There is freedom within
there is freedom without…
Hey now, hey now
Don’t dream it’s over
– Crowded House Don’t Dream It’s Over

wahhh finally over!!! hai still tryin to not think abt tax and ais. yes i had ais yesterday. b4 the paper i was quite kan cheong cos i wanted to study, but had to meet eugene to pass him the proxy authorisation form. den no time to study liaoz. but study aso no use!! cos the stuff i brought to revise with me all useless!! i left the most important thing at home!! my quadrant!!!

hai. 30 mcqs still okie lah. but abit more tricky den the tests lor. so dun think i can get full marks lah. 4 open ended qns. 1st qn asked abt the major positive and negative impact on the reporting and processin of info in an ais due to the expandin dominance of the internet. this one still okie. i studied so can crap out, juz hope it’s correct crap. 2nd qn asked wat is the diff betwn a financial audit and IS audit? why is management philosophy and operating style important factors in internal controls of an AIS? this one i smoked out as best as i could aso, and i reallie hope its correct cos this one i not so sure. 3rd qn was the f-king killer qn. wat is the diff betwn functionalist and neohumanism paradigms with regards to the development of the ais? how does this differ from the radical structuralist paradigm? i was like wtf lor. i din bloody study this one lah. so stunned when i saw it. i mean, okie he told us abt it b4 the study break. sean even asked me b4 the paper. but the TEXTBOOK DUN HAVE lah, and the txtbk teach so diff from him!! so i onli hv the notes dat i copied durin class, which as the damned quadrant. which i din expect to come out so i ignored it. DAMN MY STUPIDITY again. its all my f-kin fault for not botherin to memorise my quadrant. if not at least can smoke. i crap out one miserable paragraph which was pure shit cos i reallie, i swear, i reallie hv no inklin watsoever abt wtf those 3 paradigms are!! 4th qn was to define and illustrate wat was a functional dependency, transitive dependency, concatenated key and foreign key. this one half sux. cos i dunno wat is transitive and functional dependency. nv heard b4. shit think muz be my own fault for not studyin the dba part properly. but i studied the dba part when i was like, awake, sober, not sianz; how could i possibly miss it? hai. ya so juz did my best to ans the concatenated and foreign key thing lor. hope its correct aso. hai. den the last big 30 marks qn on the DFD. it was abt the inventory and back purchase acquisition system. i drew the Level 0 diagram first instead of the context diagram. dun ask me why. i suddenly juz forgot how to draw the context. dunno issit too upset abt the open ended qn, or juz nervous or wat. totally no inkling leh. shit. to think i did all dat DFD practice for nothing. shit. so juz draw Level 0. i had 9 processes!! sean had 7!! gracie had onli 2!! like wat the hell? all thru the drawing of the dfd, i kept thinking abt mitch tellin us dat he will put in red herrin to confuse us. but i realli couldnt seem to figure out which is the red herrin leh. shit man. so aft drawin Level 0, den try to sm how squeeze out a context diagram. den not much time left. 15mins onli. so i went back to check my mcq, filled up abt 2 qns which i skipped, and tried to squeeze sm more things out for the open end.

hai i think im the onli shithead who nv study the functionalist/neohumanism qn. must be. every1 i knoe seems to hv at least crapped smthin out. fuck man 10 marks leh. and the other qns aso not guaranteed full marks sm more. and my dfd context dunno how aso. damn f-ed up lah. duno how he will grade my proj and class participation.

fuck. at least with chester i think and hope dat he would try to pull up our grades. but with mitch, i dun think so lor. think he’s the kinda who…will heck care u 1. hai reallie hope the proj can pull me up. i reallie hope to pass onli. actualli no. i dun want a D cos it fucking screws up my GPA. at least a C. C- aso good. C is best. dun wanna think abt B liaoz. shit man. hai. it’s my own fault for ais, dats why im so mad. at myself. cant blame any1 but myself. shithead. betta study properly nxt time u a**!!!
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bleah. WILL YOU LOOK AT THE TIME?! its a freakin 4am!!

bleah. finally done with tax proj. i hope. dats like the dunno how many time dat i think dat its done. hope its reallie done this time. den i can reallie go underground and mug liaoz. without hvin to stop halfway and doin it.

btw, online discussion with proj grp mates sux big time. damn unclear for me. mebbe cos i blur. but very irritatin i dun like. too impersonal!!

