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Say Goodbye

I thought July was the month for goodbyes.

I said goodbye to the States, and to the nice people that I met there, not knowing if I would see them in Singapore or ever again. I said goodbye to my hao jie mei, wondering what would happen when we see each other in a long one year’s time. As I was helping my juniors with their exchange to Aarhus, it felt like I was saying goodbye to them, and it reminded me of how I said my goodbyes a year ago.

July came and went. Then August came. And then I said more goodbyes. Goodbye to my juniors, who were leaving, at almost the same time as I did a year ago. Goodbye to a good friend zyl and yh. Goodbye to yt. Goodbye to kie. Goodbye soon to yw and yx. And in 2 weeks time, goodbye to my freedom! :shake:

I hate saying goodbyes. I get too emotional and choked-up sometimes haha. I hate saying goodbyes sometimes because I don’t know if I would ever see the person ever again. If I know I’m seeing the person again, and I have a definite time as to when I would see the person again, then I’m ok. I would be sad but at least it’s bearable/manageable. But if I don’t know when I would see the person again, then it’s sad. Ok lah some of the people that I’m saying goodbye to I’m not super close to them. But we had some fun memories together. And in the case of my freedom, confirm guarantee + chop i won’t ever see it again! haha

ok lah I also don’t know what’s the whole point of this post. I’m just sad that the people whom I know for a short while but who have left footprints in my heart are leaving. I’m just sad that I probably won’t see them ever again even though Singapore is so small. I’m just sad that in 2 weeks time I have to join the corporate world and work my ass off for the rest of my life.

There’s No Place I’d Rather Be

Music & Lyrics : Jimmy Ye
Sung by: Kit Chan

I’ve walked the streets of Cairo and Bombay
I’ve seen the neon signs on ole Broadway
I’ve climbed the Eiffel Tower,
The Great Wall in one hour,
Experienced sweet and sour but that’s okay.

Seen Hollywood, the sunset in LA.
The London Bridge, Big Ben, the Thames, UK
I’ve crossed the River Kwai
Yet still I don’t know why
I think of you each night and every day.

There’s no place I’d rather be
You’ll always be a part of me
And even though I’ve roamed the world
It’s still my home I long to see.

This is where my family
And my friends grew up with me
So I’ll cross the skies and sail the seas
To be where I wanna be.

I’ve braved the rain in Spain,
danced in Taipei.
I’ve queued in the West End to catch the play
Discovered I love snow,
all nights in San Francisco.
But still it’s you I miss when I’m away

Repeat chorus

Cos there’s no place I’d rather be!

this is the main song of National Day 2007. firstly, i think kit chan is a darn fantastic singer and i’m glad they got her to sing this song (even though i’m wondering why her again? don’t we have other singers in singapore? darn i guess not!)

anyway, the point of this entry is that i love this song. i love all national days songs, being the patriotic singaporean that i am haha! but i especially love this song because i understand and agree so much with the words. i may not have been to all the places mentioned in the song, but i’m proud to say that i have been to at least 9/10 of them, and yes i’ve seen them all and i totally agree, that there really is not place that i’d rather be except here in singapore. i may love to travel and see the world, i may even want to live overseas for a while to work, (i have even lived abroad for 5 months while studying) and yet i think i will still come back home here. because as the song says, my family and friends are here.

oh well i guess sooner or later, my friends would be scattered all over the world for work anyway, especially since globalization is such a big thing these days. but my family will always be here, so i guess this is where i would always return to. :smile1

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i managed to watch the Preview of the NDP all thanks to my good bro. first things first, the scenery of the Bay at night is fantastic. the parade seemed to be much cooler than last year’s, perhaps cos it seemed to be more geared towards the young, like having rap songs. more fun segments lah. and the fireworks seemed to be much nearer and in your face, and i loved the fireworks at the top of the 3 tall financial buildings. now that the first year is so fantastic and has garnered much praise from the big bosses, i wonder how they would top this come 2008?

what do i say?

