damn fuck lah. wtf. pissed with myself. wtf seriously how now?!

got like 3 out of 4 papers back liaoz. shit man. it’s average lah. BBB-. but it fucking sux lah. my gpa is not moving up at all lor. okie so i shld be glad its not movin down, but fuck man. its not even movin up into the merit range! fuck man and this time i studied harder than the 2 previous terms okie. fuck.

okie lah AIS is my own fucking fault. shld hv studied the fucking neohumanist radical structuralism shit, den mebbe can score sm more marks there. aiya fuck lah i think all my 3 grades all my fault lah. Tax i reallie got study wat, muz be not enuf work. Fnce i knoe it’s not the final paper, cos i think my final paper is okie, other den dat one open end qn. muz be the weekly quizzes. and the fucking fact dat he bell the results. and becos every1 else so power, i dun do well.

shit man. shld i juz email the profs and ask them how much i got and whether they can push up my grade? but its quite wat rite..i dun even knoe if i deserve it. i think for tax i wanna push it up, but i dun dare ask chester.

fuck lah gettin back audit later. shit its being marked by the 2 profs and he’s gonna bell it again aso lah. fuck and got all the power ppl, bell alrdy i aso sure die. i dun even hope for an A- and i darent even dream of anythin higher. B+ is the best dat i think i will get. and even so, it’s not gonna help much. gpa will still stay the same. even if A-, it will onli go up into the merit range. dun even wanna go and calculate A or A+ cos i think the final paper will pull down my grade.

fuck lah how lydat. why they demarcate until ldyat? no pt gettin average grades cos the gradin system is so tough. and the fucking thing is dat its a 4 yr course. study one extra yr but dun come out with honours. wtf. waste time and money onli. shit lah every1 gonna do betta den me again. and every1 is doin betta den me alrdy. my throat seems to be tightening up and i dunno why. fuck.