think i quite slack? haha cos i nv bother to read thru the whole thing aft each revision. too lazy. poor sean stayed up the whole of last nite until 6+am to do leh! and wans did all the smoking/crappin stuff. but erm i comfort myself by sayin dat they can do the editin, i do the technical stuff. like, thanx to zh and di for the info dat u provided. luv ya guys! thanx for trustin me so much haha. if u guys need anythin from the database in my sch, lemme knoe!! ya so i provided those info, all the bill supplements, i compiled the damn thing which was bloody irritatin, and i solved the problem with the stupid wrecked up footnotes thing. okie. so. hehe i got do work lah rite? rite?

juz finished talkin cock with ralph. haha din knoe he so crappy. gonna go zzz now and dream…of zurich..and colorado..and my rich cute guy, and ralph the personal pilot in a smart coat!! hahaha :sleep1

hm okie so luckily mitch nv call me to ans the dba qns. hm SH volunteered his REA diag lor!! like wth rite. hm so weird, dunno issit he reallie noe how to do and did it and got it almost correct, or did he copy the previous class one? anyhow juz surprised dat he volunteered lah. i din volunteer mine cos i think it was even more screwed up den my DFD the last time. aniweas he aso nv go thru the dba!! and i did until like siao lor. *bish* and i aso dunno whether my dba correct anot. but i guess doesn’t reallie matter cos exams aso he cant ask us do dba mah.

hm im currently hvin a love-hate r/s with audit and tax. last wk James keep pickin on me to ans. and i’m not the smart crappy kind who can fish around and pull smthin out of the hat to ans him. so he said “wld any1 like to help her?” so ralph answered. den he came back to me again, and i still canot ans. still recoverin from the shock of bein called the first time. and my mind was a total blank cos i seemed to hv forgotten wat i had learnt for mid-term. so aft he called me again, lagi panic, lagi canot ans. bleah. felt like shit. except when i told Jie, and he said it in such a blase tone “canot ans canot ans lor. where got everytime aso can ans 1?” den i felt slightly betta aft dat.

and with tax. chester and james still hvn’t returned the mid term yet. but think tax die liaoz. chester sent out email and it seems pretty bad. aniweas yes last wk’s lesson was okie, i understood, den this wk he started goin thru the test qns, and i was like wth. when u mk a general provision you muz add back durin the tax com. dat i knoe. den if u write back ur general provision, u muz deduct durin tax com. like huh? wats goin on man. so pek chek lor. suddenly like got so many things lydat. like when u learn each indiv chpt, u kinda knoe wats goin on. den suddenly u put altogether in one big qn, and i die until u cant even find my ashes and bones. esp those ACCA qns. shit man. dunno wat i’m doin here in accting? dun want to be auditor, dun want to be acctant. b4 this term i liked tax and wanted to specialised in it, den now, tax is killin me. den wat other career options left?! sweep floor lor. go Surfers Paradise collect rubbish. start work at 3am, by 9.30am i can be relaxin by the beach. and earn dunno how much per yr. at least dat’s wat mitch says.

aniweas din manage to catch the votin of the xiao hua xiao cao thingy cos was hvin Rot meetin.

met up with Ivan and Darrell to play pool last min on Fri. hm it was juz planned dat day, on the spur of the moment thing, and i wasnt even thinkin of goin to play pool. but nvm haha now i juz feel like playin sm more!! aft dat had a sumptuous (sp?) buffet dinner at Orchard Hotel!! wah eat until so damn full lor. but i liked the creme brulee.

hm where did i go on Sat? mk new specs!! so excited to get it!! it’s kinda like purple in colour i think? and prolly like more square-ish i guess. hehe juz a new look lah. hate my current specs, looks damn crap. and so old liaoz. cant wait to get it..
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ah. so it’s Sat. and it’s Oct. wat, ALREADY? time flies man.

so many things to say. things hv ended. things hv started.

but i’m sick!! again. as usual. during mid-term. so coincidental. hai. must be cos i keep late nites and nv eat fruits. so much for all the tay ping hui and zoe tay healthy living adverts on tv. *bisH* yar went to see the doc, and the medicine is mkin me soooo sleepy!! :psycho1 but no choice, muz get well so i can enjoy my bday!! haha comin soon ppl!! 2 wks time!! haha. October’s gonna be a fantastic mth for me! at least, dat’s wat my horoscope says. haha. it betta be true.

supposed to do FNCE proj. am starin at the financial reports of HourGlass. bleargh. sianz. aft the FNCE test last nite, i dun want to hv to look at any more FNCE stuff. but. schwork reigns supreme. argh. but i’m gonna go crash first, goin to play golf tmrw!! will blog more soon, hopefully!! g’nite, hope every1’s happy in bed. :sleep1

Note 1: rz, i reallie shld close this blog!!! haha

okie national day came and went. din do anythin much but slept late cos stayed up late the nite b4. went to the gym at hougang. hm big and new. but lotsa equipment look unfamiliar to me and i had no idea wat the hell their functions were. and the gym’s got crap rules!! wat rubbish onli. okie place lah, except dat i’m so used to small gyms dat i got a bit freaked out at so much space being available. was waitin for Jie to finish when i saw 2 parents bringin their 2 sons to the gym, the elder was 9 yrs old and the younger was 3 yrs old. so the pa and ma wanted to exercise, but the kids were too young to go near the equipment. so they dumped the kids at the sofa near the recept counter and went to exercise. i thought dat was quite screwed up. i mean, why so kan cheong go exercise (esp the mother)? cant you leave ur kids at home in the care of some1 else so you can exercise in peace instead of worrying dat ur kids would run over to the machines. or the ma can exercise first and let the pa tk care of the kids den exchange duties later lor. admission fee is per entry wat, so u can stay there as long as u want. so wat’s the hurry? aniwaes, i spent like 5 mins playing with the younger kid b4 i had to go. hehe he’s so cute! Weiwei is his name! hm but the 2 kids quite trusting tho, i juz talk to them and ask a few qns and they answer me. dun they knoe they cant talk to strangers?!

haha aniwaes watched the parade. but got interrupted by a call from xn. wat were we even talkin abt, i cant rem, but we talked for quite some time as usual. haha sorrie ivan i missed your segment. wasted, din even get to see the encore to watch ur segment. hm but luckily still can see fireworks. took some pics b4 i stupidly realised dat i shld juz record down the whole thing. damn.

btw, i onli found out on natl day itself dat sf could get tix to ndp but he rejected them!! wts. i was screamin at him and mei lor..haha not screamin lah but juz sayin dat they veri silly lor. even if not interested to go, u can still tk and sell!!! haha sell black mkt earn $100+, sell to frens aso good mah, at least earn like $10? haha jie wanted them, amanda wanted them, vince wanted them. wah lau can mk money sia. wasted chance.

tues went to visit ms ng, but she wasn’t at home. talked to her mother tho. i always think dat u shldn’t go and visit some1 empty handed, and muz alwayz be ke qi even if they offer you stuff. she wanted to ask her maid to go down buy food for me cos i brought tau sa piah for them. aiyo so paiseh. i din wanna eat anythin so she insisted on mkin me a cup of milo. haha reallie nice to see her again, and at nite ms ng called me to chat as well. it was good to hear from her as well, even if she was preaching. but i like her kind of preaching. mks sense and it’s so-called like religious preaching as well. i tihnk it’s good for me to hear all dat. and reallie, smtimes i marvel at how i’m/we’re fated to knoe her. ooh i went to cut my hair as well. at the salon dat luanne recommended. sux man. wasted my money. no diff in my hair style lor, even tho i wanted to go for a funky/edgy cut. but argh no diff! not goin back there again!

wed had comm svc meeting. hai. no choice, got sucked into it alrdy so hv to go thru with it. juz hope i can handle it all, and i dun meet sucky situations or ppl. hopei can meet more new interesting ppl, cute guys included! haha

went to play pool aft dat. okie so i reallie suck at it. so depressing can, every game aso lose. muz reallie practise harder haha. i reallie think there was no kick to playing with me lor, even he said so. okok i will aspire to play betta next time haha. okie lah mebbe i shldn’t even play with u at all, den u wun waste ur time. hm wonderin if i shld hv bought the jersey? 2 for $150 leh, good deal rite? but buy aso no use, i wun wear, think it’s too big for me? dunno. but hv to pay extra to print number and player name, so waste money. hm nvm lah. i wld rather buy the italian jersey. quite sad dat i couldn’t find the adidas italian polo shirt/jersey look-alike/watchamacallit. apparently dat was last season’s, so no stores are carryin it now. and i’m not gonna go all the way to queensway to get it. i bet i would look funny in it anyway. wanted to watch movie aft dat, but the timings and shows were quite sucky. missed The Notebook by abt 5-10 mins so i din want to go and watch liaoz. dun like to miss the beginning, and aso dun like to go into cinema late and risk steppin on ppl’s toes.

thurs i went back to NYJC. reallie good to go back. it’s been so long, and this time i finally saw the new completed sch and the ppl hvin lessons there. reallie fun to talk to mrs boo, i feel dat she’s different now, her thinking has changed abit, but still the same mrs boo to me. haha she said i looked good, “more like a woman now” and asked if there was a man in this woman’s life. haha sounded funny the way she asked it. aniweas she had to go prepare some stuff so i ended up walkin around the whole sch tryin to find ms chew and AT. wah the sch now so big, hv to walk so much. haha there was this poster in front of the lift dat says “keep fit, don’t tk the lift, walk” or smthin lydat. i tot it was so lame. like hello, who’s gonna care abt the poster rite? if i were there i would juz tk lift aso lor. siao. wah the new library is damn bloody amazingly cool. it’s got so much more stuff now, and even vcds to borrow!! i was so jealous!!! argh. went down the teacher’s room again. dun pray pray ah, they now hv this telephone outside the staff room to call for the teacher u wanna talk to. why are new schs doin this? even CGSS aso got. aniweas talked to ms fong. aiyo first thing she said to me was why ur hair so messy? haha i din reallie care tho, cos i idn tie up my hair, and the wind was juz blowin it, so quite messy lor. hm feels different talkin to her aso, not so comfortable liaoz leh. den AT came along. he asked how come i so free, i said i pon lesson. ms fong said i wun pon 1, dun believe me, cos i hv nv pon her lesson b4. AT said i pon his lesson, i was like, where got?! i dun rem lor. i dun remember skippin any lessons at all, did i? i was dat guai okie haha. den AT said okie mebbe not me, it was shiuan! shiuan did u pon? i cant rem aso! aniweas ms fong went back to prepare for her meetin, so i juz walked around with AT lor. he ‘showed’ his face at the hall where his class was hvin CT den he asked whether i hv eaten. i said no and asked if he would treat me. haha yes i’m always shameless when it comes to askin for free treats. haha so he said okie he would treat me, even if he onli has $5 left. basket i felt so guilty okie. den when he order wanton mee, the uncles asked $2? he said no, $1.50. i was like @#$!%^&*. i insisted on payin for my share but he kept sayin no lah he left $5 aso still can pay. so we had lunch and talked and den he showed me his pics and vid of his baby. wah his baby aso as fat as him liaoz! his baby so cute, i want to pinch his cheeks!! can reallie see dat he’s very proud and happy with elliot lor. everything aso record. from the baby bathing to playing, to the baby cryin aso he wanna record!!!! i was stunned lor. den the baby first learn how to sit up he aso record. u can hear the joy in his and mrs tan’s voice even thru the vid lor. a baby reallie changes a person.

went to the TP gym aft dat. so much smaller, and equipment so much older compared to the hougang one. bleargh. and so many guys there aso, sux lor. they hang around the crampy weights area, use all the machines. aiyo no space for me to use aso.

last min packing at nite!!! quite touched dat amanda, ivan and even rob msged me. talked to manda for so long i din wanna put down the fone but i had to. talked to ivan until 1+ and was so tired the next day. hai felt quite bad dat i couldn’t meet up with rob even tho he kept askin me out. reallie din hv time to meet him, not even for lunch. qutie touched by his concern for me tho. and he alwayz surprises me when he throws me a line which i said to him like 3,4 yrs ago. i’m alwayz amazed dat he remembers sm things dat i said.

okie so the wk end was reserved for BKK!! next entry!!

Lancelot!!! Tristan!!! Galahad!!!

i wanna be Guinevere. nvm Iseult/Isolde also can!!

aiyah got a lot of things to say, so muz start at the beginning. which is er last wk?

Wed went for the “WiFi (wireless) security at home” at my office durin lunch. quite interesting, tho the middle abit technical and boring, but luckily i knew abit liaoz, so not so bad. still haven’t got the time to check my security at home yet. but anwieas i had a couple of qns so aft the talk i went to ask the speaker, this middle age angmoh guy. hm he was pretty nice. very willing to answer, and at the end when i said okie, i’ll go home and figure it out, ie figure out how to adjust my security settings, he said i could email him anytime if i hv any qns. how nice! i muz get it done b4 i leave, so dat if i got any qns, can email him b4 i leave.

oh yes, muz mention this. Met Amanda and BH at orchard on wed!! i seriously suspect amanda hangs out there all the time. but aniwaes was on my way to meet aud at lido so i was walkin and stoning since it was aft work and was juz not bothering abt ppl around me. den suddenly some1 called and it was her! my dream gal! haha but not wet dream lor amanda. haha yea but it was reallie nice to talk to her and bh (well bh din talk much lah) and she was so happy and enthu dat i felt so happy and not tired anymore haha. yup so left for my dinner date, and yar nothin much to say, except dat sometimes aft a very long time, u dun meet some1 from long ago, when u do meet up, it’s kinda weird. yar but i din want to leave amanda lor.. dunno why leh..juz so nice to talk to her dat day, haha and talk abt all those books.

