i’m tired, as usual, but i juz wanted to drop a short note.

not too sure who is realli readin this anymore, but juz to say hi to the ppl whom i think used to read.

evie – sorrie i hvnt reallie been talkin to u much as well. hw do i put it? it’s so hard to find time to talk to u, and i was even supposed to meet up with u like since a million yrs ago! pls msg me when u leavin k. muz be careful over there!! will miss u.. tho nt as much as the bf rite? :grin1

damon – yo jie mei, so wat u doin nw? slackin isst? tell ur shuai ge fren dat i miss him leh!! fridays are so boring now, haha!

juz met up with frens frm sec sch and jc; as usual it was good to see everyone. smtimes, u dun realise u miss the person until u actually talk to that person. hw do u explain it? like this one time, i was talkin to amanda on msn. juz talkin rubbish, abt guys all that. aft i logged off, i hadn’t realised hw much i missed those nonsense chats we used to hv talkin rubbish esp abt guys.
den meetin up with ivan. it’s been ages since i talked or even seen him. and it feels so gd to be able to be out with him again, yet things are diff.

guo qu hen shou xi, xian zai bu dong ni.

this phrase is so descriptive of the r/s dat i hv with quite a few of my frens, esp the ones dat i used to be close to in jc.

anw, it shocked me juz nw when amanda said dat i dun care abt my frens anymore; she said i cared more abt my work. and it struck me hw true dat was. it’s reallie scary but i cant reallie rem when was the last time i actually got off work earli. brought work home the past few wkends, told myself last wk dat i wun bring back this wkend. work has been overwhelming me dat i dun even hv the energy to talk abt work. and on wkends, it’s another whirlwind of activity. so amanda’s words reallie left me stunned, esp when i juz found a a fren had to go thru sm stuff. i knew we were supposed to talk, but i was so tired dat i wanted to slp. and i cant even rem which of the days we were on the phone bcos time juz slips by me. darrell, i’m sorry i missed the calls. perhaps u wld hv told me, perhaps u wouldn’t. but sorry i missed the calls.

the pile of work(shit) is still waitin for me in the office. problem is, im such a pig dat when i spend too much time at work, i get too tired, not enuf slp, den i cant function properly the nxt day.

i realise dat in the mornings, i’m usually reallie slow cos i hvnt reallie woken up yet. so my productivity gets reallie low. juz realised dat i dun hv my cookie jar anymore; i’m so screwed. i need to work a lot harder this wk. shite. yea anw as i was sayin, i onli start to pick up speed in the aftn. prolly abt 3pm or ltr. (cos aft lunch u aso feel sleepy one mah) so by the time i churn out productive work, it’s almost 5.30pm. so i end up workin late. but i work alot betta when it’s later. cos no1 is in the office, well actualli most ppl hv gone off for dinner first. so the office is reallie quiet, and i can think betta and i can listen to my mp3s. but den i cant work for long b4 i hv to go home for dinner. sux. i reallie muz work harder nxt wk. lots of computations to churn out. shitamama.

so many things hv happened recently, most recently last nite, but i hadn’t had the time to reallie sit down properly and think abt them. a lot of things are scaring me at the moment but i don’t know hw to put them into words. things are so different, and difficult.