found a blog entry that i wrote when fakedevil was down.
Wednesday Mar 3, 2004
11:59pm
1) If you see me around or talk to me or watever, don’t ask abt my grandma. I don’t know wat to say, I don’t want to say anything, i don’t feel like saying anything, and no i’m still not coping very well with her passing. i juz feel i’m not strong enuf to handle this, however different Ralph or any1 else may think. And don’t be so bloody insensitive as to pt out the fact dat u think i shud not still be crying since 1 wk has passed. I’ll keep crying until i can look at her picture or talk abt her without tearing. The heart follows its own calendar and I’ll keep crying until i think i’ve grieved enuf.
2) My Comms individual presentation went quite well. I’m happy and surprised+amazed at the comments i received. will talk more abt it next time. was quite disappionted with my 1st Written Assignmt grade..got like B+/B coz the prof can’t quite decide wat grade i shld get. i kinda expected betta, hope the 2nd WA is betta. i need a grade betta den B- to pull up my GPA and to mk sure i dun hv to repeat another Comms elective next sem.
3) Think my MA this Fri is gonna be so screwed up. i juz hope i dun fail until so jiak lat. Hoping dat Stats on Sat wun be so bad since i’ve been doin my assignments. It’s times like this when i realli wonder wat i’m doing in a faculty like Accountancy.
alrite..so to go thru the pts one by one…
1) am still not over ah ma’s death. was juz lookin thru some old pics juz now when i saw her, and i still feel like cryin. so many other things dat remind me of her, however indirectly related. perhaps i will talk abt it another time.
2) overall Comms grade was expected yet unexpected. how to say leh? like i knew i would get dat grade, yet hopin dat i would get higher. dunno how to explain. but i’m very proud of my indiv pres coz i prepared the rough script on the last nite of ah ma’s funeral, and refined my script on the actual day of the pres durin my MPW lesson haha. yar and am proud of it aso coz i made ppl laugh durin the pres, not in a bad way like they’re laughin at me, but they laugh at my jokes. haha din knoe i had dat humourous streak in me, but it felt good when they appreciated my jokes and the prof even told me aft the pres dat i did well and dat my voice tone was not boring.
3) guess i’ve said it b4. still feelin glad dat i passed MA with a reasonable grade. but am disappointed with Stats. oh wells am tryin not to think abt sch now and how fast time passes.