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You still alive, baby?

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haha i realised dat i sounded kinda bimbotic in the previous entry. :blush1 haha dun care cant wait to go to work and see all those ppl (read:guys!) haha! :tongue1

anw yes i think i hv officially given my soul to my company. haha my latest record now is 10.20pm last Thurs. shiok rite? i’m too responsible liaoz lah haha. deadlines still nt over yet..but at least i think the program that i’m workin on is moving abit more. haha i asked my snr wat’s the max i can charge. she told me go ahead and charge, cos we’re gonna burst the budget anw. and bcos it’s such a difficult prog, and the mgr knoes we’ve been spending a lot of time on it, i shld juz charge. and anw my charge-out rate is so low. haha so actualli, basically i can slack for my last timesheet cos i can defn charge the most to this prog. yups the same snr gave me a pack of M&Ms crispy “to keep you going”. nice rite? i :heart1 nice snrs..juz like the other one who gave me an extra big blackcurrant pastilles. haha the piggish me needs motivation in the form of food to work!

took leave last Fri for the comm svc fair. pretty disappointing actually. the traffic was quite minimal, and it was early in the morning so most ppl still very sleepy. so we only got a grand total of 3 ppl to sign up. sobz. hope the monday ppl do betta.

scared to go to work tmrw! haha cos one day nv go work, scared that there will be one pile of files on my table. CS say there wasn’t anythn, but dat was midday. Jason was supposed to tell me..so either he 4got or got nothin lor. hope it’s nothin, den i can work on the comps of my prog. got 2 more to churn out and the faster i finish it, the less loaded i would be when the o/s info starts coming in later in the week.

oh yar the title of this entry is a line from Mr & Mrs Smith. hv i alrdy mentioned dat Brangelina are H-O-T?? gosh a guy his age can still look lydat, amazing. and jolie is so sexy!! and the way she said this line was so..i wld use the word arousing but i think sexy can lah. haha. smthn tells me i’ll be drooling over new ppl later this wk – Fantastic 4’s Ioan and Jessica! :yum1

the challenge

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:psycho1 i left work onli at 8.30pm today!!! wanted to complete sm stuff, and had to key in my timesheet. actually felt abit cheated. cos jason told me sm stuff, so i thought okie i betta work harder and stay later and complete more stuff. den ltr i realised dat mebbe i dun need to (not bcos jason din stay or jason cheat me) juz a feelin abt my snr. oh but AN was quite nice to me today. called me “Wonder Woman” haha. she said cos there’s a Superman (what she normally calls Jason) so there muz be a wonderwoman as well. and she told me dat if i cant cope i muz say, so i thought dat was pretty decent for her. think she’s reallie very caring; too bad she’s nt my snr. the other day she told my mgr hw gd jason was and i overheard. think jason overheard aso lah. ya lor got snr who sings your praises to the mgr means nt bad leh. dunno whether mine will say anythn anot, or at least give me a gd appraisal anot.

anw, long day, still more stuff to clear. shitamama, i wanted to start on the other program today, but had to rush other stuff cos of the 30th june deadline. but i aso reallie need to finish those in the other progm. dats why was very confused when jason told me.

oh wells, long day has its perks as well. like AN talkin to me. and AG smiling at me!! wah~!! not the big grin like previously, but hey it’s betta den nothing!! :tongue1 he is so darn cute! and SH talkin to me as well! pretty weird and surprising, cos i din expect SH to strike up a conversation with me.

oh yar, one last note: office printers and photocopyin machines are the best way to meet ppl and chat!! it’s supposed to be the pantry/water cooler, but dat place hasnt realie worked for me yet. i hvn’t even seen the cute AM guy!! growls.

need to slp. think tmrw, and this whole week gonna work late again. hv to finish dat prog!! :sleep1

overwhelming

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i’m tired, as usual, but i juz wanted to drop a short note.

not too sure who is realli readin this anymore, but juz to say hi to the ppl whom i think used to read.

evie – sorrie i hvnt reallie been talkin to u much as well. hw do i put it? it’s so hard to find time to talk to u, and i was even supposed to meet up with u like since a million yrs ago! pls msg me when u leavin k. muz be careful over there!! will miss u.. tho nt as much as the bf rite? :grin1

damon – yo jie mei, so wat u doin nw? slackin isst? tell ur shuai ge fren dat i miss him leh!! fridays are so boring now, haha!

