ok i’m supposed to be rushing the stupid AFA project now..but i juz gotta talk abt this. didn’t knw dat FT results were out so fast and that it would affect my gpa until sean told me. so i went to check, and i realised that i’ve finally jumped into the next higher gpa category!!! woots!! just barely but who cares! finally i thought i would never get there. :grin1 was still thinkin whether to bug the prof abt my grade but i dallied too long and the deadline was over. shucks. anw i dun think he would hv pushed up my grade. but nevertheless, i’ve finally hit the next stage!!! now i’m just so scared that i won’t be able to maintain it bcos AFA and QM is gonna kill me. i really hope i can stay in this category. :shiftyeyes: ok now back to stupid afa report and the appendices.. luckily ig helped me out with the stupid table/alignment/layout shit. lately the excel and word has been rebelling against me! :rant:

it’s so sad – this sem all my entries either begin or end with the word “sian”. really wonder what’s wrong with me. am i just exhausted or just lazy? must be lazy haha.

juz kena nagging by my mummy, cos i got no more honours, not even third class. mother refused to believe me when i say it’s impossible to get third class honours unless i get A+ for all my subjects from now onwards. sian. dun even knw if i can get high merit, seeing as this term is so gonna pull all my grades down, esp with AFA.

it’s like, tmrw is a long day so i gotta study for AFA today cos the stupid quiz is on Wed. was supposed to study but i had an early day, came home, and slept the whole afternoon away while the rain was pouring outside. woke up and ended watching the Spurs-Man Utd match after dinner, which was a good match either because i hvn’t watched soccer for so long, or because both sides needed to win. THEN aft the match..i was too sian.. and distracted..maybe i juz cant study at home..caught glimpses of the everton-chelsea match, and ending up reading my TWC readings!!! can u believe it! TWC is on Thurs, i can read it aft AFA on wed, i can even not read it and still be able to say something in class. but i was so sian and i wanted to at least spend the time doing something useful so no choice but to read TWC. don’t ask me read AFA; it’s no use reading since practising is the key.

really dunno issit bcos i’m lazy+slack (which is highly likely) or issit becos i spent the last whole week staring at AFA so now it’s just so repulsive, vomit-inducing, irritating to even pick it up again since i spent so much time on it last week that i’m just so tired of it now. die alrdy, think even red clothes or underwear won’t help much! :what:

anw, nv talk in class today leh. nothing to say, nothing to ask. was again distracted by my lappie. and the prof’s qns were abt philosophy!! :cuckoo: what sai??? nvm my excuse is that i cannot whack anyone now until my presentation is over in case those ppl whack me during my presentation. haha so i can keep quiet for now until aft week 11.

i love my schooL! haha i especially love the study room in my faculty..on the 2nd floor, with the 落地窗! yea i hope no one takes me room from me today and tomorrow. :smile1 my favourite room..somemore got toilet paper on the table for me to clean the table before i start work. 3 tables and 6 chairs for me to arrange any way i want to study. and i have to tap my card everytime i come in, so the computer log will capture the details of anyone who comes into the room, so i can safely leave my room and go to the washroom or get food. there are blinds for the windows so i can pull them down if it gets too bright. there is just a little slip of glass beside the doorway so i can’t really see people walk past and won’t get too distracted. I :heart1 GSR 2.7!! HAHAHA siao liao!

damn pissed on Mon morn. supposed to have project meeting but everyone was late!! only YT was early cos we had to meet another prof beforehand. A went for QingMing prayers and informed B, but B was too busy rushing out assignments and reading notes to inform the rest of us. strike one against B for not informing us. B was rushing out an assignment due so was late. Strike 2. B kept pushing back other project meetings with me cos cannot finish reading the notes. Strike 3. and you’re out. C overslept, which was quite normal and i’m used to it, but becos everyone else was late, i got super pissed. BUT becos they are all my friends, and becos this is the first time it has happened, i didn’t know wat to say, and i didn’t say anything. somemore i planned to help B and C celebrate their bdays that day; how to do it when i’m so pissed? but at least we managed to discuss whatever we were supposed to discuss that day.

