hm feel depressed but chatty. think it muz be PMS? except that this is the perpetual kind i think. had a huge fight with pa, but think it’s okie now. dun reallie feel like talkin much to him as yet, but see how. and within the space of a wk, i got pissed with Jie too. reallie, smtimes dun understand how he think the way he does. can’t he consider abt others besides his studies? it’s like, he cares abt his basketball, his sch work and most recently his most beloved gf. his family machiam like dun exist lydat. mebbe it’s juz me. i think i’m paranoid and naggy like old woman lydat. can’t he think abt his family more? dun understand u knoe, he can go out with gf like so many times, play in the bball competition dat tks up his nights, yet ask him to eat dinner with the family once in the whole 7 days of the wk and he say he needs to study coz got no more time liaoz. like wat the hell? get himself involved in so many things but got no time for family, wat is this? yar and smtimes i wish Mei din hv to work so much too. but bo bian, work is lydat. she even said she wanna ask her boss let her go China work leh!! hai~

*why am i still feelin hungry even tho i juz finished dinner?* :eek1

aniweas i talked to my buddy today!! hm wonder whether i mentioned it b4? i knoe i told some ppl but dunno whether i blogged abt it. my company has this buddy system to help new interns fit in. so on my 1st day of work, i met my buddy, this NTU guy in TQM. so the HR woman intro me to him, and told him mebbe he can follow us coz she bringin me to my dept. so he came over. den the HR woman brought me to see my assistant manager and i talked to her for like 1 min or so and when i turned around, my buddy had juz walked off without a word. can’t he even say like “i’m goin back to my work now” or “if u need anythin juz let me knoe” or smthin lydat. he juz nv say anythin and walked away. so i was kinda pissed with him. i mean, wat sort of buddy are you rite? so for the rest of the day and wk, he din speak to me at all, din come and find me or anythin. so i aso dun go talk to him lah! den today, i walked to the pantry and saw dat the lights in the entire TQM, CCMS, Legal, BD section were not on. and he was alrdy there workin liaoz! the onli one! in the dark! so i thought, aiya okie lah, go talk to him lor, at least now got a conversation topic, and also since it’s gonna be his last day here tmrw leh. so i went over and asked how come he’s workin in the dark and he said it’s okie. so den i asked which uni he’s from and which yr. yar dat’s abt it den i walked back. den gang qiao juz as i was goin home today i met him again at the lift. so he finally decided to smile and talk to me. the last few times he juz kan cheong kan cheong walk very fast, machiam like scared i’m gonna pounce on him lydat. haha yar so we talked abit b4 the other ppl came into the lift lor. damn so wasted if not can talk abit more. hm so mebbe xinni was rite aft all, she said he could be shy. but seriously, aft bein in the uni and company of gals for like 5 yrs at least, how shy can u be rite? shy aso can be frenly abit mah. hm mebbe i lveri scary face like this lah :psycho1 haha

but somehow this incident with him made me think. smtimes in life, we dun tk the initiative to do smthin. by the time we do, it’s too late. like me and him. it’s not as tho i like him or wanna date him, but we can be frens. but becoz we both din talk to each other these 2 mths, and talk onli on the day b4 he’s gonna leave, there wun be any frenship. and it’s gonna be kinda weird for me to ask for his hp since we’re not dat close. yar but like, so wasted rite? we could hv been frens, whether close or not. but no chance of dat happenin now. yar so wasted, like if we dun grab the chance to do smthin, and juz try no matter how stupid we would seem or how stupid the outcome would be, u would nv knoe. aft all, wat’s the worst dat could happen?
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hm feel chatty today. so many things to update!! so think this wld be a long entry?

anwieas went to watch “Around the World in 80 Days” last Mon coz i volunteered to help out in the organising of the movie premiere to raise funds for DPA. the movie was entertaining, some parts quite funny, esp when u see the cameos. but hm typical Jackie Chan stuff i suppose, so not reallie worth more den $6.50. wah i kan cheong left work so earli, in the end jzu stone at Great World until the event started. it ended quite earli aso, i tot there would be stuff to do aft the movie but got nothin. hm FD was there with his family, think he and the lady-in-charge are good frens. he’s quite cool, and he and his kids are very affectionate even in public. how sweet.

joined the Singtel SMS shootout on Sat. haha juz tot to join for fun since i dun use the dictionary, and er i tot i can sms pretty fast. haha was so happy when i typed the msg in like, less than the world-record timing lor. but jeez, apparently there are 125 other more ppl who could type it even faster!! my goodness!! so many ppl in SG msg without predictive txt and can do it so fast aso. damn so wasted. so disappointed. :pout1 tot if i can go finals, even if i’m last in the finals aso can win prize. now not even in the finals, so onli got 1 starbucks voucher. haha.

aniweas Sunday i met up with Val. went to Excelsior Hotel for dim sum buffet. supposed to go Clarke Quay or smthin but she too lazy to walk. so i brought her there to try coz i aso nv been to this branch b4. wah er think we ordered too much? i ate until i wanted to puke lor!! :psycho1 we were tryin to come up with ways to hide the food, like puttin the char siew pau into the tea pot, droppin food on the floor ‘accidentally’, using the pau paper to cover the food, stuff lydat. nv felt so full in my life. goodness. hm she’s like attached now, to this 34 yr old guy!! was so shocked to hear that. he drives and has quite a steady income. but i nv expected her to be with some1 like him. and the age diff!! 14 yrs!! perhaps it’s juz not dat common a situation, esp if my fren is involved as well. hm for her sake, i hope dat it works out. but aft talkin abt her and him, i felt so acutely aware of how immature i am. reallie, think i haven’t grown up, so canot find a guy so much older den me! haha but yar, her thinkin, and her consideration for him (sinceh’s an older guy) is juz not wat i would consider. am i mkin sense? smthin lydat. but hm as long as she’s happy, which she seems like to me, den good for her.

walked all the way to Marina Promenade aft dat to see yousep at the national canoeing competition or smthin. coz i tot i saw him earlier at City Hall, u can’t miss the trademark NY black top with some red/gold chinese character on the back. but i wasn’t sure whether it was him and he was with frens, so i juz msged him later. and he called and said he would be there, and i said i would go look for him. oh wells, since i said dat, canot dun go mah, even tho i was quite stoned, and it was such a long walk under the hot sun!! the NY team was rite under Benjamin Sheares bridge lor!! i walked dat far lor!! aniweas juz chatted with him for a bit, it’s always nice to talk to old frens. :beam1

met up with Jen yseterday. it’s true when they say dat it’s good if gals can get together to bitch abt their common ex. walau if we din talk, i wouldn’t hv known dat he used the same ‘trick’ on her and dat he told us different things. haha thank goodness i was smart enuf to hv run away b4 anythin terrible happened. tho not fast enuf. lookin back it was such an immature time of my life (Well i dun seem to hv matured much! *gasp*) yar but aniwaes, i nv could understood why he liked me so much. like, apparently he hasn’t officially/formally broken up with Jen yet, but he would rather ask me and not her to be his date for the prom. oh man. i’m not pretty or smart, i’m juz some normal nut lurkin around. yet he can still not be over me. and according to Jen, it’s becoz of the closeness we shared. erm i nearly choked on my passion fruit drink. haha wat closeness? my goodness, i nv felt anything and there has onli been 1 guy even in my life with whom i hv felt the closeness. wat kinda closeness can there be if we dun even like the same things?! yar but aniweas, he’s juz totally crap and a jerk. poor Jen, she knoes he’s an ass but she can’t get over him. i totally understand, esp when it comes to feelins, but still!! hello!! he’s reallie unbelievable lor!! dunno why she still likes him, shoot forgot to ask her wat she sees in him. i mean, it’s not like she has no tiao jian lor..think she quite pretty aso mah. oh wells.
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