like seriously screwed up lor. 3/10. how bad is dat? totally ruined my mood on wed. felt so damn upset i wanted to cry. so scary cos i mean i’ve failed FA and MA b4 mah, and upset is upset lah, but i wun like want to cry or anythin. but it totally floored me. i din even felt like talkin.

worst thing was everyone else did betta den me and i so did NOT expect to fail. i mean okie i was bitchin abt it the nite b4, but aft sittin thru the MCQ paper, i tot it wasn’t dat bad. expected to at least pass. shit. even if it’s onli 5%. and it’s like a freakin MCQ lor. how can any1 fail an MCQ??!!

so aft lookin thru the paper again, some qns i circled the right ans but thought too much and changed it. some qns i guess i reallie din understand wat i studied well enuf. shit. even if it’s onli 5% and the other 5% i’ve secured an A+ for, still cant stand the fact dat every1 is gonna score betta for this 5% den me.

and the next is the midterm, which is a freaking 15%!! i’m startin to understand audit betta, but still not well enuf. i mean, okie even if i dun do as well as others, i want at least to not juz pass, but betta den a pass. B grade at least. shit. still got presentation in 2 wks. dunno how. so scared later ppl ask qns i canot ans. or i nv present properly. or wat. nv felt so kan cheong abt a presentation b4, even if it’s 2 wks away!!

i dunno why i’m lettin this one failure gettin to me. prolly cos i reallie din expect it, and i reallie want to do much betta this term. i dun dare to hope but i want to try for dean’s list! can 1, sure can get there, eventually. but i hv to get pass audit first. *sigh*