i feel so embarrased.

met a really distant acquaintance just now who enquired abt ah ma even tho she din knoe her personally. she asked how’s my grandmother. the answer was stuck in my throat and i could feel tears welling up. i juz shook my head cos i couldn’t say anything. den she asked is she sick? and i couldn’t answer again so i shook my head and by then it was quite bad and i had to juz lower my head. think she knew wat was wrong and she apologised.

so pai seh. goodness, breaking down in front of ppl i barely knew. den i couldn’t stop crying. luckily it wasn’t the full-blown tears streaming down face without stopping kinda thing. juz a short while, and i had to get back to work anyway so i juz forced myself to stop. was tempted to run to my office toilet tho.

aniwaes on to other less sad stuff. perhaps excessive crying causes wrinkles under the eyes? dunno leh. nvm, got botox! haha last time for comms this grp presented on botox. like quite simple wat. go for a jab tks only half an hr, can go during lunch time! but it’s quite ex, forgot how much, hundreds of dollars. and the effects last for 6mths, so aft dat u muz go back again. hm dun think i wld go botox. haha since we’re talkin abt cosmetic surgery, the other day when i met amanda in orchard, dunno wat we talkin abt, den i suddenly thought of the breast enlargement salons and the report in the news abt how their customers are complaining that the treatments do not work. so i brought the topic up and amanda asked whether i would go for this kinda thing. haha i dun think so, not at the moment, i’m quite happy with the size of my assets haha. but seriously if i wanna go, i wld go str for operation lor. y go for this dat’s not proven, canot cfrm, and tk so many treatmts to see the effects? might as well go str for operation except every1 will knoe it’s fake lor, coz it wld be damn obvious. and u nv knoe when the silicon implant can leak or explode! haha my favourite thought since jc, ie, wat happens when u go for breast op and the silicon implant explodes or smthin? den muz go for other op to remove and put in new 1 or dunno wat. so ma fan, aiya dun go alrdy. the one thing dat i want to go for is lasik!! den i can be rid of my ugly specs and irritating contacts. but no money lah. and my colleague scared me with the stories she heard abt ppl goin for lasik and still hving problems aft dat. now i dun dare to go.

rem the cute AM guy on the same floor as me has another AM fren whom i said was quite cute also? this other guy looks younger, and has a Beatles-like hair style. haha cool hairstyle okie, at least he can carry it off. he looks deliciously shaggy haha. he works on the 5th floor and is a perm staff here!! how i knoe? coz i went down to the recept to ‘deliver’ the DHL package, den he was there talkin to some other person. so juz as i went back to the lift lobby, he went back too. so i could see his card when he scanned lor, so got his picture, so means he perm staff. den we got into the same lift! haha and he opened the door and let me in first okie. yar so only 2 of us in the lift! wah wasted u knoe, nv grab him and u knoe 😉 haha aiya but canot lah, he on the 5th flor, so fromt the 1st to the 5th floor sure the lift will move and reach very fast mah. so wasted hor. shld hv asked him smthing, like which cty he is from, juz to mk conversation hehe. yups den aft lunch aso, saw him and the AM guy on the same flr as me in the pantry. cool man, double the eye candy!! hahaha