back after a hiatus! :beer:

kinda tired right now so am not really in a blogging mood, but i thought i betta just drop a note here. i don’t think anyone reads it anymore, or don’t have the time to read it. have been wanting to blog, just that sometimes i’m too tired, or i just don’t know how to put into my thoughts into words. just never got down to it.

exchange has changed me, not in an earth-shattering, lightning blazing omg-i-wanna-be-an-spg kinda way. just different thoughts and different feelings; the world has obviously continued to revolve while i slept for 5 months. which creates an unsettling feeling. because i left things as they were in august, but came back to different people different lives in december. and i dreamt beautiful dreams while overseas that are so hard to share and explain to the people back home.

finally graduated!! feels weird. 18 years of school life has just slipped by and i don’t think i’m prepared to face the next phase of life. it’s scary, because it’s not protected school life and i don’t know what i’m going to face. i guess i don’t have to go on and on about why work life is scary and starting in a new school or starting a new school term isn’t. anyway, that is a long 4 months away. i need to try to make something out of this short freedom that i have.

sick again

i realised dat the :pill: i’m takin for my flu is making my hands shaky. there i am holding onto the spoon, having juz scooped the soup from the bowl and about to move the spoon from the bowl to my mouth and i see my hands trembling slightly. omg :oogle:

sick again cos i was just sick 2 wks ago and i thought i was ok and then it came back again, this time worse than before. :shake: was it cos i completed my antibiotics too late? ha but i hope i get well soon before i fly off! horrible feelin to be sick on holiday.

am still having fun cos a break is always good, but i realised dat once in a while, i feel abit aimless? worthless? like no purpose in life u knw? everyday just wake up, watch the clock and realise that it’s time for going out, go out, come home, watch the clock and realise that it’s time for bed. it’s so aimless and purpose-less. can’t believe i would actually feel this way seeing as i’m such a pig and slacking is my fav pasttime. ha.

i still cannot forget the fact that my dream bank didn’t want me this hols. Talking to Big Adrian last week suddenly made me feel like doing an additional internship at my dream bank next year before I start on my perm job. i’m mad lah, but i reallie reallie wanna knw how it’s like to be in a bank, and in my dream bank especially. :sad1

ok off to bath! :pill: is mkin me sleepy…

Mugging Marathon v3

Lately your focus has become a little bit cloudy, and some easy victories have made you slacken your sense of commitment. Fortunately, the stars send a little stimulus to get you back in fighting form.

haha unfortunately, i still dun feel any stimulus yet leh. AT is my first paper, and i only started studying for it today. quite scary considering that other ppl have alrdy covered this subj alrdy. but to me it’s cos it’s open-ended essay qn, so i thought shld be ok. but i am worried abt what kinda chim qn is gonna be set, and wat happens if i really dunno hw to ans? den i reallie will die. :shake:

spent the past few days studying QM and AFA, but it doesn’t seem to have paid off. u knw, ppl always choose to pia their weakest subj first, den study the other stronger ones. and by the time they have finished studying the weaker subj and are moving on to their stronger ones, it means that they are zai in their weaker subj alrdy. unfortunately it doesn’t seem to be that way for me leh. i’m still clueless abt QM and AFA. thankfully QM is open book, but it’s those kinda paper that if u dunno how to do, u dunno how to do. all calculations. same for AFA. really hope the qualitative qns in AFA will at least pull me up abit. see my quiz 1 was D+, quiz 2 fail!! means shld be E. project A- and say class participation guesstimate shld be C (tho cld be higher if she likes me). so overall shld be C or C- for now lah. so i just need to at least pass my AFA exam, and that she would moderate a little bit so i can get overall C- at least. any grade within C range is fine, of course C+ is betta but i wun be greedy. i just dun want D range. QM abit whacked aso but i think i shld be able to pia that one.

2 wks since my life changed, 1 wk since my important meeting, 1 wk more to my freedom. just realised the other day that I haven’t had a proper, good long holiday since December 2003. can u believe it? Dec ’03 was spent meeting up with frens, gg to KL with the Kopitiam gang, ushering at my first play. Summer ’04 was spent at an internship in an MNC, Dec ’04 was spent planning and executing my Rotaract camp, Summer ’05 was spent at a Big 4 firm, Dec ’05 was spent at another Big 4 firm. even better, Dec ’05 was a long internship. ok lah so there were 1 week breaks before and after each job, but it’s just different u knw. like aft next week, my whole holidays would just stretch all the way endlessly in front of me haha. from mid June till Aug. gosh so much free time what would i do? haha i need me time man, lookin forward to actually being alone since it’s been so long since i was doing things alone. need to meet up with precious people whom i hvn’t seen for ages, everyone who’s been cheo-ing me out bcos they are all for some reason, super duper free. need to settle other matters as well. oh and pack my super messy study table; i’ve even monopolised the coffee table outside. so many things to do! but i must enjoy this because next year i got no more hols!!! :pout1

you know, sometimes you have this goal in life. you want to achieve something or reach a certain target. that gives you the motivation to work very hard towards that goal. but once you reach it, would you still continue to work hard at whatever you were doing, to maintain the particular standard that you’ve reached to achieve the goal, or would you start to slack since it doesn’t matter how well you perform anymore? for eg, u work hard to win an award. once you win it, will you still work hard?

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ok lah so today got talk abit during the presentations. at first cos ‘dear’ jason purposely arrow me to answer the qn so i answered. basket early morning shoot arrow when i half awake. (ok lah i see him i already awake alrdy but dat’s another matter haha!) then their topic quite fun lah. and give him and gary face lah so pay attention and answer lor. and their topic is something that we’ve covered previously in other courses, so the knowledge is there, as opposed to other (new) presentation topics which are too chim for me to understand haha.

but aft the break i couldn’t pay attention liao. the group can’t present properly leh..like abit soft, cannot hold my attention, and their topic is abit chim lah. i tried to give eugene face by listening but cmi lah haha. poor guy quite worried dat we all din understand their ppt. but i think most of us were stoning liao lor. nvm next week i’m gonna try and listen again so i can talk! but next wk nobody to give face to..no favourite boy to listen to haha…:whatever:

oh must talk abt this strange MSN conversation that i had this morning. the other day, this person added me, so i thought the person was a friend so i added. then this morning the person was online, so i initiated the chat:

me: who are u?
红柳 said: 你好
me: 你是 ?[no choice she reply in chi i gotta reply in chi aso]
红柳: 对不起,请问是老潘吗?[wah same surname as me aso!! issit really my fren tryin to GL me?!]
me: 请 问 你是?
红柳 said: 你在新疆吗 [i was like, wth is this word? dunno how to read! hands up those who know!]
me said: æ–°ç–†? 那是 ?[haha ok lah i knw i sound retarded here. i asked me fren what those 2 words meant, and she told me it’s Xinjiang. as in, the place in China rite? dat’s when i know confirm+guarantee+chop this person got the wrong email address liao.]
me said: 对不起, 我不是老潘 我看你找错人了 [haha ya den aft dat she nv reply me liao!]

such a funny encounter rite? really made my day haha. these few times always got funny things happening to me haha. this kinda funny is ok. dun be those funny-bad kind.

anw suddenly quite pissed cos of SV. sometimes when u are together with someone for too long, you cannot tahan the person. i think mebbe cos we never really worked together on projects before; our progression has always been different so i could offer her the support and encouragement tt she needed. but this sem we’re working together for 3 projs. what i cannot tahan is tt she tk very long time to complete other assignments, so the project work she will always tk very long to do. ok lah i understand tt sometimes assignments realli very difficult to do, so muz tk longer time to think abt it. but i think it’s abt time mgmt aso? muz force yrself to think harder so tt can do faster. and u cannot just neglect the other stuff tt u have to do. juz becos u doin proj with ppl u knw u can keep pushin back. ok lah i’m not the most hardworkin person in the world man, i’m like how slack. esp if i work in a grp of zai ppl, i will sure slack cos they are all betta than me. but now i’m panicking cos my groups this sem ALL not zai one can. i sure die. so i kan cheong wanna discuss proj, at least get something rough draft out then know which direction to go. but SV always need to push back. like last time TWC ppt meeting, SV late cos rushin FT assignment. then today i wanted to discuss AFA proj meeeting den SV was like “not now rushing TWC summary” cos she spent the weekend doing her AA summary. but like discussin meeting date onli wat, very difficult meh? not askin u to do the work now what. aiya but when she finish her summary then she ok alrdy. i think she aso knw i’m pissed la. :rant:

