on the job alrdy i lydat..shit.

actualli im aso worried abt the charging. im so screwed if i cant meet 7 hrs a day lor. crap. think reallie gotta work OT to complete 7 hrs liaoz. sai man. hai. this is reallie wat the perm staff do, so guess i hv to do it as well if i wanna learn hw they work. but reallie man, smtimes..i mean okie lah i go toilet/vendin machine/talk on fone/sms dun count lah. i can not do all those. but walkin to my boss’ table back and forth and waitin for the stupid system to load the stuff, dats the time wasting part. i cant imagine hvin to work OT bcos of silly things lydat. hai but no choice lah. think tmrw i muz tell them no need wait for me liaoz. muz check hw many hrs i clock. if nt yet 7 hrs, think even 5.30pm aso canot go home leh. hai.

haha sianz. everytime in the office i wanna blog but come home too lazy to do so. today renny say i chao keng. stupid guy – wait till he start his stupid internship den he will knoe.

aniweas so far still okie. surprisingly no OT yet! *crosses fingers* haha think they dun wanna scare us yet lah. but i dun feel stretched yet lor. i feel dat i can do more. jason got a lot more work to do den me leh..cos his boss give him! but my boss dun wanna give me. think she dun trust me! haha jiak lat leh. i muz pay more attention at work. CANOT STONE. CANOT BLUR. CANOT SLP. cos smtimes boss ask me edit stuff but i blur. haha but smtimes a lot of instructions lah, so gotta write down. i cant believe im sayin this but im actually enjoying it cos i realli feel dat im learnin new stuff. seein hw they work. it’s reallie cool to see the different situations. even tho i got a really disgusting one yesterday! cos it’s US guy, den gotta convert the currency, check dat the us pension fund thing is nt taxable and dunno wat other sai lah. but in the end no solution cos still missin sm info. and i learnt abt NOR, which i din learn in tax or tax plannin. in TP prof went thru very fast so i aso dunno wth it is abt. but i learnt it at work!! so fun rite?! and i love the system dat they use! mks work a lot easier.

BUT i hate my laptop. the one at work dat is. yes all of us interns got lappies. so cool rite? hehe. but the lappie is like super ANCIENT. ralph say he can switch the lappie on, go toilet, wash his hands, go pantry tk his coffee and come back juz in time to enter his password. wahah. i tell u its damn frustratin and a waste of time to wait for the stuff to come up. realli waste time. hate it. so inefficient! grrr. turn on com – wait. open prog – wait. enter info and save – wait. go to next pg of prog – wait. generate the computation – wait. print – wait. CAN U SEE HW LONG I GOTTA WAIT EVERYTIME?!?!?! sianz 1/2. i feel so stupid twiddlin my thumbs and waitin. and my boss prolly thinks im damn slow at doin work when im juz waitin. i mean haha smtimes i reallie slow, but mostly its cos i gotta wait!!

ya but i gotta pay more attention lah i think. muz try. cos canot mk stupid mistakes lah cos i think today got a bit of mistakes. bad bad bad. hw to get job in future?! everybody wanna come here k! hw to be outstanding lydat?! jiak lat. i muz do betta!!
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haha am back veri earli today! left b4 6pm! wah heng sia, nearly had to stay late okie. there was some problem with the cost allocation to the different BUs and we all thought that we had to stay back to re-key the data into the system. hai~ my meetin got postponed at the last min, so i kinda said i was free to stay even tho i din feel like it. hai~ so silly rite? i muz reallie learn to say no or they wld juz exploit me everyday. aniweas luckily can juz cut and paste or smthin, so i juz hv to re-check the figures tmrw.

the thing i hate most abt all the work so far is tryin to balance figures. argh. its so *bloody* difficult to mk sure dat ur figures tie-up. i alwayz hv to recalculate a few times to get a balanced figure. argh. like, i do so many times now until i know which cost centres belong to which BU. well but i guess it’s interestin to knoe how an MNC works, except that i dont reallie do much stuff related directly accounting like preparing the actual cash flow statement and what not. all i do are juz calculations, calculations and more calculations for cost allocation and accounts receivable. i’m gonna be doin taxation soon, so i’m lookin forward to it. dunno why but i juz hv more of an interest in taxation and like, avoiding tax? haha sounds more fun den the normal accting stuff. yea but hope i dun screw it up too bad esp since i haven’t learnt taxation yet and i cant reallie rem much of wat i learnt at IRAS 3-4 yrs ago. haha which is why i was quite surprised dat they picked me?

aniweas yarz tmrw got meeting. sianz. last min cancel when i oreadi wear nice nice and prepare properly liaoz. sianz. dunno wat they want to talk abt. juz wish dat i could juz quit now the project now, but dat wld give me and the sch a bad name. and besides i need the performance appraisal form aso. later i got lousy performance appraisal den i die. sianz. goin off to watch AMI now. hope the vote jasmine out. she’s very pretty but i dun think she’s dat good, and her saccharine sweetness is startin to irritate me.

juz got home not too long ago, damn shagged. started my internship last week, and though the wk seemed to fly by, the workin hrs like kinda long. feel abit silly for workin so late and not being paid OT. like i supposed to end at 5.30pm but i alwayz end up leavin later, and like last Thur i left at 9.55pm! so duh rite? i’m not paid OT, allowance aso very low, dunno how come i work so hard. but smtimes i feel bad for leavin earli? like they’re rushing to meet deadlines, den i juz leave lydat and they hv to work until like 1+am. i knoe they’re prolly being paid a lot more but still..they’re nice ppl and i feel bad to say dat i want to go when i hv nothing on actualli. but at least if i hv anything on and i let them knoe, they normally will let me go lor. or if i stay late, den they will chase me to go home. luckily today hv to meet amanda, so at least i can honestly say i hv smthin on and leave a little earlier even tho there were some stuff dat they wanted me to do.

hai~ think tmrw muz go in abit earlier? coz got presentation tmrw, and surprisingly, their powerpt skills abit the CMI so i hv to like, help them do all the compiling and hyperlinking and wat not. but aiyo, like today was a few mins late and i was the 2nd one in the office onli! i’m normally either the first or second to come in for work. so nowadays i juz slowly no hurry, no need kan cheong mah since they all come in so late. haha but today i relax and was readin a bk dat’s why late.

aniweas, no resting during the wkend either coz i was out almost the whole day on both days! hm so like not enuf slp? haha *sigh* not gonna be able to get enuf slp until this wk end i think. :psycho1

aniewas watch Van Helsing!! it’s like, so cool and entertaining even tho i was tryin my best not to hide behind my hands. haha but yea Hugh Jackman is hothothot and so is Will Kemp!! man i was like droolin over his body everytime he appeared? :yum1 hai but the ending quite sad tho.. kinda unexpected to me..but the soundtrack is quite good too. so many cds to buy!! muz plan wat i want to buy with my first pay, however meagre it is haha. i want CDs!!!