Proof that I need a holiday: I dreamt that I was at some island, prolly like Tioman/Redang/some Carribean island or smthing. I was on a holiday there with my cousin, and we were havin fun playin with some big yellow floatin thingy in the wide clear blue sea.

Proof that I’m crazy: I dreamt that Daniel Wu and Maggie Q were on the same holiday with us!! And they were my friends!!!

Further proof that I’m crazy: I’m startin to hallucinate. (Almost) Every ang moh guy I see is startin to look like Jonathan Rhys Meyer, the hottie from Bend It Like Beckham. shoot think muz be becos i keep starin at his pic everyday on my office desktop. betta change soon. Like this cute guy in the supermarket yesterday, dunno why i juz kept thinkin he looks like Meyer. And some other ang mohs in shirts at Orchard Road. think it muz be dat scene where Meyer wears this white shirt and goes to look for the gal’s father. man he reallie looks hot there. :yum1

oh yar at the MRT station yesterday, saw this guy who’s quite stylo. He was wearin a beanie and listenin to music on his headphones. He looks like a cross between Orlando Bloom and Vik, this North Indian guy fren of mine. Mus be mixed parentage or smthin. He had such nice eyes, and his nose!! very classy, aristocratic-like if i may use a cliche phrase. wow if i needed a muse, he would defn be mine!! there was juz smthin abt him dat mks me wanna keep starin. unfortunately, i lost him when the MRT came. :sad1

hm aniweas today’s New Paper features the next generation of hotties in Hollywood. yucks the OC guys dun do it for me man. James Franco does!!! and the guy in Y Tu Mama Tambien, wat’s his name? Gael Garcia Bernal and his fren Diego Luna, except dat Luna wasn’t featured. hm Jake Gyllenhaal is not bad too. mebbe i shld change my desktop pic to these guys dat i wun hallucinate abt Meyer so much.
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haha juz wanted to scare u Evie!!

He offered to pick me up in his car for dinner.

alrite, it sounded pretty cool to me. i mean, er no guy i knoe drives a car and would wanna come pick me up like i was a special date or smthing. erm not dat i wanted to be his date eww. but still, the next feelin i got was paranoia. even tho i’m not Sexy, Desirable and just abt as Unique as the next snow/corn flake (unlike wat the Govt thinks), date rape can still happen to anyone.

oh wells watever. aniweas i din agree and dat was juz one of the many conversations we had which alwayz ended in a stalemate (?). to cut a long story short, our frenship is over. over a very simple qn dat i couldnt’ ans. haha no not some will u be my gf/will u marry me qn. some qn dat i din knoe how to ans, talk abt being caught between the devil and the deep blue sea. yea so now i’m wondering, wat now? think i shld juz dump his stuff into a box and mail it to him. except it seemed kinda callous to juz do dat without puttin in a note. but wat can i say in dat note? i dunno wat to say to mk things betta, and i shld nv hv approached him for the charity thingy. damn.

well i guess apologies are all abt mkin the person who’s giving the apology feel better/feel less guilty. becoz dat’s exactly how i feel. like, i feel like writing a note/letter to apologise simply becoz i feel guilty dat the frenship has to end in this way. even if i dun treat him like one.

yar but aniewas i still hv to mail him the stuff. shld i put in a note? say wat? say i consider u as a fren but i juz dun want to see u? how how how? why din he juz get the hint and back off initially den mebbe one day i would be ready to talk to him again? why cant he be like J, den mebbe things wun turn out this way? mebbe it’s just me lah. but reallie, what’s so great abt me? how can u still like me aft so long? wat’s there to like? haha in case u din realise, i’m tryin to fish for compliments here at the same time.

aniweas, a random thought juz occurred to me. like wat ivan said, IF. the big word. but well, we’ll nv win playin the game of what-ifs. but still, what if i had agreed and it had worked out? to either one? i would be halfway to tai-tai dom by now!! haha one who already has a car, and one whose parents hv offered to buy him a car come Nov when he can convert his license and whose pa has contacts. and oops, this just in. another (rich) guy i’m talkin to online now wants to meet me durin the summer hols. and all 3 guys stay in like, ‘eat wind’ houses, with one in District 9?! gee but he normally doesn’t ask me out durin the past hols when he comes back to SG. why this time? damn and i juz dunno how to say no. how do u say u wun want to meet him? u cant juz say outright lydat, but by not doin so and beating around the bush, it’s so cowardly n..the bloody bullet’s bound to hit u in the end. mebbe i shld juz put him on my invisible list? argh but i can’t avoid him dat long, and he’ll be in SG for at least 2 mths, in his words “surely i can’t be dat busy within this 2 mths”. and besides he’s a good nice fren and i dun want to be mean.

haha just like Zhengting in the 7pm show, money can be quite useful in this world. and can u imagine? i dun hv to work! haha everyday go shoppin at Paragon and buy a real Ferragamo wallet! everyday can go eat at Din Tai Fung and hv high-tea at Goodwood Park! haha but if the feelings aren’t there, wat’s the point of hvin money? still, i like hearin him say my name coz he doesn’t do it very often, and i appreciate his concern for me.

haha went to watch VJC bball team play the TJC team today. last match of the 1st round. arrived late and the match had oreadi started. TJ seems to be attackin more den VJ, and the TJ shooters seem to be sharper so everytime they go to the basket, the shots count. VJ gives away stupid balls, so irritating. wow but the match was pretty rough tho, there was a lot of pushing and shoving around. oh btw, the VJ students sux at cheerleading. there were so many more VJ students den TJ students yet i heard the TJ cheers more often den the VJ ones. i mean, even if i was standing nearer to the TJ students, if the many VJ students are loud enuf, i’m quite sure i can hear them. was so tempted to like tell them oei, pls this is ur sch playin and they’re losing can u cheer louder?

aniewas some NY gals came over to watch the match, den i realised dat NY was playin. walked over to the other court during the time out and i saw the NY guys playin against the JJ guys. *Sigh* not many supporters, and the match was quite borin. think the standard is juz not there lor. haha and er in terms of good lookin guys aso..the NY-JJ match had virtually nothing. haha but the NY no12 reminds me of kelvin. the look and the body frame, i had to look again to mk sure dat i wasn’t seein things. hm VJ no4 has beautiful eyes!!! i could see them from where i was lor..and his eyes..woah…the TJ no11 is damn cute! haha erm actualli not damn cute lah, his jaw is kinda defined, way too defined, if i may put it nicely, but he seems like the guy in the SHE Magical Love chinese show. the guy dat Ella likes hehe who is quite cute leh..yar i kept starin at him lor haha. later aft the match, when the team was leaving, i was so tempted to juz go up to him and intro lor. haha but er think he’s too young? haha i felt like a cradle snatcher. he muz be like wat, 3 yrs younger den me?
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