talkin to kw about election and rallies. we both wanna go rally except that he is in a different ward from mine.. he was like sayin we were so auntie for wanting to go rallies. but i think quite fun wat, just to listen to what all the contestants (??) have to say on improving my neighbourhood haha. not that there’s anythin much to do; not for me and quite a few others since we would be moving soon anw. :shiftyeyes:

but next wk a lot of stuff dunno where to find time to go rally. unless it’s really really near my house. den mebbe gg out this Fri. den Ig wanna meet next Mon but i got QM and TWC test next wk; how come the other ppl no test meh still can go out?! :oogle:

free free free!

WAHAHAH no more AFA!!! Die AFA Die!! crap this is only Quiz 1 worth 10%. there will be at least one more quiz later in the term man…sux! anw ok i hope to at least pass, or better yet, get a decent grade at least. decent being higher than pass grade, no need full marks lah i’m not greedy haha. My Profit & Loss Statement and Balance Sheet sure buang. 30% leh..i cannot balance my BS leh. P&L sure buang cos i nv finish and dunno whether figures correct anot. forgot to put in the adjustment to eliminate inter-company payable and receivable!! :shiftyeyes: never even noticed it till i was doing the BS. notice aso no use lah haha..i cannot rem how to do the elimination cos i nv practise for inter-coy payable/receivable. best..at least my analytical check for subsidiary (MI balance) is correct, so i know 10% marks assured. equity accounting buang cos my unrealised inventory adjustments wrong, so balance wrong, analytical check wrong. :noshake:

WATEVER!!! pass can alrdy. seansean and i had the same thought and turned up in red shirts. haha i wore the same tshirt tt i wore to my QM test (which i thought buang but i scored 100% though got no bonus). so hope the tshirt work for me again lah! :err1

still got some more shit on my plate. TWC presentation tmrw! so gotta prep my script. gotta beautify AFA presentation that will be next week but we need to send to Prof earlier to verify. got QM project on Fri and AFA project that is due in less than a month! :shake: still got TWC summary due next Mon and AT research due next Mon cos presentation is in 2 weeks time. gosh so much shit. still got QM test in 2 weeks and i’m so gonna die cos i can’t follow the lessons these few weeks.

actually only got 6 more weeks to exams leh. i shld start studying already!! dun wanna panic during the study break again, esp since i hvn’t been reading my textbooks at all!! hahaha okok will try and start next week. :pacman::pill:

anw how many times have i mentioned that intelligence in a guy turns me on big time? very impressed by my favourite boy in class today haha! and did anyone watch AMI?! gosh Ace looks so yummylicious! you gotta have the height, which he darn blardy has, and the build which obviously he does too, to carry off that suit he was wearing! and standing beside Ryan Seacrest, he looks at least 1.5 times taller and bigger than Seacrest. and with his hair all slicked back :yum1 somebody get me a fan!! it’s gettin hot in here!

rite i betta go prep for my presentation man. hope the Prof doesn’t ask chim qns cos i myself am not clear abt what i’m presenting! :oogle:

she’s the one!

everyone’s talking abt the progress package! have you got yours yet?? ok so bcos i didn’t service my cty for 2 years, i will get erm $100 lesser? didn’t understand the diagram abt the house thing..but who care as long as i’ve got the money? need it ($$) very much!! need sponsors now!! who wanna sponsor my early bday present? i need..digital camera; sunglasses; track shoes; and a kick-ass, huge, long-lasting luggage bag. :smile1

so is it really bcos of elections tt we get this? that’s what a lot of my friends have been saying, and thus a lot of them are voting for you-know-who. i don’t think it makes a difference lah. unless you stay in a hotly contested ward like..erm..what’s hotly contested? potong pasir every time aso kena. dunno whether marine parade is this yr? i dunno man i dun follow politics. oh but i do know that 3 new candidates were introduced last weekm another 3 today (for dunno which ward) but there’s more to come on Thurs!! how does one become a candidate? can i be one? what do i have to do to be one?

