i am so annoyed with the weather here.

when i came back from the States, it was super hot. pissed me off totally because i was sweating buckets all the time, even in air-con places, while everyone seemed perfectly cool with the weather. i wondered if it was just me, having had to adjust twice in 6 months to the warmer climate, or was it just global warming? i don’t think i would have loved winter, but the autumn in Aarhus and even the summer in Berkeley was nice. sun’s shining but temperature outdoors is like an air-con room.

so it was with relief when the weird rains started falling. like there were days on end when it seemed like it was december and monsoon season, and not july. must be global warming.

but then the rain started to annoy me. firstly, my clothes didn’t dry. no matter. i just re-wore them :buck1 just like it was in colder climates last year. secondly, i was dying for some outdoor exercise, i.e. biking at Ubin. i had been thinking about it ever since i came back from the States. wanted to just bike and enjoy nature, and perhaps re-create the feeling i had when i was climbing Vernal Falls at Yosemite. BUT the rain had to come and my friends decided not to take the risk. :rant: obviously i don’t blame them, since i don’t want to be the one who pushes everyone to go, then feel bad when we all get drenched. so we spent the afternoon shopping. at Tampines. and i couldn’t get anything while the rest had buckets full of shopping bags :sad1 and the weather actually held up the whole afternoon that we were shopping. :rant:

Now that the bloody hot weather is back again, i’m getting annoyed again. firstly with the heat. secondly with the fact that even though it’s good to go Ubin now, my mates are all working and can’t go with me!! :pout1

was actually in a very good mood cos someone made my day. BUT now my fren is irritating me cos of a meet-up we’re supposed to hv. cos with us going to Denmark and we haven’t seen her for so long due to MT and won’t see her until godknowswhen next year, so she wanna meet up.

long time ago when she proposed the idea i was quite enthu. like haven’t seen her for so long anw. but now i’m juz irritated. like i dun blardy care whether i see u or not lah. it’s so damn hard to coordinate an outing for 5 BUSY ppl. den becos now u free u decide to change date. but ppl not free den u wanna insist on meeting cos u can join ppl on their other pre-arranged meeting to watch a movie. den becos u wanan change date, so the other pre-arranged meeting to watch a movie might be cancelled bcos the person now seems to be not so enthu to go out with ME alrdy. thanks a lot.

i have no time cos i’m flying off soon and i have countless other ppl to meet before i leave. then bcos u free u juz anyhow change everythin and wreck up all my other appointments.

there are some ppl dat i die die muz meet before i leave either bcos they are good frens or bcos i won’t see them till June next yr. i don’t really care whether i meet u or not now cos i’m sure i can meet up with u earli nxt year when i come back. so does it really matter?

ok it’s just not me to be lydat cos i really aprpeciate all the friends i have and i like meeting up with them. but nowadays, when i get into my moods, some ppl u juz gotta let go. no point tryin so hard to meet up or maintain a r/s cos there’s just not enuf time. if u’re impt enuf i will mk time for u, but if ur’e not then too bad. as we all get busier with our own stuff, where have so much time to meet up so often anw rite? i think it’s more impt to spend more time and effort to maintain a good close r/se with ppl dat u are closer to, your inner circle. rather then dividing out your time and effort betwn those that u are close to, and those that you are not so close to in your outer circle.

maybe i’m just old. maybe i’m just PMS-ing.

1. stupid woman refuses to put me to Blk 55. thanks amanda but sorry even tho u’re a mutant, i think there must be some Level 5 mutant who is unchanging whatever you’ve changed!! really really don’t understand why she must split us up in the first place. so difficult to find 3 rooms together meh?? i’m sure not everyone would hv emailed her to request that they wanna stay together. and if they didn’t, means she can split them up wat. why must split us up? and even if they did email her, there will be some people who are going there alone and don’t really care which blk they go to, so why can’t u just anyhow place them and put the 3 of us together?? go eat :poop: and die!! stupid woman!!! and i don’t think i’m allowed to do a mutual swap with the other hostel ppl. wth go there find fling to entertain myself so i won’t feel so lost hahahaha! or I go move to London for 1+ mth with Ig when he’s there. (hopefully he got his own hotel room or apartment and don’t hv to share with his colleague!! tryin to tempt him to tk extended leave so we can go holiday together durin my term break haha!) Ig made me feel abit betta when he said that the blocks may be organized in a U-shape haha! now hope that the 2 blks arent so far away and that they are labelled in multiples of 5?? it’s not that i’m lazy to walk it’s just that i dun wanna be alone in a foreign land for 5 mths. and i found a map of the place and it looks as tho there is a gate key access so at least it shld be safer from the punks in the neighbourhood. Now the stupid woman refuses to reply my email abt whether i wld hv a private bathroom/toilet or must i share with 2-4 other ppl. Split me up still not enuf, must mk me share toilet aso?!?!?! :finger: i know it’s not the norm for ppl to email and ask abt toilets and for u to reply abt them, but wth i alrdy so pek chek bcos u stupidly split us up, can’t u even reply my email?! :rant: gone are all the notions of sharing toiletries, nightly chats, watching vcds together. STUPID WOMAN!!! nv call u bitch alrdy give u face alrdy!! :rant: wtf i’m so gonna hv fun there even if i’m split up from my mates.