juz met up with frens frm sec sch and jc; as usual it was good to see everyone. smtimes, u dun realise u miss the person until u actually talk to that person. hw do u explain it? like this one time, i was talkin to amanda on msn. juz talkin rubbish, abt guys all that. aft i logged off, i hadn’t realised hw much i missed those nonsense chats we used to hv talkin rubbish esp abt guys.
den meetin up with ivan. it’s been ages since i talked or even seen him. and it feels so gd to be able to be out with him again, yet things are diff.

guo qu hen shou xi, xian zai bu dong ni.

this phrase is so descriptive of the r/s dat i hv with quite a few of my frens, esp the ones dat i used to be close to in jc.

anw, it shocked me juz nw when amanda said dat i dun care abt my frens anymore; she said i cared more abt my work. and it struck me hw true dat was. it’s reallie scary but i cant reallie rem when was the last time i actually got off work earli. brought work home the past few wkends, told myself last wk dat i wun bring back this wkend. work has been overwhelming me dat i dun even hv the energy to talk abt work. and on wkends, it’s another whirlwind of activity. so amanda’s words reallie left me stunned, esp when i juz found a a fren had to go thru sm stuff. i knew we were supposed to talk, but i was so tired dat i wanted to slp. and i cant even rem which of the days we were on the phone bcos time juz slips by me. darrell, i’m sorry i missed the calls. perhaps u wld hv told me, perhaps u wouldn’t. but sorry i missed the calls.

the pile of work(shit) is still waitin for me in the office. problem is, im such a pig dat when i spend too much time at work, i get too tired, not enuf slp, den i cant function properly the nxt day.

i realise dat in the mornings, i’m usually reallie slow cos i hvnt reallie woken up yet. so my productivity gets reallie low. juz realised dat i dun hv my cookie jar anymore; i’m so screwed. i need to work a lot harder this wk. shite. yea anw as i was sayin, i onli start to pick up speed in the aftn. prolly abt 3pm or ltr. (cos aft lunch u aso feel sleepy one mah) so by the time i churn out productive work, it’s almost 5.30pm. so i end up workin late. but i work alot betta when it’s later. cos no1 is in the office, well actualli most ppl hv gone off for dinner first. so the office is reallie quiet, and i can think betta and i can listen to my mp3s. but den i cant work for long b4 i hv to go home for dinner. sux. i reallie muz work harder nxt wk. lots of computations to churn out. shitamama.

so many things hv happened recently, most recently last nite, but i hadn’t had the time to reallie sit down properly and think abt them. a lot of things are scaring me at the moment but i don’t know hw to put them into words. things are so different, and difficult.

choccolat

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Retail therapy is really good. shoppin is gd for health, really. finally got a black jacket for work and a very cool bag. kept starin at funny designs..well funny in dat nt many ppl can carry it off, and i’m defn NOTone of them. well, LL wears it and looks really cool, so i thought i wanna give it a shot too. but i cmi lah. but im like totally broke. everythn is so exp. lunch, transport, hvin a social life.

there was supposed to be a hot lunch on monday, but it was a total flop. dinner was betta, and it was good, cos seansean and i hvnt seen each other for soooo long. oh we looked at the trains in the kids section of the dept store. there was this really huge display, with really long tracks that move in a continuous loop, and this long cute train dat was moving, so we were juz wonderin wat it wld do when it reaches the bottom level. wld it stop or go up? anw smhw there’s a little smthn on the track dat made the train move in a diff direction. hard to explain unless u see it.

anw work’s been busy. still concerned abt my charging. my cookie jar is dwindling, bcos there’s not more OA! sux. and i’m workin alone on a program, so quite busy aso. and yes i brought work home this wkend. can u believe it? im mad. oh went to meet a client on thursday. yea well if u’re in audit it’s no big shit, since u obviously hv to go client’s office a lot. but nt for tax, and defn nt at my level i suppose. at least i think the rest hasnt been to one yet. so i was pretty excited and nervous abt it. but it was cool, the client was really nice and friendly. i was reallie glad and thankful and appreciative that my snr actually brought me along. :smile1