it’s not tt i would vote for the opposition (siao u think i wld tell u who i vote for? it’s secret and confidential!!) but is it possible to vote for the opposition? i’ve never voted b4 but i heard dat yr voting slip has a serial number on it, and when u sign up on polling day to indicate tt you’ve gotten your voting slip, your serial number would be recorded beside your name. huh so much for voting being secret and confidential? that’s what i heard lah but dunno true anot. let’s wait till the GE comes along and i’ll know! first time i can vote! and hopefully it would be a weekday which would aka be a public holiday!! actually it’s good to work in SG, cos there’re a lot of public holidays. but then again, stress level so high here, kinda offsets the low stress level-less public holidays combi of other countries.

suddenly very excited abt the Marina IR, though i was so against it when they first proposed it. now i’m thinking abt all the exciting benefits. was reading the BT yesterday for a brief summary of all the bidders and what could be special about each of their bids. sounds so fun to..hv museum? entertainment stuff? i shall blatantly ignore the fact tt all these will exist side by side with the casino, which is prolly the one generating the most economic benefits. bleah.

ok i need to stop rambling and sleep. i f—ing HATE ADVANCED FINANCIAL ACCOUNTING!!

shottelmyer

yea! u like the title of my post? hahaha!

narnia was not bad. i wun strongly recommend u to watch, neither would i say it sux. it was abit geena tho.. and i felt it was a bit boring/slow-moving at certain parts. but i liked the kids tho. i think they all acted very well. but i was quite disappointed with the witch queen. she wasn’t as fearful or scary as i expected her to be. and i was disappointed dat they din put in the scene abt the giant at the castle, the one where aslan ‘freed’ him and he helped break the walls and used Lucy’s handkerchief. :pout1 okie lah but i know u cant put everything from the bk into the movie anw..

hm and either i’m seriously mad abt LoTR or there really is a similarity. ok the great battle rite? edmund was injured and Peter was tryin his best to fight against Jadis, and Susan and Lucy were with Aslan. All looks lost cos how can Peter win against the witch queen rite? den suddenly Aslan roars and appears at the top of the mountain, and everyone fighting the battle turns towards the mountain, and suddenly u see his ‘army’ of people/animals/stuff that he ‘rescued’ from the castle. and they run towards Jadis’ army and start fighting. now what does this remind you of? LoTR TTT, where Aragorn led the battle against Saruman’s army in Helm’s Deep. when it was the 4th/5th day at dawn, and all seemed lost cos the Uruk-Hai had already broken into the Deep. and suddenly Gandalf appears at the top of the mountain on his white horse. everyone fighting the battle turns towards him. and den u see Eomer appearing beside him and the rest of the Rohirrim appearing behind them. then they all run down the mountain towards the battle. so similar rite??? but narnia cant measure up to LoTR man. never.

ahh i luuuuvvvv mr tumnus the faun! so cute!! well like/cute as in the guy, the actor. acting wise ok lah, but i thought that he didn’t really portray the faun very well – not enough innocence, not enough confusion. just not the way i expected the faun to be aft reading the book. i just felt smthn was missing. hm anw the same guy was in Wimbledon! as Peter Colt’s bro! that jackass who was betting on his bro to lose in the matches!

anw class outing was..abit sad lah huh? 6 ppl only leh. u must see who organize lah. haha i din say anythin, u nv see anything. but it was quite fun leh, i quite liked it. i’ve alwayz preferred smaller groups. rather than u go in big groups, but everyone break up into smaller groups. duo mei yi si. felt bad tho cos i kept naggin at marc to stop smokin. tsk tsk i dun care if u smoke, juz not in front of me.