aniweas Thurs, my Indian manager treated me and the new Chinese manager to lunch. cos my office nearby no nice/high class restaurant or anythin mah, juz kopitiam onli. so we juz went opposite to this air-conditioned Hainanese place. quite okie lah, normal food lor, i’ve been there b4 so nothin much. den we went back to my office canteen for crepe!! hehe cos the crepes were in aid of the PSC also, so my manager juz treat me lor. quite small lah, the scoop of ice cream and mango ginger so miniscule aso. but nvm lah, at least the taste quite okie lor. yar and my manager aso gave me a pair of clay, hand-painted earrings. so sweet of her lor, i was reallie so touched. when she asked me on wed to go for lunch, i was so shocked and surprised. cos she this coming wk on holiday, next wk mid wk den she come back den she scared not free so she treat me first lor. yar din knoe she so nice.

haha den coz eat so much, i was motivated to go gym haha. hm at first onli got me, den later all the ABNN came, and when they start exercising and sweat, it was quite smelly!! luckily the smell is onli obvious when u stand near the treadmill area, and luckily they use the treadmill aft i did, and luckily i finished and went off quickly.

Fri went TP for lunch! haha alwayz fun to go out for lunch, too bad my colleagues got meetin den we hv to go back quickly lor. but Fri nite i pig out again! aiyo damn bad haha.

Sat treated my family to Coffee Bean breakfast coz got NKF 50% disc coupons!! of corrs muz use!! haha but aiya of corrs it’s not worth it lah, like a few pieces of toast and half boiled egg like $3+ but at least it’s smthin diff and once in a while lor.

Listening to: Dreamz FM – Bu Zhi De

hm this wk has been kinda tiring. it started out with the stupid Euro Finals and my not gettin enuf sleep b4 dat. so monday went to work a bit stoned. but luckily not much to do, just checkin routine stuff onli. or so i thought. around like 11am May told me that the debtor AR figures for June in liaoz. so i tot, quite weird leh, how come she tell me? normally she just save in the shared drive, den later priya will ask me to do. but i thought since priya at some meetin, and i got borin stuff to do, i might as well get a head start on this so i no need to kan cheong when priya finally gets around to askin me to do. so i happy happy start to do, den priya came back from her meetin and said she needed the compiled figures by the end of the day! wah i kan cheong man..cos normally i do this quite slowly, and a lot of times my figures cant tie so always very pek chek. i felt so lucky dat i decided to start on it earlier b4 she told me.

so den i kan cheong do, and change all the stupid layouts that the big boss wants. and i managed to finish it b4 i left. hm priya quite nice lah. got a bit of cosmetic stuff left to do, and she said it’s ok she wld handle it and she look at her watch and ask me to go home. dat was abt 5+ liaoz, but i told her i would juz finish up b4 i go. it’s not as tho i was rushin anywhere on mon, might as well finish. so i happy happy finish and go home.

den next day Tues first thing i reach work, i saw on my desk the printed copy of wat i did the previous day, and the changes she wanted me to mk. den the figures are needed for some meeting dat day also, so i hv to kan cheong mk the changes. spent almost the whole day on it.

on Wed, spent the aftnn zappin stuff. A LOT OF PAPERS to zap lor. it was some asset stuff needed for tax computation, so one set for EY, one set for us. so i had to zap one set for us, and there were like thousands of pages of assest retirement stuff!! yar but i was quite disappointed can. i was dressed so prettily (haha) on Wed and spent the WHOLE AFTNN at the photocopying machine but the cute ang moh guy din even come to zap anythin or din even walk past!!! i was so disappointed :sad1 yar so stand until my legs damn tired lor. stand so long until the secretary from CCMS was amazed dat i was there for so long.

so today Thurs, again rush the AR debtor rubbish again. cos the big boss wanted the sept 03 figures, and there were changes to be made to the june 04 figures. so i had to do again.

wah even tho this whole wk had to keep rushin this AR debtor rubbish, luckily each time i din mk much mistakes. my figures mostly tie up with the SAP report, except for a few careless mistakes which i corrected aft a brief check.

den ah, tmrw Fri! supposed to be good right, cos end of the wk liao. but the stupid company goin to hv fire drill tmrw!!! omg can u believe it?! walau and i’m like on the freakin top floor of the entire building can!! dunno how i’m going to ‘escape’ from my office man. sure hv to run down 15 freaking floors. shoot. dunno wat to wear tmrw aso. skirt can lah rite? just not soo short or tight haha.

speakin of which, how on earth can u walk in a short skirt? how to not expose urself? must be the posture and how u carry urself. which means i CMI liaoz.

oh yar asked my colleagues today abt the cute ang moh guy. hai~ they dun even knoe his name can..and they aso dun think he’s cute! they think he’s too short! haha eh he’s abit short lah, haha shorter den my normal preference haha. but at least they said he’s decent lookin okie! hm my colleague encouraged me to go speak to him!! haha i so shY!! :blush1 they dunno him well, so they cfrm dun even knoe whether he’s attached anot. how can i anyhow lydat rite? hai~ sianz.

oh yes another thing. The difference betwn guys and gals. i was tellin him i was very sad cos Alex Yoong is married and even has a kid alrdy! hm Alex Yoong is this reallie cute mixed parentage driver who used to drive for Minardi in F1 last season. and i think he’s reallie cute so i was reallie sad when i found out dat he got married and got kid liao!! so i told him dat, and he said, so? even if he’s not married, it doesn’t mk a diff. i said it does!! doesn’t it? haha yar den he said i talk c**K. :pout1

sianz. betta go and do my comm svc report now. every1 is talkin abt joinin a CCA in uni! my fren ask me join rotaract. i’m quite confused, dunno whether i shld anot. scared i canot cope with sch+prog+cca, yet i need to put smthin down on my resume!! how how how?

hm feel depressed but chatty. think it muz be PMS? except that this is the perpetual kind i think. had a huge fight with pa, but think it’s okie now. dun reallie feel like talkin much to him as yet, but see how. and within the space of a wk, i got pissed with Jie too. reallie, smtimes dun understand how he think the way he does. can’t he consider abt others besides his studies? it’s like, he cares abt his basketball, his sch work and most recently his most beloved gf. his family machiam like dun exist lydat. mebbe it’s juz me. i think i’m paranoid and naggy like old woman lydat. can’t he think abt his family more? dun understand u knoe, he can go out with gf like so many times, play in the bball competition dat tks up his nights, yet ask him to eat dinner with the family once in the whole 7 days of the wk and he say he needs to study coz got no more time liaoz. like wat the hell? get himself involved in so many things but got no time for family, wat is this? yar and smtimes i wish Mei din hv to work so much too. but bo bian, work is lydat. she even said she wanna ask her boss let her go China work leh!! hai~

*why am i still feelin hungry even tho i juz finished dinner?* :eek1

aniweas i talked to my buddy today!! hm wonder whether i mentioned it b4? i knoe i told some ppl but dunno whether i blogged abt it. my company has this buddy system to help new interns fit in. so on my 1st day of work, i met my buddy, this NTU guy in TQM. so the HR woman intro me to him, and told him mebbe he can follow us coz she bringin me to my dept. so he came over. den the HR woman brought me to see my assistant manager and i talked to her for like 1 min or so and when i turned around, my buddy had juz walked off without a word. can’t he even say like “i’m goin back to my work now” or “if u need anythin juz let me knoe” or smthin lydat. he juz nv say anythin and walked away. so i was kinda pissed with him. i mean, wat sort of buddy are you rite? so for the rest of the day and wk, he din speak to me at all, din come and find me or anythin. so i aso dun go talk to him lah! den today, i walked to the pantry and saw dat the lights in the entire TQM, CCMS, Legal, BD section were not on. and he was alrdy there workin liaoz! the onli one! in the dark! so i thought, aiya okie lah, go talk to him lor, at least now got a conversation topic, and also since it’s gonna be his last day here tmrw leh. so i went over and asked how come he’s workin in the dark and he said it’s okie. so den i asked which uni he’s from and which yr. yar dat’s abt it den i walked back. den gang qiao juz as i was goin home today i met him again at the lift. so he finally decided to smile and talk to me. the last few times he juz kan cheong kan cheong walk very fast, machiam like scared i’m gonna pounce on him lydat. haha yar so we talked abit b4 the other ppl came into the lift lor. damn so wasted if not can talk abit more. hm so mebbe xinni was rite aft all, she said he could be shy. but seriously, aft bein in the uni and company of gals for like 5 yrs at least, how shy can u be rite? shy aso can be frenly abit mah. hm mebbe i lveri scary face like this lah :psycho1 haha