btw, sad to say but Revenge of the Sith wasnt dat gd. it was okie lah, me being a fan and all, but i expected a bit more. mebbe i was too tired and cldnt enjoy it properly. or mebbe it was juz movin a tad too slowly for my liking. and i wasnt satisfied with the way anakin crossed to the dark side. abit duh, abit too swift, and doesnt really mk sense to me. like ya i knoe he’s been tempted since Ep 2 but like all of a sudden he juz jumps over? it juz seems like lucas spent so much time spent in building up his ‘defect’ (It’s called defect rite?) dat he got sian and juz decided to heck it and anyhw juz let him jump over for no reason. and yes im a romantic but i hated the love scenes. like hello, listenin to the 2 of them tryin to argue abt her beauty so doesnt do it for me. and since when can u run dat fast with 2 kids inside u? and sorrie to say aso, christensen’s acting sux. doesnt emote enuf. but his bod was HOT! :yum1 sorrie aso dat im bein such a narrow-minded ass but when Obi-Wan grabbed Anakin in the lift shaft and den ltr told Anakin dat he loved him, all i could think of was “oh they’re gay!!” and i thought of Frodo and Sam. haha sorrie man can’t help it. was there sm news article dat said dat there was a singaporean workin behind the scenes of this trilogy? mebbe there were a few Buddhist singaporeans on the prodn crew or smthn – first there was Naboo, den Padme and now Mustafa. sad lah, dat the trilogy had to end like that.

anw so many movies i wanna watch!!! but movies are so darn exp nowadays. gosh i guess piracy is the way to go nw man. so doesnt help dat they are increasin prices to mk up for the loss of profits due to piracy but it juz mks ppl all the more not wanna watch. anw charlie and the choc fty. gosh i loved dat bk when i was young. isn’t it reallie cool? to go into a choc fty and stuff. yea sean say wanna go watch aso..even tho i was thinkin of ‘saving’ it for rob. cos ya hv to watch movie with him lah. ya and i wanna watch initial d to see wat the hype is all abt. but it’s reallie a teen/chick flick and so nt worth the $$ watchin at the cinema lah. think i muz go find pirated ones haha! :buck1

I’m Back!!

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cool stuff!! the domain’s finally back on!! but i think the layout or watchamacallit kinda weird, dunno wat happened aso. but im too tired to fix it up. and there’re sm stuff dat i wrote when fakedevil was done and which i wanna post up aso. but *yawns* mebbe tmrw or smthn lah.

i wanna change to WP!! and put up a new skin! BH helphelphelp pls!!!

@ work

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wahahah!!! juz feelin very happy..

well actualli i went down to get ma ti su, den come up and will meet the rest for lunch ltr. it was quite paiseh actualli, cos it seems like i gg for long lunch? and it din help dat i saw so many ppl from my office along the way. growls. budden on the way back, i met my snr i.e. my immed supervisor. well i think she gd mood today, cos when i passed a file to her b4 i went downstairs, she looked quite okie leh..nt like yesterday…so on the way back from gettin my ma ti su, we met each other, and she actualli said one of these days we shld go for lunch! and she said hw abt nxt wk? i was so stunned! so of corrs say okie lor.

im happy cos i was plannin on askin her out to lunch liaoz. den mei say my work so bad, no pt i ask ppl out to lunch, i shld juz focus on doin my work properly. n it mks sense lah. like no pt doin PR when my work sux. so nw dat she actualli asked me, great!! so aft this, i can ask other ppl out for lunch liaoz..like my other snrs…

met daryl and jun along the way. i was kinda stoning/dreamin when i realised it was him.

well i tot i cld escape back to the office unseen, but horrors! i stepped out of the lift and saw the whole gang of snrs frm jason’s team. and of course they saw me with the plastic bag and asked wat it was. and of course silly jason knew i was gg for long lunch. but hm they, or rather SM quite nice lah. she asked whether i wanted to join them for lunch. horrors! smthn juz occurred to me!! did my immed sup ask me for lunch nxt wk cos she tot i normally eat lunch alone?! cos i was holdin the plastic bag mah..mebbe she tot i eat lunch alone..mebbe she saw jason with his snrs and tot i go alone?! gosh so sad. hw embarassing. aiya nvm lah at least can go for lunch liaoz, dun care wats the reason.

pissed with my sys this morn. cldnt gen my stuff. lt8r aft lunch gotta check with another snr abt the sys. grrrr waste time onli. okies i betta go settle my timesheet now!

Who?

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The Perfect Guy: Perfect in every way, he’s your Chad Michael Murray, Ashton Kutcher, Adam Brody, Usher, and Orlando Bloom all wrapped up in one amazing guy like Tommy Hazard in The Boyfriend List. He remembers your birthday, gets good grades, is psyched to meet your parents, and can’t keep his hands off of you (only when you give him the okay, of course)! You pinch yourself every time you see him to make sure he’s real.

i got this off a random webbie. or was it eCrush? anw, yes Mr Perfect so doesn’t exist, so i hv absolutely no idea hw i got this ans.

i shld nt work so hard!