2. plannin for the pre-term travelling is not gg well. can’t find transportation/planes do not fly everyday/costs are too high. no money no time. ALL OUR PLANS ARE SCREWED UP. and bcos i’m stupid and lazy, i wasn’t selected for Copenhagen so got so much shit to deal with like stupid hostel woman.

3. Law major modules for exchange aso not going well. don’t knw if i can tk law mods on exchange really hope i can. stupid sch took out the GE Sci mod. bcos i’m stupid and lazy, i wasn’t selected for Copenhagen so got so much shit to deal with like stupid module stuff.

4. official results for this term released today. term results were fantastic, i was exceeding pleased with myself seeing that it was a shitty term and i pia quite abit during the study break. almost as good as Sem 1 just that stupid AFA pulled my grades down, but i’m still very happy with them nonetheless. only fly in the ointment is that my overall GPA is still fucked up. no honours ever, esp since my exchange term grades won’t be counted. which essentially means i only hv one sem left to pull up my GPA, which means that I gotta score A+ for my remaining 5 modules. what the fuck lah seriously. i have never scored a fucking A+ in my whole uni life ever and u want me to do so for 5 modules?! the awards for my sch is 1st Class honours, 2nd class honours, 3rd class honours, high merit, merit and normal degree. i’m only in High Merit range. 4 yrs but no honours. Does 3rd class honours sound worse than High Merit?? budden we don’t call it 3rd class, we call it “cum laude” so means it’s quite pro sounding compared to High Merit right? i don’t need it for job but my parents extremely my mother wants me to get honours and doesn’t quite believe that i cannot get it. my mother somehow aso strangely believes that my degree is gonna be important when i want to change job, ie when i want to move on to my 2nd job. like harlow?? 2nd job will look more at your work experience than your degree!!

5. i’m tired and sick. nose in alternate modes of running and blocked. :pill: hvnt seen doc, am gonna self medicate. dun feel like seeing doc. gotta get well before Sun. doesn’t help that everyone around me from home to school are sick.

i am moody bcos i’m pms-ing.

I AM DEPRESSED/SAD/PISSED/MOODY bcos I AM IN BLK 45!!! :shake::err1:mad1:pout1:sad1 both my friends are in Blk 55 while I’m the only one in Blk 45!!! why why why?! why did the woman have to split me us up? why can’t she put us together??? YT already emailed her last time to request that we be put together then she still split us up! issit so difficult to find 3 rooms in the same blk?? so angry with her!!! go eat :poop: and die!!

i dun care all that shit abt helps you to be independent/you shld mix around more/very easy to meet up/nvm cos same neighbourhood. i dun blardy care!! i juz wanna be together with my frens!! dats the whole point of goin together rite? if i wanted to do all of the above, i would juz hv chosen to go alone!! and Blk 45 may be walking distance from Blk 55, but it seems damn far lah!! 10 whole blardy blks away!! it’s not even like say Blk 45 and Blk 46 dat kinda thing u knw. :pout1 unless their blks are labelled and organized in multiples of 5 of something. i reallie dunno. first we had to be so far away, in a dodgy ‘bad’ neighbourhood, a place where Serene advised us to stick together, in a place 20minutes away from the school. and now she had to separate me from my mates!!! :sad1

i alrdy sent an email to her but she hasn’t replied yet. i really pray very hard and hope that she would find me a room in Blk 55. I really don’t wanna be alone!! :err1

oh f**K x10000! when u want to lie, lie all the way. don’t say anythin dat can discriminate against you or help to expose your lie, or part of it.

when exposed, confess all. or confess and make up an excuse for lying.

i didn’t do any of the above.

hope the rest of my lie is not exposed. f**k.

1. In any relationship, whether work/personal/school/watever, it takes 2 to clap. The other party may be at fault for not maintaining the relationship. BUT If you also don’t take the initiative to maintain it, what gives you the right to accuse the other party of abandoning you? It’s not like you tried and was ignored, or you tried but cannot contact, or the other person was just simply MIA. NO. you know how to contact, you could contact, you didn’t contact, and you weren’t ignored cos you didn’t even try to contact. So who gives you the right to say that I disappeared on you?

2. I may be the TA but it doesn’t mean you can happily come and ask him silly questions just because we have the vague connection of being project group mates once. Aren’t there other friends you know that you can check with first before asking me? Even if you don’t have other friends, or even if your other friends don’t know, WHAT GIVES YOU THE RIGHT TO ASK ME, “you like to dc on MSN hor?” wtf it’s not my fault tt my msn is screwed up. and i already told you it has nothing to do with me. you speak as though i owe you an answer just because i’m your TA.

3. I certainly didn’t know it was NOT on a first come first served basis. isn’t dat the fairest way? i don’t have so much time to do a lucky draw. and how long does it take to form a group and choose your topics? just because you were given until week 4 doesnt mean u can wait till 2 days before the deadline and email me, den ask me why it’s a first come first served and not lucky draw. no-one asked but you had to. i’m quite sure I would have been informed if it was a lucky draw. and besides, didn’t it occur to you that it doesn’t make sense to give me three choices if it’s a lucky draw? i’m not so free to pick one group and re-allocate the other groups and pick all over again.