but somehow this incident with him made me think. smtimes in life, we dun tk the initiative to do smthin. by the time we do, it’s too late. like me and him. it’s not as tho i like him or wanna date him, but we can be frens. but becoz we both din talk to each other these 2 mths, and talk onli on the day b4 he’s gonna leave, there wun be any frenship. and it’s gonna be kinda weird for me to ask for his hp since we’re not dat close. yar but like, so wasted rite? we could hv been frens, whether close or not. but no chance of dat happenin now. yar so wasted, like if we dun grab the chance to do smthin, and juz try no matter how stupid we would seem or how stupid the outcome would be, u would nv knoe. aft all, wat’s the worst dat could happen?
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hm feel chatty today. so many things to update!! so think this wld be a long entry?

anwieas went to watch “Around the World in 80 Days” last Mon coz i volunteered to help out in the organising of the movie premiere to raise funds for DPA. the movie was entertaining, some parts quite funny, esp when u see the cameos. but hm typical Jackie Chan stuff i suppose, so not reallie worth more den $6.50. wah i kan cheong left work so earli, in the end jzu stone at Great World until the event started. it ended quite earli aso, i tot there would be stuff to do aft the movie but got nothin. hm FD was there with his family, think he and the lady-in-charge are good frens. he’s quite cool, and he and his kids are very affectionate even in public. how sweet.

joined the Singtel SMS shootout on Sat. haha juz tot to join for fun since i dun use the dictionary, and er i tot i can sms pretty fast. haha was so happy when i typed the msg in like, less than the world-record timing lor. but jeez, apparently there are 125 other more ppl who could type it even faster!! my goodness!! so many ppl in SG msg without predictive txt and can do it so fast aso. damn so wasted. so disappointed. :pout1 tot if i can go finals, even if i’m last in the finals aso can win prize. now not even in the finals, so onli got 1 starbucks voucher. haha.

aniweas Sunday i met up with Val. went to Excelsior Hotel for dim sum buffet. supposed to go Clarke Quay or smthin but she too lazy to walk. so i brought her there to try coz i aso nv been to this branch b4. wah er think we ordered too much? i ate until i wanted to puke lor!! :psycho1 we were tryin to come up with ways to hide the food, like puttin the char siew pau into the tea pot, droppin food on the floor ‘accidentally’, using the pau paper to cover the food, stuff lydat. nv felt so full in my life. goodness. hm she’s like attached now, to this 34 yr old guy!! was so shocked to hear that. he drives and has quite a steady income. but i nv expected her to be with some1 like him. and the age diff!! 14 yrs!! perhaps it’s juz not dat common a situation, esp if my fren is involved as well. hm for her sake, i hope dat it works out. but aft talkin abt her and him, i felt so acutely aware of how immature i am. reallie, think i haven’t grown up, so canot find a guy so much older den me! haha but yar, her thinkin, and her consideration for him (sinceh’s an older guy) is juz not wat i would consider. am i mkin sense? smthin lydat. but hm as long as she’s happy, which she seems like to me, den good for her.

walked all the way to Marina Promenade aft dat to see yousep at the national canoeing competition or smthin. coz i tot i saw him earlier at City Hall, u can’t miss the trademark NY black top with some red/gold chinese character on the back. but i wasn’t sure whether it was him and he was with frens, so i juz msged him later. and he called and said he would be there, and i said i would go look for him. oh wells, since i said dat, canot dun go mah, even tho i was quite stoned, and it was such a long walk under the hot sun!! the NY team was rite under Benjamin Sheares bridge lor!! i walked dat far lor!! aniweas juz chatted with him for a bit, it’s always nice to talk to old frens. :beam1

met up with Jen yseterday. it’s true when they say dat it’s good if gals can get together to bitch abt their common ex. walau if we din talk, i wouldn’t hv known dat he used the same ‘trick’ on her and dat he told us different things. haha thank goodness i was smart enuf to hv run away b4 anythin terrible happened. tho not fast enuf. lookin back it was such an immature time of my life (Well i dun seem to hv matured much! *gasp*) yar but aniwaes, i nv could understood why he liked me so much. like, apparently he hasn’t officially/formally broken up with Jen yet, but he would rather ask me and not her to be his date for the prom. oh man. i’m not pretty or smart, i’m juz some normal nut lurkin around. yet he can still not be over me. and according to Jen, it’s becoz of the closeness we shared. erm i nearly choked on my passion fruit drink. haha wat closeness? my goodness, i nv felt anything and there has onli been 1 guy even in my life with whom i hv felt the closeness. wat kinda closeness can there be if we dun even like the same things?! yar but aniweas, he’s juz totally crap and a jerk. poor Jen, she knoes he’s an ass but she can’t get over him. i totally understand, esp when it comes to feelins, but still!! hello!! he’s reallie unbelievable lor!! dunno why she still likes him, shoot forgot to ask her wat she sees in him. i mean, it’s not like she has no tiao jian lor..think she quite pretty aso mah. oh wells.
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“honor the gods, love your woman and defend your country.”

alrite i finally managed to catch TROY!!! wow cool show but kinda sad.. i knew Hector was gonna die..but still quite sad, esp when his father went to beg Achilles for his body back. but i din expect Achilles to die!! so sad!!! hai~ esp since he went back to Troy to look for dat virgin priestess Briseis. so sad i tot they wld end up together. well at least Paris managed to mk himself useful! can’t believe dat he was such a loser!! i mean, it’s okie if he crawled back to Hector but i was expectin him to get up and fight some more!!! luckily LOTR came out b4 this or i wld hv gotten a bad impression of him. hai~ think he’s onli good at lookin pretty. at least they let him do smthin which he knoes best considering his Legolas background: that of firing arrows. hm cool show except dat i tot it was so sad with all dat killing.

BUT the main thing is the HOT HUNKY GUYS!!! haha wah man i nv tot i would like Brad Pitt so much. oh man he was so stylo. the onli part of his character i liked was when he went back to Troy to save Briseis and letting himself get shot in the foot and letting her go. wow dat was such a sad scene. i tot they wld end up together or smthing. and Eric Bana!! haha watched BHD like 2 yrs ago and tot he was quite cute oreadi. din mk it big until now. hope he gets more popular. wah but his chest in dat one scene in his bedroom when he was gettin ready to go to battle with Archilles was like huge! maybe it was the camera angle or smthing but his chest looked broad compared to the other scenes when he was hidden under all those clothes. hm but poor Sean Bean. in the movie, his character like quite impt leh. Odysseus helped to persuade Achilles to go to Troy and fight, and he came up with the impt idea of the gift horse to beat Troy!! how come his face and name wasn’t on the poster in big fonts? u muz squint hard to find his name at the bottom. well not dat i love Sean Bean or anything but still, i thought with such a character, he shld be impt enuf to warrant a mention, at least a small pic or smthing.

aniweas yar went to watch Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind too. hm nearly fell aslp at the beginning coz i din understand wat was goin on. but gradually got the pt, so i felt the movie was quite interesting. the concept was interesting. haha needed shiuan to help me figure out that you can erase your memories, but you can’t erase your feelings. reallie, i can’t imagine why wld any1 want to erase their memories. even if u hate that person so much, or feel so damn upset abt some1 or smthing, why remove it all? each experience helps you to grow, and lets you learn smthing diff. even if there were bad times, there muz defn be good times to balance it out. if u dun like the bad memories, and erase it, den they hv to erase your good memories aso. dun u want to keep the good memories? i dunno, smhow i juz feel that memories no matter good or bad, shld be treasured.

ah and Shrek 2 was hilarious!!! cant reallie rem Shrek 1 but i think this was even funnier!! Antonio Banderas as Puss was a hoot!! and Pinocchio and his “i’m wearin women’s underwear” *nose did NOT grow longer” was damn funny. and the MI2 reference!!! omg i nv laughed so hard at the movies.

hm went to watch some Arts Fest thingy aso. Morphia Series rated R(A). haha R(A) coz in the last scene, the lady was topless. hm again, interesting concept, and well guess everyone wld hv diff interpretations of it. but i loved the wine and pastry! haha regret u knoe..it was so damn dark inside, so i grabbed my wine glass reallie tightly thru out the performance for fear of spillin it or smthin. by the time i wanted to drink, the heat from my hand alrdy warmed the wine, so it tasted kinda flat or watever u call it. so i din finish it 🙁 so wasted!!

hm wat else? haven’t blogged in so long, i cant rem wat has happened or wat i wanted to record down. aniweas work is okie, gettin kinda bored coz doin mindless stuff like checkin invoices and all. so i’ve resorted to doin mindless stuff like surfin the net for mindless, clearin my sch email inbox etc. er think they prolly knoe dat i’m slacking? haha hey but like i alwayz say in my defense, the perm staff slack too. like the manager calls Sistic to book tix for Barney for her kids, and she was chattin on MSN today!! haha so why can’t i? except dat my #@%#$%^@$# MSN connection in the office sux like hell. i keep gettin d/c. bleargh.