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it’s fri tmrw!! haha time passes so fast when u get a day off work. the wk is juz so much shorter. only blardy problem is dat this is the last public hol im gonna get frm nw till the end of my internship. sux blardy big time. grrrr. no hot dates this wk haha decided to go easy on my wallet and my health. need to juz chill and tk things easy. but yups, aft a break this wk, i’m bz arranging stuff for nxt wk! :grin so many more ppl to catch up with!

actualli, i guess i reallie dun hv to work so hard. my snrs keep tellin me to go home instead of stayin so late or ask me why im nt gg hm yet or tellin me dat i can finish up their work the nxt morn. i guess i shld juz pay more attention to my work. it’s a problem dat’s still plaguing me. everytime i feel bad, i tell myself the nxt time im nt gonna mk any mistks. for a day or two, it’s okie, den the bug creeps back. smtimes, it’s juz so hard to find the energy inside to open ur eyes wide and spot the mistks aft u’re so exhuasted frm completing the whole task. i made a stupid mistk yesterday, and i was very sure i checked my work b4 i submitted it. yet smhw it came back to me and i see dat glarin mistk. hw cld i hv missed dat the first time? and i got the shock of my life when another case came back to me with one attachmt completely wrong. i was wonderin hw i cld hv been so mad as to even submit the wrong attachment, cos if i miss small stuff, i can’t possibly miss the difference in the title of the attachment rite? turns out i originally 4got to submit dat attachment, so my snr pulled out sm old attachmt to show me the sample. weird u knoe. i checked my lappie and realised dat i hv the soft copy of dat attachmt, yet i din print it out. hw cld i hv forgotten things lydat?

had a long talk with ma last wk abt my performance at work and i felt cheered up aft dat. last nite got scolded by her cos i told her i was still mkin mistakes. ya i feel bad yet im nt tryin hard enuf. i guess i’ve been too complacent, and the past internship was so much more diff. YT’s hvin the same exp dat i used to hv at my old workplace, so i’m reallie happy for her, yet envious at the same time. i like my job scope, but increasingly i’ve been askin myself whether it’s reallie wat i want. smtimes i aim for the top, yet at other times i wonder whether im cut out for it. hai.

actually, i wanted to wake up at like 2+am to watch the Champions League final match. c’mon it’s Liverpool vs AC Milan for goodness sakes! and it’s the finals! and it’s gonna be like the last soccer match for this season. gosh, nxt few mths will be darn boring. but aft the scolding from Ma, I decided that I should get more sleep so that I won’t be so sleepy and blur in the morning. It was defn a fantastic match, judging from the replays that I saw, but i think Liverpool is darn lucky. Just like hw Man Utd were unlucky to lose the FA Cup to ARSE when they were definitely the much better team during that match. I think it was just luck on Dudek’s side as well, though Man Utd should have gotten him as their GK instead of Carroll, who didn’t even move around before the shot was taken. :mad1

last wk

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hm so last wk was quite eventful and happening.

main gist of wat happened at work last wk: i screwed up smthn for AN again. sux lah. thanx to xn for listenin to me and advising me abt wat to do. yups and i talked to my immed supervisor and she was pretty encouraging, gave me quite good comments so im like wonderin whether she reallie means it and is honest abt it anot. haha hai. juz hope she rems all the gd stuff when she does my performance appraisal.

anw, yups hot dates are the way the get thru any work day, or work wk for dat matter! haha it juz mks work seem all the more easier, the day passes all the more quickly when u knoe u’ve got smthn on at the end of the day. anw yups, tue’s outin was alrite. quite disappointg reallie haha. thur’s 1 was much betta :grin1 lookin fwd to a repeat :wink1

went for the mfg mktn meetin today. at the beginnin, i tot it was juz a one-off thing. but aft today, found out dat it’s gonna be a big and long and serious committment. haha quite..scary actualli. but okie lah i guess, since i kinda mentally prepared and decided to commit more time to it. i alwayz feel very onz and inspired aft meetins with pauline; i think it’s juz the way she speaks haha. feelin kinda stressed abt the july event when she talked abt it. i think we reallie need the money badly, but i feel dat im nt helpin enuf to get it.