anw my mood improved later cos this 帅哥 in the room beside ours not only helped me with lighting the candle but even asked if i needed additional help to open door and stuff. he’s like how cute and how nice lah..but i think he got gf liao haha..nvm he’s my fren’s fren..mebbe i can go find out :tongue1

was cold, hungry and miserable in my favourite room yesterday. cos it was raining like mad, so the aircon was super cold. :err1 and my sweater was much too thin, and i so wanted to sleep cos it was raining but i had to force myself to do AFA. do whole day still cannot finish one question!! only did like one-third of it. siao liao next week only got 1.25 hrs to complete one whole qn! SIAN :noshake:

how?! my thighs and butt are aching!!! haha think muz be cos i was tryin to bowl in a short skirt and tryin to not zhao kng, so i was prolly standing in a weird position. so today wake up the left side aching!! haha mebbe bowling in skirt is a good exercise??? :umm1

siannnnnnnnnn suddenly very scared abt the project deadlines looming. perhaps i would feel betta abt QM aft tmr’s meeting with the prof. and i think my 2 other grp mates for this proj shld be ok. i can sorta see the direction tt we shld be heading. at least we’ve started but still need abit of guidance from the prof.

but am very worried for AFA and TWC. seansean and i are doin the mock financial statements consolidation part. i cant even handle the normal consol textbk qns, and we need to do this whole big consol for 2 real life companies. how to do?! where to start?! so scared cos it’s due in a month!! and sorry but seansean is not exactly a whiz at consolidation. i think i suck, but i think that she could be even worse than i am. so we would both drown like rats in a oil vat. aft the consol, we still hv to do qualitative analysis based on the mock consol statements. the qualitative analysis is no kick for me i feel, cos it’s a lot of talkin cock. but i need the quantitative part to be up and running before i can even talk cock. and i worry abt my grp mates. they will do the work but i’m not sure whether they are the last min kind. scared we would need to rush last min. den still got a separate presentation to rush for, which is due in 2 weeks time, and which we hvn’t gotten the qns yet and i dunno when we would all be free to meet up to discuss!! this presentation thing is not the kind where u can discuss online or thru email and split up the work cos i think it’s a consol qn (like duh) so we all hv to meet together to do the consolidation journal entries. everyone is so busy!!

worry the same for TWC aso. and for TWC, i dun reallie knw wat the prof expects. and it’s a analytical thing dat we hv to do – a book review. not sure what he expects in a book review. and i dun think my grp mates are like the lit kind who can analyse the book the way the prof wants. cos i think the prof has quite high standards. i alrdy finished my assigned chapter of the book, and it makes for interesting reading, but after reading, i dunno wat to draw out for my book review for the prof. :whatever:

and i juz realised dat my AFA quiz is only worth 10% of my grade. and i need to pia so damn hard for this miserly 10%. ok lah overall it could mk a diff. and if i dun pia now, later on the 40% exams i sure buang. den whole grade kns. :psycho1

SIAN. i wished this weekend didn’t have to pass so quickly. it’s always good to have much fun before buckling down to work.

wish this weekend would never end. then the break would never end. sian. it’s 2am so it’s mon alrdy. weekend gone. SIAN!!! :cuss::rant::shake::poison::poop:

blardy irritating. the money is nt easy to learn!! why are ppl so chao enthu abt additional stuff dat’s not explained in class?! 我又不是神！ok lah i suck. Ig say i dunno still wanna be people’s TA. eh how i knw ppl will ask such chim stuff?! so tempted to juz say, “won’t be tested.” “prof nv teach, so dun need to learn.””textbk say got doesnt mean u muz knw.” “go look up the Help function and search for it lor.”

damn.

hope the other TA can help me!! pls pls pls!! she owes me for all the other times tt i’ve covered for it, though i didn’t cover for her with the intention of wanting her to help me later lah. i think she is more 神 than me, so i think she wld knw betta. gotta reply this person asap cos her test is tmrw! shit reali regret taking up this post.

[Edit: the other TA aso dunno how to use the join function!! kaoz. and for the sampling, she use a different kind of sampling function. geez. so im nt the only one who suck lah, though it seems like it cos i’m the person whom the students are supposed to go to if they dunno how to use the program. ]

Here is your horoscope for Tuesday, March 28:

Compromising your character for the sake of gains really just isn’t worth it in the long run. Stick to the path that you know is best, and you’ll see results that confirm the value of upholding your integrity.

wah this is quite freaky. i was juz discussin with ven abt the previous sem QM quiz qns, in preparation for the quiz tmrw. den we didn’t know how to do the qns, and she was like, “ok let’s all die together tmrw.” den i was thinkin, hm nvm juz copy lor!!! den suddenly i checked my inbox and found my horoscope for tmrw! it’s a sign! (no pun intended!) haha normally my horoscope doesn’t arrive in my inbox til the early morning of the day that it is forecasting, i.e. Tues horoscope would come in early morning abt 5am of Tues. But tonite it’s so earli! it’s a sign! haha that said, i’ve never copied ok. i do think abt it, but i nv do it. typical singaporean – kiasi!

‘lost sheep’ smiled and talked to me today. i was thinkin hw come he so zi dong, until i realised he needed to get tissue from me! :cuss:

shitty week this wk. shitty week next. next wk is the worst. cant wait for next wk to be over. den can breathe for a bit b4 the nxt wave comes again.

sian. sch sux. i hate this term. don’t feel like doing anythin but everyone is running forward so i hv no choice but to plod along.

btw, i applied for 2 different positions with my dream bank. juz anyhow whack cos my ultimate goal was to work in my dream bank. first position, they called me down for an interview. i panicked cos i nv state my period of availability in my cover letter, so i had to call them back and confess. in the end they said no need to go for interview cos they dun want me cos i cant work for an extended period. :shake: second position in a different dept, lagi best. they never even call me for interview and they selected me liaoz! no choice i had to tell my school’s career services and she spoke to the bank and in the end they aso din want me!! :rant: so sad!!! i reallie wanted to work in a bank and in my dream bank at tt!! even kw said his frens said it’s the best bank to go to. actualli i dun think it’s the best bank lah, haha i juz like it. anw nvm, i shall be proud of the fact tt among the like at least 3-4 ppl who applied for the second position, they actually just selected me without an interview! i’m so zai! hahahah :tongue1

ok give up on my quiz tmrw liaoz. want to go slp!

i always thought that i was bi, or at least marginally inclined towards the female gender. until last week. i got the shock of my life and realised that i’m really really completely utterly irrevocably straight after all. :buck1

haha moving on. i’m quite sad today actually. when i grad, i won’t get a job in my dream company already. :sad1 “The way is shut.” at least, i think so. no chance unless i pull strings, and even then, i don’t even think i hv any strings to pull! and it also looks like i may not be working this summer hols, which on the bad side, one less experience for me but which can be a good thing also lah. at least i would get a break after working all my past hols away, and maybe settle my exchange stuff IF i am going overseas. BUT still NO DREAM JOB!! :sad1 sobs.

and i’ve just seen the stuff for my new school term next week. !@$#%$^&*( see already i sianz. so much shit again. all that readings. double major triple quadruple sianz. i used to be scared. like at the beginning of each term, lookin at all the shit to do, i get scared and worried, wondering if i can cope with everything and whether it would be too difficult for my minute brain. but this term, i just feel more sian than anything. only 2 things to look forward to. firstly, my FT class on Thurs is filled with all my favourite boys! :yum1 secondly, well i’m not gonna share the second thing with you! :finger:

“Oh, Isis, Goddess of Life, guide me to the other world…”

i am so screwed. this semester’s exams are the worst of my life, even worse than Year 1’s FA and MA. it’s all my fault really, for all the subjects. i seriously underestimated the amount of stuff tt i needed to study. very worried abt the calculation qn, dunno how chim the calculation will be. hoping tt bcos it’s such a short period of time, he can’t be so evil as to ask us to calculate super-chim stuff. so if it’s just basic variances, then i think i can handle.

the application questions. was lookin at the past year papers and realised tt the application is really kinda chim. again, i can cover the really basic stuff, but if u throw me a diagram tt i saw in my notes but was not explained in class, then i’m a goner. shit i deserve to die. suddenly feeling very scared now. everyone seems to have covered more stuff than me, mainly for the extra readings.

it’s a morning paper, and i really should go sleep or i can’t think properly to crap. but if feel like if i sleep now, i’m not helping myself cos i hvn’t finished studying. but even if i stay up, i don’t have the mood to study and things are just in drips and draps and i don’t know exactly what i shld be reading. i must do everything of course, but bcos no time i hv to choose but i dunno wat to choose. i shld just go sleep.

will the gods help me if i’ve realised my mistake already?

“Oh, Isis, Goddess of Life, guide me to the other world…”

gosh how many times must i say: i realli HATE cockroaches!!! :rant:

wat do cockroaches eat? was i killed by one in my previous life? i realli dunno why i hate them so much. and i especially hate it when i’m studying late at nite and the only one awake is me. shitamama. i spotted one crawling on the floor just 5 mins ago. there hasn’t been any in my hse for a very long time, unless it’s those tt fly in when it’s gonna rain. dunno where this dicko fly in from, if he really flew in. i was tryin to corner it and stuff newspapers under the door to prevent it from running into the rooms. so i sprayed. ok i may hate them but i do feel a bit guilty when i kill them. taking a life is bad wat, no matter how distasteful tt life form is. i think it’s sm where in the front room struggling now. haha madness lah, i can get an adrenaline rush from catchin and killin a cockroach!!

sianz dun feel like studyin now. my exams hv gotten progressively worse. i dread to think of hw AMA will be like on Fri.

Mon’s AA was ok. i think cos it was the first exam for this term for me, so i was really feelin very kan cheong b4 the exam. funnily enuf, i finished studyin quite early, i went to bed abt 2am even tho my paper was in the aftnn. u knw lah, aftnn paper can wake up later, unless u wanna wake up early to study. but i prefer to study later and wake up later. so ya. quite early alrdy. i think cos the prof was really helpful. not tt she gave us major hints or anything, juz tt u can refer to her past sem exam paper, which will pretty much be the same thing, so it was easy to prep and i discussed answers with yt last wk. hopefully my answers are ok and are what she expects. my prof quite particular one..haiz..banking on AA to pull up my GPA alrdy man. i only need a B+ for the exam paper!!

den IPR on Tues. okie so i slept even later den the previous nite cos trying to last min cram the proj presentations. at least the case study was 70%, so i could handle tt. basically juz say plaintiff can use this law this case but defendant can defend using this law this case. hopefully it’s correct; i basically juz copied from his notes and the group projects. the 30% question was shitty. i so didn’t expect such a open question. his past sem exam qn wasn’t anything like tt. i was totally lost. it’s like, the kinda qn where u can crap, but if u realie hv no knowledge of the law or anythin lydat, it’s so damn hard to crap! on hindsight, i shld hv expected something lydat, esp since he recently wrote a journal article with my ethics prof abt it. juz talk cock lor. i was reallie rambling, and talkin nonsense. seriously, juz whack without logic or law. shit. the 70% qn more or less completed, but i didn’t hv the time to go back and touch up. i didn’t finish the second qn, obviously. luckily only 30% but again i really need B+ for this. shit it’s a 50% exam paper. means agar-agar muz score B+ for the exam paper to score B+ for overall grade rite? ahhhhh i hope he’s lenient!!

today one lagi worse. ethics. wtf. I HV NO ETHICS!! do wat sai rite? slept so late last nite tryin to do last min revision cos i neglected this subj during study week. i expected advertising, just not tt aspect of advertising. stupid me. considering the textbk discussion was abt targetting advertising, i shld hv known. but we didn’t really discuss the textbk wat. and of course, i further shot myself in the foot by not reading my textbk, so i didn’t use any arguments in the txtbk. ok the txtbk arguments were not ethical theories, but they made sense nonetheless, except tt i din know they exist so i din pt them in. my proj was on bribery, so it was quite expected tt i would pick tt qn aso. but i was really talkin nonsense. i had my proj report with me, but i wasn’t sure if i was allowed to copy wholesale. all the plagiarism and copyright rubbish. study too much IPR liaoz. thinkin abt it now tho..hmm…seeing tt the report was a group effort, means i hv joint copyright in it. means i am a joint owner and i shld be allowed to reproduce it rite? but i don’t think i can license any1 else to reproduce it. crap i 4got laioz. exam yest and i 4got alrdy haha. ya but i dare not copy so i tried to write in my own way. which is really f-ed up. 70% essay qn ok. wtf. the worst thing is tt i din even finish all my qns. come on lor, 1.5 hrs, 2 essay qns, where got time? i stopped my advertising qn to focus on bribery since it commands a higher percentage. shit lah. it was so bad tt i didn’t even know wat i was writing, and i had to stop countless times to think (stopping countless times in a 1.5 hr exam is deep shit!) and i was kinda juz hoping tt time will juz pass quickly so i can juz hand in my paper. the more i thought abt the qn, the more i wrote, the more i seemed to be rambling. even if this shitty 1.5 hr paper is only worth 25% of my grade, i really need at least a B. the other components of this mod quite sucky liaoz leh..ok i think if my exam agar-agar get B shld be ok. damn the sch and those philosophers for making me do this. i hv no ethics. i dun give a rat’s ass if there’s bribery, child labour, sweat shops, watever. as for privacy, as long as u dun tell me dat u are infringing on my privacy. as far as i’m concerned, ignorance is bliss.

ah Fri’s paper. AMA. machickeneh. he nv tell us our grades so far so i don’t know where i stand. it’s 30% paper tho. sooo means i shld approx need B or B+ for the exam? haiz sianz reallie dunno wat he will ask. and damn scared cos one of his qns will hv some “number crunching”. shit my numbers sux; i totally forgot wat i learnt in MA and i confirm+guarantee+chop he will sure ask abt variance. ok u can say i shld study variance, but harlow, no time to pick up one sem’s worth of work in 2 days. if it’s really simple variance i think i can handle. i hope it’s not budgeting. dat is damn bad la; i can buang tt qn if it’s budgetting. crap considering hw much i spend, hw am i suppose to knw how to budget rite? :whatever: