guess wat im listenin to now: It’s a song titled “Tears” by this Japanese band called “X-Japan”. the instrumental version is wat im listenin to, which is a lot nicer than the normal version where sm guy is singin. its slow/soft rock. yea. very nice. calming. relaxing. soothing. juz the thing to listen to b4 i go to bed.

heez it’s like 5am now? juz finished studyin tax. tmrw or rather later today, hv to start on Fnce. hope i can move faster. 19 chapters and i hvnt started!! but so far, progress still okie. i shld and i hope to be able to finish all my stuff and not hv to burn midnight oil the night b4. sigh. feel so scared now even tho exams are a wk away. juz scared dat i canot rem wat i learnt. juz scared dat wat i studied is not enuf and i shld study more. so scared dat i would die until very cham this time.

dunno why but suddenly juz like to study at nite. so much easier and betta. in the day, the tv is on, ppl potterin around the hse, sun so bloody hot so sianz. at nite no1 else except me. and my trusty lappie+mp3s. juz so much easier to concentrate. and daytime, feel like sleepin, its the reallie kun(4) kinda feelin, reallie muz fall into bed or canot tahan kind. but at night, even when i feel sleepy, at least still can 忍, dun hv to jump into bed kinda thing. different kind of sleepiness, if there’s even such a thing?

now i knoe wat sean meant the other nite. i can see streaks of light in the sky now. feels..so different? i’ve nv been up so late b4, not even studyin or doin work cos most times there’s sch, so hv to be in bed. but now no sch can wake up late, so can stay up late aso. seein the sky turn from dark to light is smhow all the more awe-inspiring than seein the sky turn from light to dark. i think mebbe cos the latter situation is smthin u see everyday? see until normal liaoz, no feelins. but seein the sky turn from dark to light is different, well most ppl wun see it right? unless u stay up specifically to see the sunrise. or those ah bing ge who hv to stay up for duty? and im not talkin abt like, slpin and wakin up at the crack of dawn. im talkin abt stayin up thru the nite. when its all silent, when not even the cats mewing, lights in neighbouring blocks all off, when suddenly u look up and u see streaks, juz lightin up and juxtaposing against the dark background, and suddenly this bird starts crowing. ouch. haha. time for the birds to wake up aso. okie i shldnt crap so much. must be cos im too tired. but reallie, you shld try it. not juz goin to slp and wakin up at 5am but stayin up thru the nite. its a different feelin. nitez! :sleep1