yes i :heart1 the cho truffles shiuan! and aft hearing the fun story, i aso want a X-X-X guy too! haha cmi. that is one of my x’mas/new year wish ok. my other wish has been fulfilled!! thanks evie!! now i can go watch bsb!! really hope that i can mk it on tt day aso! suddenly so scared tt my work will end late or smthn cos i juz checked today and realised tt my nxt few jobs will be in jurong!! now my last wish, which is prolly nv gonna come true, is to eat the holly jolly pizza from pizza hut. but i think cmi liaoz..cos the promo is over!! :shake:

cafe au lait

caution: long entry!

i went to han’s bday party last week. seems like hers would be the last 21st birthday party i would attend for this year, thank goddess. unless i know someone who is younger than me and am close to that someone, han’s party would be the last one i would attend in my life. unless i have kids. or my sibs have kids. or my cousins hv kids. oh wth watever!

rz asked me, what’s the fascination we cedar gals have with vs boys? beats me man. i told him it’s cos we’re not into cat high guy haha. i guess it’s cos vs and cedar were unofficially sis-bro schs. yea one of those rubbish you engage in when you’re young and stupid. i liked my sec sch days. tho there are some things i won’t wanna rem haha. like when xn intro me to km and the gang, and km asked whether we chatted online b4. haha i don’t rem talkin to him and i don’t wanna rem man. not tt i care anyway since km is juz an acquaintance to me. and i aso dun wanna rem my young despo days. wahaha. not tt i’m not despo now but that’s not the pt. i dun want to rem my irc days either. haha man dat was so darn long ago! it seems almost foolishly immature, and hilarious, now how i used to enjoy chatting on irc/icq so much.

comparing betwn the vs gang and the other motley gang made up of guys from dunno which sec sch, man i would choose the vs gang anytime. ok it’s not the endless fascination tt i have with vs guys ok. it’s juz tt when you put 2 grps of guys together, a gal instinctively knows which ones can protect her and which can’t. even if xn were to say tt the vs boys were more comfy, hence more loud and boisterous, thus mkin the other group seem quieter, i still don’t agree. how do i explain it? the vs dudes were technically also in a strange environment mah..except tt mebbe there are more of them? oh well i guess it’s also cos of their build. and something abt them tt screams testosterone as compared to the other ‘pansy’ group. ok i’m being mean. and goodness knows why i’m talkin abt this. i juz find it very funny that’s all, that i would instantly gravitate towards the vs grp. mebbe cos i know them betta den the other grp, and i trust them more.

luckily xn managed to help me get a ride (halfway) home. we packed into yang’s car, and i told him to drop me off at NY. funny tho, i haven’t been there in ages, and i dun even rem the buses that go tt way alrdy! i kept thinkin i wld have a str bus back from dere, so he dropped me at the big main rd with the big bus stop. den i realised dat there wasn’t a direct bus, and i tot mebbe i would hv to walk into the smaller road and tk the str bus from the busstop dere. so i happily crossed the overhead bridge and walked to the smaller road and busstop. oh man, the memories. wonder who remembers tt smelly coffeeshop? the one where, if u dun feel like eating sucky canteen food, and u’re on yr way home, u decide to stop there for some hawker food? the one where if u sit dere for just 5 mins, or just walk past, u would stink to kingdom come the moment u leave that place becos of the lousy ventilation it has? yes i walked past tt very coffeeshop to get to the smaller busstop. and promptly realised tt there was no str bus home. i got confused again. so no choice had to tk one bus and change later. how silly. oh yea, and when i was there, i suddenly remembered abt my little cat. was it a kitten or a grown cat i can’t rem now. but i do rem that i used to feed it everyday, with milk that i would buy from the provision shop opposite the busstop, from this fairly plump woman with curly hair and a sense of humour and was very nice. wonder what happened to her now?

work this week was ok. betta than my first week. i just keep praying that it would get better and better as time passes. went to client’s place on monday, and they were very nice. and it was fun. i like gg out of office. and at least the stuff i was doin for tt client was something tt i understood betta den the computer stuff. was out again on tues, at another client, tho it was a rushed job. juz go in and come out. (gosh sounds like i’m describing something else. ok fine i think i’m juz horny). anw ya it was juz a one day job. and i spent the rest of the wk in the office. i thought i could go to another client, but too bad client was out of town. grrr. stuck in boring office. i love gg out; it’s the freedom and excitement of gg to a (new) client’s place to investigate new stuff.

tues was like how shiok. was at client’s plc and finished quite early. i asked my snr whether got anythin for me to do; she told me to juz sit back, relax and prep to go home. and on thurs, i asked another snr whether got any work for me; he told me to juz relax aso. haha darn cannot lah. if i can surf and chat and relax, den no problemo man. but if i gotta spend the time tryin to look busy and read relevant stuff, how boring. no choice. and besides, i like doing stuff too, cos tt means tt i would be learning something.

guess what i’m learnin this wk? unix, and linux. gosh how fun is tt? straw poll: who has heard of it? my snr gave me a crash course (one of the many i’ve had so far) in the os. basically unix is an operating system, juz like another Windows. i learnt the brief history, how it came abt and stuff, the commands, the different drives/directories. oh man, my favourite – i learnt the binary system! like how fun is tt man. :whatever: files in unix have permissions, and the permissions can be expressed in a ‘number’ format. so i had to learn the binary sys to understand the ‘number’ permissions. but my another snr taught me another way – the “2 to the power of” way, which was easier to understand, and faster to calculate. yes do you not think my job is fun?

i wanna dl my own copy of unix and muck around with it, but i dun think my dear lappie has enuf memory space to store. 6 gig file man. and i dun have a separate hard disk either. growl. too bad; i thought it was pretty fun to toggle betwn the 2 OS.

fri was cool cos it was half day!! hallelujah!! basically din do much work in the morning, cos i finished my stuff the day before and my snr had nothin for me. he told me to relax haha. i had another mini training session from my senior; talked crap with my colleagues; then lunch! free lunch k! so yummy! i’m happy to report that i’m becoming a little more social. i talked a bit more this week; hopefully it will be betta as the weeks go by. oh well, hard to say. sometimes i duno wat to say; smtimes they dunno wat to say so we juz stare at any other ppl/place except each other.

met cw along the corridor one of the days this wk and he asked me how’s my work. complained to him abt the difficulty. i think he was a little shocked at what i was learning as well. den he told me, “aiya nvm, at least at the end of my attachment, i can be IT guru. or goondu. dat remains to be seen.” idiot. forever suanin me everytime i see him. and depending on his mood, he may also throw funny corporate tax questions at me. harlow, there’s a reason why i nv wanna consider corp tax k – it’s cos i dunno and dun like!!

results for this sem are out. actually i got the unofficial grades quite some time ago alrdy; i juz wanted to wait and see my official gpa. well my term gpa is extremely high this sem, the highest i’ve had in my whole uni life. sigh. how i wish. but my overall gpa still falls short of my target! wtf. i’m nv gonna reach honours in this case. oh shit. 4 yrs but only degree. 4 yrs and nothing to show for the extra one yr. the only reason why i did so well this sem cos the modules were talk cock modules, and i was lucky. i’m not gonna be so lucky next sem – nxt sem modules are very technical/number-based. i sure cannot mk it. i only hope my gpa can go up a little bit. no need to jump over mountains and oceans; i wld be happy if i can juz maintain it.

actually hor, i think i shld juz slack my sem away and pia only towards the exams. ok yes i’ve done this b4 and regretted during the study break man. but really, i think it works. like corp reporting last sem. i pia at the beginning and middle, so hardworkin k. but in the end i became complacent and slacked off, so overall grade sucky. for subj like coy law and ipr, i slacked all the way thru the sem and started panicking only towards the end, and i got A and A- respectively. geez i shld juz slack den pia. mebbe i would get betta grades. and bcos this sem so talk cock, i reallie enjoyed it. sigh. i’m still wondering what i’m doin in this faculty.