4. is it so difficult to form a group? even if you don’t know anyone, ask around. or ask me. if i suggest to you what to do, take me up on my suggestion unless you can give me another suggestion. if you have already emailed me previously to tell me that you were in another group, how come you suddenly joined another group???

5. why do people take so long to reply to emails??!!

or maybe i’m just PMS-ing.

sigh. feel very tired+sianz+:pout1+:mad1 now..

i’m very tired cos it’s been a long day again, as like all Mondays. and i slept late again on Sun nite, as with all Sun nites! haha.

den rite…i tryin to dl the 7.30pm show on chn U now..managed to dl one ep and just when it was 100% complete, this msg pops up tellin me tt i hv not enuf space!! so i could either choose to “compress files” or “ok”. if u click ok, confirm the file will be gone rite? so i decided to compress files instead. BUT IT DOESN’T WORK! i lost the whole filE!!! means i gotta dl the whole ep again!! it took me 3 hrs to dl one ep leh!!! :pout1 now i hv to re-dl all over again!! i reallie want to cry already!! why can’t the sys prompt me b4 i dl, tellin me tt i got no space? u know, the same way when u wanna transfer file to a disk and they tell u disk no space? how come this time no prompt?! :mad1

so i hv to re-dl. so slow. now only 37% leh. sigh. wth. i thought i could dl 2 ep tonite..in the end onli dl one. and even if i manage to finish dl this..i think i wun hv enuf space in my lappie!! this is madness. suddenly i’m running out of space on both my lappie and desktop!! wth. both gave me the same msg leh..smthin abt C drive no more space liaoz. wth. sigh. so now i’m thinkin of gettin dvd-r to burn the show, then it frees up more space for me to dl some more ep. but do i get dvd-r or dvd-rw? RL says dvd-r can still write, but cannot erase; he says no need for dvd-rw. reallie meh? when i use cd-r, i can only write once and cannot erase. so i thought dvd-r aso the same, can only write once. :cuss: argh!! wat to do now!! i very pek chek now!!

anw, i decided to be nice aft all. ref one of my previous posts abt internships. i showed my fren today the cover letter, didn’t send the file lah, juz open on my lappie onli. yup. cos my fren asked again today leh!! like wth lah. i thought i made it quite clear the last time? my fren must have thought tt i was jokin! ya so nvm lah juz open the file on my lappie and show lor.

AIYA :rant: how!! i very buay gam wan!!! i keep lookin at the file download process and it’s less than 50%!! i’m so irritated. ARGH!!! and i still have to deal with the storage constraint!! i tried to transfer to my newly-acquired thumbdrive, but horroRS!! the file is sooo big tt i can only transfer one ep over!! omg. i really shld go get DVD to burn it, but i dunno whether to get DVD-R or DVD-RW. i dun want CD-R cos i would have a lot of them to record all the eps. and i’m so kan cheong for it cos i reallie wanna know wat happened. i dl ep 7, which was shown already. den i had trouble dl-ing subsequent ep, so i skipped all the way till ep 16. so aft watchin ep 16, which is like how interesting, i reallie reallie reallie wanna find out what happened eventually. and i can’t wait!! to wait and watch on tv is too slow!! and no1 i know seems to have the vcd or have watched it yet so i dunno wat happened. i get different versions of the endings from different ppl. so i reallie wanna watch it myself to know. :sad1 no words can express how sad i am now. :shake:

If there is one thing I hate, it’s the sounds that wake you up in the morning. The number one most hated sound on my list has got to be the sound of drilling. not sound of music haha! actually if it’s like those radio alarm clock, even if u get like Linkin Park in the morn or smthn it’s not tt bad lah. the worst is drilling!! grrr. okie lah i know i wasn’t supposed to sleep that late. technically it’s not really morning liaoz lah k. but considering the long day i had yesterday, i deserved to be rewarded by having a longer sleep today! trust dat blardy contractor, whoever he is, whichever house he is in, to wake me up. i couldn’t sleep aft that! :cuss:

If there is one more thing that I hate, it’s those people who step into the lift first, hide in one corner, and refuse to press the “DO” button or even press the floor that they are going to. !@##$%^&* seriously man, who the shit do you think you are? why must i press for you man? i mean, it’s juz basic courtesy rite? if u step into the lift first, u help lah! i was soooo tempted to ask her “how come u cannot press?” but cannot. my dad was around, betta not fight.

If there is another thing that I hate can’t stand, it’s those super skinny people who eat and eat and dun get fat. ok lah maybe those people are ok. the worst are those who are super skinny and complain that it’s gross that they are so skinny (whether they eat a lot or not). seriously leh, it’s fashionable to be skinny and you still complain?! fat ppl like us try to watch what we eat and find it so hard to lose weight and there u are complaining that you can’t gain weight. hmm with all the mesotherapy and what not available nowadays to help ppl lose weight, mebbe they shld come up with some new technology that can transfer fats from one person to another? wahahaha! :whatever: