man i’m like so bored. watching the Euro Finals now between Portugal and Greece. so boring lor, Portugal is so disappointing today. dunno wat the hell they doing. Greece is defn the much betta team. no action one, except dat one header goal in the 57th min. i spent the entire match transfering songs to my mp3 player and writing my comm svc report. so sianz. Pa is like very irritating, cos i think he bought Portugal to win, so he keeps making comments abt how they’re goin to die, so lousy, blah blah blah. irritatin. not dat i’m reallie watchin or anythin, but the comments just take the fun away from watchin the match. i mean, i’m not supportin any team in particular, just watch for fun. den some1 at ur side keep talkin and talkin and bangin the chair. like u tryin to watch movie, and ur fren keep talkin into ur ear dat kinda thing.

Poor Ronaldo. crying now. poor sod couldn’t run properly, kept fallin down, missed a few chances. geez. Portugal deserved to lose lor, for the lousy way they played. but still feel quite sad for them too. haha same kinda feelin, almost like deja vu, knowing dat they wun win, yet hopin dat they will. same feelin i had with italy, with england. i knew portugal wun win, either draw or lose, but i hoped dat they will win. bah lousy playin, wat happened to all the stars? dun think i’m makin sense now haha. feel hungry and sleepy. nv slept enuf earlier on, couldn’t get to sleep, kept tossing in bed for an hr+.

watchin the away ceremony now. so nice to see ppl so happy. hm wonder how Greece would fare in the next Euro? so the trophy’s goin back to Greece, and so is the Olympics, returning to its founding cty. i would feel so proud to be a Greek if i were one. haha wonder when can i say I feel proud to be SIngaporean cos we won a football trophy? i think never, not in this lifetime at least haha.

ew one thing dat irritates me is watchin jeanette aw and felicia chin act cute. the other is lookin at sharon au with the str doll fringe and hv the yucky expression on her face. it’s not dat i hate them, actulli i think they are quite good actualli but eww cant stand this kinda stuff.

the other thing is i think i canot watch this kinda show. will juz cry when i see the ppl cry. all the kids hvin to go thru so much problems. y lydat? they’re so young, and family no money for medication, so jiak lat. y muz there be pain and suffering? smtime i think, if onli i had a lot of money, den i can upgrade ah ma to a betta ward with better service. smtimes science and med is full of shit. smtimes the doctors and nurses in reality are juz so diff from those on tv shows like Healing Hands. too much shit for them to deal with dat they dun reallie care for the patient. dreamt of ah ma again the nite b4. nothin much realie, juz jumbled scenes, i was prolly juz tired. but still, aft every dream and i wake up, it upsets me. everytime i’m out on the streets n i see old men and women, i juz think of my grandparents. when i see kids with their grandparents, i hv this overwhelmin urge to grab the kids by their shoulders, shake them reallie hard and tell them that they shld treasure their grandparents coz they wun be around for long.
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Everything that happens in this world, there is no absolute good or bad. Sometimes good things turned out to be bad things eventually, while bad things may become a gain.

Whatever good things that happen to you, enjoy it, but don’t have to hold on too tight to it, treat it as a surprise in your life. Whatever bad things that happen to you, don’t have to feel too sad or despair, in the end, it might not be a total bad thing after all.

found a blog entry that i wrote when fakedevil was down.
Wednesday Mar 3, 2004
11:59pm

1) If you see me around or talk to me or watever, don’t ask abt my grandma. I don’t know wat to say, I don’t want to say anything, i don’t feel like saying anything, and no i’m still not coping very well with her passing. i juz feel i’m not strong enuf to handle this, however different Ralph or any1 else may think. And don’t be so bloody insensitive as to pt out the fact dat u think i shud not still be crying since 1 wk has passed. I’ll keep crying until i can look at her picture or talk abt her without tearing. The heart follows its own calendar and I’ll keep crying until i think i’ve grieved enuf.

2) My Comms individual presentation went quite well. I’m happy and surprised+amazed at the comments i received. will talk more abt it next time. was quite disappionted with my 1st Written Assignmt grade..got like B+/B coz the prof can’t quite decide wat grade i shld get. i kinda expected betta, hope the 2nd WA is betta. i need a grade betta den B- to pull up my GPA and to mk sure i dun hv to repeat another Comms elective next sem.

3) Think my MA this Fri is gonna be so screwed up. i juz hope i dun fail until so jiak lat. Hoping dat Stats on Sat wun be so bad since i’ve been doin my assignments. It’s times like this when i realli wonder wat i’m doing in a faculty like Accountancy.

alrite..so to go thru the pts one by one…
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“Life isn’t about whether you danced with your dream date or whether you made the basketball team. It’s about being happy and living to see the people you love, to do the things you love, and to love that life that loves you all the same.” – Sue Zimmerman

hehe today escaped earli again! hai~ i live in fear of the time when they will suddenly, on the day itself, tell me dat i hv to stay, or got work to do. i think dat day will be comin soon but dunno when, so the anticipation is quite scary. but think this wk and nxt, hopefully shld be quite okie? june will need to finish up the budget, so mebbe dat is when the busy time will be. juz hope it wun clash with my DPA thingy.

speakin of the DPA thingy, so happy dat the CCMS secretary was so nice and friendly and helpful when i approached her abt it. now juz hope dat there will be some kinda of response from it. hai~ aniweas, called up Shan today. wow din knoe the salvation army actualli organises small grps of ppl to go myanmar to visit their adopted kids! too bad the upcoming trip is nxt wk and i cant go. think it would be so far to see in person how my adopted kid looks like.

aniweas, the day was qutie okie, except dat i was reallie sleepy. hai~ as usual, not enuf slp durin the wkend. argh. feel like the army guys when they can onli come out once a wk durin the wkend, and watch a movie durin the wkend. dat’s precisely wat i’ve been doin ever since i started work. go out onli durin wkends to watch a movie.

speakin of movies, i watched Facing Windows yesterday. italian film with english subtitles. shallow issues first, the female lead Giovanna is so pretty!! and Raoul Bova, woah! major cutie! but hm he din look veri nice with specs, i prefer him without. but i still think Rodrigo Santoro in Love Actually is much cuter, esp with specs. yar and Giovanna’s husband in he movie has one hot bod! okie but the show was pretty sad. it dealt with like, choices, responsibilities, regrets. stuff like that. “you should not merely want to survive, you shld demand for a betta world.” it’s juz so painful how smtimes we can mk the wrong choices and regret it all our lives and wanting so much to turn back time but can’t. i couldn’t help but cry. thinkin abt the wrong choices and the regrets, and tho i wasn’t the one makin the wrong choice or regretting, i was affected indirectly, and i could feel the pain and the regrets. at that pt, watchin the old man with amnesia Davide talk abt how he saved his townsppl from the Nazis to prove that he is worthy of them and that he wasn’t juz a gay Jew, but becoz of this, he failed to warn his love Simeone, who died in the concentration camp, juz made me wanted so much to turn back time. i’ve been playin the game of “what-ifs” a lot of times recently. and every time, aft goin around in circles, i find that, as much as i hate to say it, a lot of times in our life, even b4 we mk our choices, our fate has already been decided for us. does that mk sense?

still haven’t found Dr Chow’s email yet. shoot.

wanted to look for Ms Ng today but she was not at home. so i went to get myself a manicure and pedicure instead! haha had nail art done aso coz it was part of the package. got a very pretty daisy on my thumb hehe. yea was waiting for my nails to dry when i realised dat oops TM is so close to TP i shudn’t be there or i might juz meet ppl i dun wanna meet. but too late. luckily onli saw jolyn and joli. hehe it was nice to see old friends again, and she mentioend dat she juz saw jx aso but i din see him anywhere.

aniweas my results are all out. hm okie lah, average, tho for Stats and Comms i actualli expected much betta. but i’m juz glad i actualli passed my MA, no not the juz-passed kinda grade but a average pass grade, thank goodness. now i owe some1 a treat for giving me last min tuition. thank heavens for friends. think my GPA shld be betta oreadi lah..but erm still not in the honours range yet i think. hai~ aniweas while studyin for MA, i realised dat mebbe i shldn’t be so honest?
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