okie i’m back!!

Note1: still hvn’t decided whether to watch AMI!! how ah?
Note2: still thinkin abt sm stuff. how xinni?
Note3: dunno wat i wld do without sean. :err1 alwayz listenin to my whining and complains, yet still constantly encouraging me along. puttin up with my constant PMS, and knowin juz how to mk me smile when i’m feelin damn pissed. my fav is the hurdles story. gosh dat is hilarious! our fav conversation: “never die b4 issit?” “of course nv lah, u think i cat and got 9 lives issit?” :grin1

okie so AIS test was okie. i passed. not bad results. well i shld be content with wat i’ve got..juz..buay gam wan dat the polo guys mugged the day b4 onli and scored betta. *bish*

audit presentation was okie. like wat daryl said, “juz dun give me lower den a B.” i got B+. happy dat he said dat i handled the Q&A well. pissed with myself cos my presentation marks pulled my overall grade down. he said i din hv enuf eye contact and kept reading my notes. shit. pissed dat i nv prepare properly. cos if i did, and i wasn’t so nervous, i wouldn’t read my notes so much, things would juz flow off the top of my head. and i would hv been able to maintain enuf eye contact. actualli i felt my eye contact was okie leh. oh wells over liaoz. 5% onli, dun stress so much.

oh yar but my previous audit summary i got A! 1 of 3 in the class!! haha. felt so happy dat day. he read all the 3 A scripts out, tho he nv say who got A lah. but he said dat i had good insight, i understand Audit, i’m thinkin deeply and i’ve done my readings and am even ahead of him!! haha i reallie hope i can keep this up.

audit test was okie. i hope to pass, hope to even do a bit betta den juz pass. cos i feel dat i tried my best to put in the relevant stuff and link it back to the qn. basically talk a lot of crap lah, but i hope he can understand my crap. hai. a bit like lit, juz a lot more difficult concepts to grasp.

FNCE test. *sigh* hope to pass onli. ’nuff said.
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anwieas sunday i was a very good gal. i sit down at the table for almost the whole day to study, study and study. 2 hr lunch break, 1/2hr shoppin break. dat’s it. at nite compile ppt. finished wat i wanted to study, so i was quite happy.

so it pissed me off first thing in the morn on mon when i got last wk’s FNCE quiz back. and i got pissed further when i sat for this wk’s quiz. like wat the shit, did i not study properly? i couldn’t do half the qns! crap, so pissed with myself. study so hard still canot do properly. stupid girl. muz be nv understand fully. like, why u nv study properly? sti there whole day still dunno anything?! shittified.

aniweas went to CMPB. so fun to see all the army guys doin duty, checkin vehicles for explosives. wonder if they check the normal everyday cars. cars of ppl who work there, and go there everyday and mebbe hv the little disco n the left window screen dat allows them to park there. do they check those cars? i mean, who knoes if some bugger, or some good fren, put bomb into those cars rite? den bcos u think those cars belong to the big shot army ppl, u no need to check. den *boom* but oops, betta dun anyhow say. but seriously tho, how well-equipped are the security staff there to handle any emergencies? i mean, okie check car, check ic, scan ic, tk ic, walk thru the body check machine thingy. but if any1 tries to do anythin, can they move fast enuf? do they hv enuf ppl? okie but finally saw the P98 office. so cool. think they wanna hire me? pity canot see the actual studio itself.

went to Coastarina. hmmmm can i say i’m interested in buyin condo? penthse/mansionette, 5th&6th flr with sea view. $900+K. dun pray pray. aiya i wish onli lor. juz went there to get brochure for *sshh* audit. din reallie liek the site leh. dun hv sea view, blocked by other older hses. bah. den the area like quite small, dunno how they gonna squueze everythin in. learnt abt the things i shld tk note of when buyin condo. i nv quite knew dat cos everytime i go showflat, i juz run around, look at the nice showflat and furnishings and nv bother abt all the qns dat my parents ask the guy.
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21st Aug 2004 Sat

had to wake up at 6+am cos i volunteered to be marshal at this car rally organised by my office to raise funds for the President’s Star Charity. so damn tired cos i din hv enuf slp the nite b4. was so stoned in the morn. aniweas reached my office quite earli, helped to settle some admin stuff. when Esther called me the day b4, i was stunned to realise dat i would be goin to Jalan Ahmad Ibrahim! dat’s like freakin far. den i asked who i’m paired up with, she said, “oh don’t worry we paired you with a nice young man.”

haha so i met my partner. graduated from NUS engine last yr onli but cos he’s in VDO, so i nv met him or heard of him b4. *sigh* why din they pair me with HK or CH? haha but nvm my partner quite nice lah. he kinda reminds me of a younger and cuter version of dat acapella singer-lawyer. and becos we had to be together for half an hr ride to Jln AI and half an hr back to the office, and abt 4 hrs at the Caltex stn at Jln AI, u can bet we talked alot. wat else to do rite? we din bring anythin to read or listen to. and the mags at the petrol stn not worth buyin. so we, or rather he, asked the nice gal in the petrol stn for 2 chairs. so we sat down and waited for the cars to come. we din expect many to come, cos Jln AI is so far away. so we were reallie kan cheong when the first car came. den smtimes 2-3 cars can come at the same time, so we lagi more kan cheong. wat the participants had to do was drink up 2 bottles of water thru one straw onli. it was quite difficult for some, esp those with females and kids. i was quite disappointed with Matthias’ grp tho. expected them to do faster but he was so damn slow. think he drinks alchohol faster man haha. so we stoned there until 1pm and my partner offered to treat me ice cream. hehe it was so hot lor, but luckily we could wait in the shelter of the petrol stn.

1+ we packed up and left for the office. another half hr ride. we were both too tired to talk much, and there was a jam aso. sianz. one at Eng Neo another at Kallang. we missed the prize presentation, and the buffet lunch sux. i juz sat there and watched them eat. aft dat we had nothin to do, so we stayed to help the org committee pack up. which was quite good actualli cos we got lotsa free stuff haha. each of us had a goodie bag, which all participants and volunteers hv. 1 bottle of water, 1 packet drink, a notebook, a cap, some other chapalang stuff lah. den there were extra bags left over, Esther was like “tk tk tk!” but i din lah. paiseh. those bags were the paper bag kind. there was another kind, the travelling bag kind, ie, all the goodies in the travellin bag. think it was for corporate participants. got extra, so Esther said “tk tk tk!” so i tk lah! travellin bag leh. den this one lagi betta. inside got flask, got shoe bag, got towel on top of the other normal stuff. den got extra umbrella. Esther said “tk tk tk!” so i took aso! haha the umbrella very big!! can shelter like 3 ppl? or 2 big ang mohs lah. took so many things dat when i left with those big bags and umbrella, machim like the company sack me and i’m movin all my barang barang back home lydat haha. so aniweas had to help her to move stuff, from front counter to meetin room, to the 15th floor. got to see my old work space again. man i missed the view. no Ivan, i’m not on a ‘man-hunt’; my partner din mention anythin abt keepin in touch, and neither did i. so i juz went home and collapsed into bed.
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haha actualli BKK not dat many cute guys wat. i onli saw like 2 durin the entire time i was there!! and yes, i so miss Torwai!!! *sob* wonder how is he now. evie, ju wei has no plans to continue competitive swimming!! check out the team singapore website for his article!!

aniweas yar the 2 cute thai guys. the first is my hotel’s doorman/liftman/whatchamacallit. he stands at the lift, and when u wanna tk the lift to ur room, he will press the button for u and greet you just as the door closes. dun ask why i aso dunno. den if u tk the lift down, and the door opens, he will greet u too. haha he’s like the onli cute guy in the whole hotel.

den the other guy is a reallie young policeman at suan lum (sp?) he looks even younger den me lor! we were tkin a taxi from our hotel to chinatown, and the driver talk so much abt fod, and chinatown etc. so we aso happy happy talk with him. den he drove us to some place and we asked so where’s chinatown? he pointed vaguely to his right, and said we can eat there first b4 goin chinatown. so he dropped us off in front of this seafood place. horrors of horrors, turns out at he took us to suan lum instead of chinatown, which was like goddamn far away lor. basket and i gave him a huge tip as well k. well not huge to us, but huge to them. but still. the pt is he cheated us! of corrs we trust him rite? i mean, we dunno the way around wat, so when he tk us there, we juz believe lor. so in the end we approached the young policeman for directions to chinatown. he helped us hail a cab, which broke down b4 we could even leave the main entrace of suan luM!! omg. so we had to switch cabs and again the next cab driver look quite young. but cant speak much english. but his engine super noisy. he said in halting english dat his car like F1. i was like errrr yar and juz smiled cos i was sittin in front. goodness, dunno wat kinda engine so noisy and he say F1? was considerin whether i shld ask him who he support until i decided dat both our knowledge of the other’s language will mk the whole conversation worse so i juz shuddup.

den at chatuchak, we hailed another cab back to the hotel. despite my tellin him dat our hotel is opp WTC, he din seem to understand and even took out his map from the glove compartment!! and he still cant figure it out. so Mei took out OUR map and showed him, and he said “orh WTC.” we were like yes opp WTC. goodness i tot i told him dat, and we kept repeating dat when he seemed kinda lost. muz be he not listenin. crap. but luckily reached back safely.

still cant over the fact dat i din buy the von dutch bag. and the clutch bag. shit. so wasted. aniwaes wah lingerie in thailand is like damn cheap lor, even the genuine ones. oh and the hotel tv channel not as good as the KL one lah. no harry potter or keanu reeves or wat not. i saw Crossroads, which was like so damn lame. and the male lead sux big time. so ugly. and Britney was so sweet and cute and perfect it was unbelievable. saw this other Mary-Kate and Ashley show. quite funny. din manage to watch the whole show so am half tempted to go rent the vcd or smthin. there was sm tom cruise show but yucks.

Note 1: luckily i called rz up and cleared the misunderstanding. felt so damn embarrassed.
Note 2: haha wai i want ur bf!! haha
Note 3: wah the rain was horribly heavy today lor!! got so drenched even with an umbrella. okie lah i shld hv waited for it to subside, but i reallie wanted to go home. miss my comfy home!! my bag, my shoes, my clothes all wet! but actualli it felt kinda good to be drenched and hv the wind blow so strongly. very cooling leh..quite fun haha. shld hv juz thrown my umbrella away lah huh? think dat would feel veri, liberating?

anwieas BKK was a very interesting experience. first time i go overseas for shopping and free-and-easy instead of tour package.

Fri SQ flight in the mornin!! wah got breakfast aso leh!! din expect it, cos i thought the flight would be too short. but the breakfast was good lor. i ate so much dat i din eat lunch liaoz. Left abt 850 SG time, arrived 12 BKK time. wah but the hotel misplaced our luggage k!! was so worried cos got $$ inside. aiya i knoe u’re thinkin why so stupid put $$ inside, but i aso canot carry all with me mah rite?

anwieas we went shoppin at Siam Square aso. cool stuff there. quite fashionable, similar to SG yet different at the same time. but their sizes!! aiyo their Free Size machiam like S size lydat. go there see the thai girls, 9 out of 10 will be damn skinny can. i mean, okie lah i horizontally challenged dun say lah, but Ma and Mei taller den me and super skinny aso sometimes aso hv to wear L size!! but nvm at least i still got some stuff but not satisfied!! not enuf time to walk some more and buy some more!! aniweas the sch girls there quite ah lian leh. their ah lian fashion – short skirt, heels, belt, earrings and chains lor. but the stuff sold there aso quite retro leh, surprisingly.

Fri nite stopped back MBK Shoppin Centre b4 we went to Patpong. cool place. haha i wanted to watch “thai girl” show!! or more crudely put, “p***y show” dat’s wat they called it. i wanted to watch, but no1 else wanted to, so canot :mad1 i mean, not dat i’m perverted or wat lah, but i think it would be quite an experience lor. aniwaes, along the streets, they hv a lot of discos, and the doors are open, so u can see inside. all the thai girls in bikinis dancing on the bar top. most guys stop to stare, and most guys were approached to go watch the “thai girl” show. but ang mohs are 90% more likely to be targetted. wah so many AMs in Patpong and BKK in general! and some quite cute one leh!! saw abt 3 of them, german? dunno from wat cty lah, they were in the 7-11 in Patpong. and i saw another 3 Scandinavian one. lagi betta ah, Scandinavian, tall, blonde, blue-eyed Vikings. :yum1 yar anwieas saw gays aso, they walk around so freely. lucky them. oh i kinda heard and saw a fight on the road! dunno wat they arguing over aso but reallie shouting damn loudly lor. the locals all stare and walk towards the scene while the tourists all walk in the opposite direction haha. yar went for thai foot massage aso! too bad no time for full body massage tho. reached the hotel past 2? we all juz fell into bed and slept lor.
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Warning: long entry!! hv to mk sure i write every single detail down so i wun forget wat happened.

Wai, i finally watched I,Robot!! but i was bloody disappointed tho. wasn’t wat i expected, waste of money. some scenes not necessary, like Will Smith showin off his hot bod in the shower. lame. den some lines aso quite duhz. and the ending. hm i guess it was kinda weird, cos they talk talk talk so much scientific bs and i din raellie understand it, and it was kinda plodding abit, and the end, when you start to knoe who the ‘killer’ is, it moves so fast aft dat. hm i wun go so far as to say i shld hv watched Ella Enchanted instead, but watchin this was defn a waste of $$+disappointing! but again, the themes raised, were quite interesting lah. maybe i shld go think abt it.

grouse: why issit dat when i say i want 2 tix to so-and-so movie, they alwayz assume dat i want couple seats? last time for van helsin lydat, this time aso. hm last time abit no choice lah, cos no more seats liaoz. but this time she asked, “u want as far back as possible rite?” i reallie din understand wat she meant leh! haha so innocent rite? the onli thought dat came to my mind was dat i din wanna sit so far in front and hv to tilt my head up to view the screen. so i juz said, “er yar thanks” and i got last row seats! gee and right beside us was this couple *ahem* yar. but not dat they reallie affected my viewing lah, and no i wasn’t even lookin at them lah. but still.

went to play pool aft dat. meridien was nearest, but cuppage was cheaper so we walked down to cuppage. hm abit dingy and dark, but still alrite. oh well i dun think i won any game did i? i so lousy, shld be nv win anythin lah, but at least i did come close to doing so haha.

halfway thru playing, he asked, “so when are you getting your license?” i was like, “huh? wat license? driving license?” he said yes so i said, “nah i’m not gonna learn at all, juz waitin for some guy to learn and drive me around.” hm u could interpret wat i say in both ways tho, rite? but wat i meant was i hope my future bf can drive me can liaoz haha. aniweas he laughed and den kept silent, and den said hesitantly and quietly, “caryn maybe one of these days i can drive you to school.” i was stunned. seriously. i din knoe how to answer dat. erm guess u could interpret his comment both ways too rite? like wat xn says, a ride is a ride is a ride. who cares who’s giving u the ride as long as u hv a ride? so convenient and easy mah. but i certainly wasn’t thinkin dat way. u get wat i mean anot? so i din knoe wat to say, but a lot of diff answers were flashing thru my mind. “er thanks.” “erm thanks but no thanks.” “haha my dad drives me to sch liaoz.” haha in the end i juz kept silent lor. and den asked abt his car again. hm he did say b4 dat his parents offered to buy him a car, but he rejected the offer. dunno whether he would reconsider anot lah, but doesn’t reallie matter to me.

den aft dat, he walked with me back to dhoby gaut since i had to tk mrt from there to go kovan for class outing. so i felt quite bad mah. cos originally i wanted to watch I,Robot but he din reallie wanted to. and i was the one who wanted to play pool aso. and i was the one who had to walk back to dhoby gaut. and he juz shui bian do everything dat i want to do, so i felt bad mah. so aft we parted ways, i msged him to thank him. and u knoe his reply? “silly girl. it was my honour to do so.” coming on the heels of his car thingy earlier on, this sounded quite ‘wat’ aso. hm maybe he doesn’t mean anything, maybe he does. watever the reason, it juz mks me uncomfortable lor. he shouldn’t mean anythin lah. muz be he juz being nice.

hm but well not dat nice actualli. he was late!! had to wait like half an hr for him? eh thought it’s the guy wait for girl not the other way? some more so late. somemore still hv to help him buy lunch cos we were gonna be late for the movie. hm and he aso nv open door for me!! hai. so confirm he dun mean anythin, cos if he does, i think he’s the kind of person who would open door for the gal one.

i tell u, the ultimate act of chivalry has to got be this: when both are crossin the road, and the cars are coming from the right, the guy will walk on the gal’s right side. den as u walk further on and the cars come from the left, the guy will change and walk on the girl’s left. hm abit OTT, but still nice tho it isn’t wat i would expect lah.
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Friday 6th Aug 2004

only one word can sum it all up: MAGICAL wat else can i say?

digress: i love my maid. simply cos she’s not afraid of all the bugs dat come into my hse. was juz typin this when this bloody cockroach was tryin to crawl onto my leg!! bloody shit, din even knoe dat creeper was in the room! i jusz screamed and called her to come catch. bloody bugger has been thrown out of the window. dat’s it, i’m gonna close my windows now.

ook so fri was my last day of work. i felt kinda sad tho. 3 short months, but great relationships and great ppl. but i was kinda busy tho, so no time to start cryin or smthin. had to pack all my stuff. goodness din knoe i brought so many things within 3 mths! my posters/postcards, hp holder, my mocha, and a lot of other chapalang lah. i went back with 2 big bags haha. yar den aso had to mk sure dat i completed all my work. those dat i canot complete, i muz let the person knoe where i stop and wat i did so far. those dat i complete muz pack properly and tell the person aso so they knoe where to find next time.

last min realised my GST hvn’t finished so had to call up the cute mat from 3rd floor to help me. he asked if i was free for lunch, and i asked if he was treatin. he say no prob. wah so shuang kuai, how can i refuse rite? somemore offered by cute guy haha. i told him i will come back next wk to claim my free treat becos my manager asked me in the morning to go for lunch at Swensen’s!! dunno why aso. i mean the wk b4 i went for my farewell lunch with almost the whole dept liaoz mah. my manager was there aso, dunno why she wanted to treat me again. muz be cos i jokingly mentioned swensen’s the wk b4. i suspect dat was it, but i reallie din mean it!! i even told her nvm, she had lunch with me the previous wk but she insisted. so got free lunch lor, but the dessert so unsatisfying! cos we both ordered set lunch, and the dessert was one scoop of coffee ice cream onlI! i din dare order the other kinds cos she was kinda in a hurry to go back office and i aso paiseh lor.

yups so last min had to do AR cos i missed out one account, and had to do the final GST checks. den clear all the papers dat i din need and had to shred. so many papers to shred! all the budget stuff. wah rush until nearly got headache. den had to email all the other ppl dat i knew in other depts to bid them farewell.

hai was feelin veri unsatisfied cos it was alrdy my last day but i still dunno the cute AM guy’s name!! jo’s computer got prob, so alvin had to keep comin over the fix it. i kept askin jo to ask alvin who dat guy is, but she forgot. in the end, veron juz picked up the fone, called KL and asked her. haha and i got my name!! and realised to my horror dat he is aso an intern from Germany! oh man. so i kept thinkin whether i shld talk to him anot. i mean, wat the hell rite? last day alrdy, wun see him anymore, juz sia suay myself aso nvm haha. but i juz couldn’t bring myself to do it, and there was juz no chance!!

by the time i cleared all my stuff and was ready, it was abt 6pm liaoz i think. we were so late for the wine-tasting!! but it was kinda disappointin tho. cos i was expectin them to invite ppl to talk abt the diff wines, how to drink, how to appreciate, which wine goes betta with wat food etc. but dun hv!!! the wines juz all on the table and u juz drink wat u want and how much u want. i drank white wine from Chile and Argentina. the Chile one was a 2001 Chardonnay and the Argentina one was a 2003 Chardonnay. i hated the Argentinean one. sux. the Chile one wasn’t so bad. drank another white wine from Australia i think, but dunno the name. not bad aso. drank sparkling champagne!! my favourite!! hm not reallie, tihnk my fav is still dessert wine. i love the dessert wine, but i dunno where it’s from. wasted. but defn it was nicer den the one i drank at the Explanade durin the Arts Fest thingy. so aft abt 4 glasses of wine, i was red in the face.

happened to meet the HR woman, who asked how come i din ask cute AM guy to come for the session. i told her i was too shy to talk to him. haha so somehow or other, i got her to go upstairs with me and intro me to him!! which she gamely agreed. so yes, there i was, alone in the office with him, with his beautiful clear grey eyes focused only on me and i can’t believe wat was happening. haha. we went down to the wine tastin together aft dat, man dat was totally like a dream come true. shall not go into details haha. it was juz a different experience to be there with him, smthin i haven’t experienced b4. :blush1 aniwaes he and his frens love wine too. shoot when i met his frens, i realised the ‘connection’ i had with the 2 of them! 1 of them was the other Ashton-Kutcher lookalike whom i thought was quite cute aso. he’s in my grp for the intern gathering!! shoot. and his other fren, was so gentlemanly!!! hm actualli he himself aso quite gentlemanly lah. open the door wide, and let me step thru first. ooh man i’m such a sucker for guys lydat.

anwieas yea we exchanged hp nos and emails. i was supposed to go home, but in the end, spent the next 2 hrs chattin to my 2 other colleagues upstairs at our office.

first time i saw the balcony at nite. breathtaking view. i was totally blow away. 15 floors up, with a clear view all the way to Raffles Place/National Stadium/East Coast Park. the lights of the city all glittering in the distance, the cars passing by on the PIE 15 floors down, and the wind in your hair. amazing.

so i reached home totally shagged at like 11 or so? reallie fantastic nite, like a scene str out of Cinderella or smthin haha. reallie couldn’t believe everything dat had taken place the whole day. it was realli smthin to rem, esp since it was my last day. luckily no chance to cry if not i sure cry and my colleague aso will join me haha. plannin to go back and see them. hopefully aft my comm svc carnival. and defn b4 end aug so i can see cute AM guy b4 he leaves!! :beam1

one simple white lie. told onli to 1, max 2 ppl. but den it escalated and i had to tell it to more ppl den i expected. feel so bad. guilty conscience!! shld i juz confess?

oh 4got to say in my previous entry abt the gym orientation. at the orientation, there was this AM guy who took a clipboard+paper+pen to jot down everything the instructor was sayin!!! i was so amused and amazed. den when the instructor was teachin us abt those big plastic balls, he got ‘volunteered’ to demo for us, and boy he was trembling while doin the sit ups cos his core stomach muscles not strong enuf! but he quite skinny tho. haha not fit.

Thursday 5th Aug 2004
aniweas where did i stop? last thurs rite? Thurs day time..nothin much happened at the office i think. except dat my assistant manager and the cleaner commented on my dress. which was my prom dress. which i decided to wear since i was goin to the Esplanade and the dress was juz rottin in the cupboard. but i’m startin to think dat it’s a good buy hehe.

so i went to watch the Revenge of the Dim Sum Dollies. fantastic show. i laughed till i had tears in my eyes. everyone shld go watch it if they can spare the cash. but i think u hv to understand english, chinese, hokkien and abit of malay to fully appreciate it. and u definitely hv to knoe abt current affairs, cos the whole musical revolves around current affairs topics and their feelins abt it. but reallie funny. but there was this one part where i thought i was the onli one laughin. it was the SQ part, where one of the guys was sayin “Is my PR still intact?” or smthin lydat. i knew he was referrin to Capt Ryan Goh (??) so i was quite amused but no1 seemed to be laughin. aniweas the 6 beefcakes were reallie H-O-T except dat i was too far away to properly appreciate them. sux. oh i aso din reallie like the ppl on my rite. 2 women i think. the way they laugh like a bit fake, like laughin becos every1 else is laughin and not cos they understand the joke.

well they were sellin DSD merchandise at the foyer aft the show and u could get it autographed by the 3 stars but we were all too broke to buy anythin. so we juz hung around, hopin to wait till they are done to get a pic of them. and we did! plus autographs as well, so it was reallie cool. den it was a mad run to Harry’s to meet Quirk, di, weng and luanne. first time i’ve met weng and luanne in a pub tho. and let’s juz say i din reallie like the impression i got of them. i knoe i hate pubs cos 5 mins into the meeting, i had a headache from the muted music, the conversation of ppl around me, and most imptantly the CIGAR SMOKE!! sux. aniweas luckily i din stay long cos i had to work the next day and i was absolutely shagged.

okie so i’m back! even if i feel realli lazy, and hv so much to say i’ll prolly cut up my entries again. wonder if anybody liked and understood the song in my previous entry?

3rd Aug – 4th Aug
so nothin much happened last monday. tues went for a gym orientation, even tho i wasn’t gonna be at the company anymore. but juz went to see for fun, can alwayz learn more. hm the trainer whom they got to teach us reminded me of my OBS instructor, except dat my OBS instructor cuter and more stylo.

tues nite went to watch collateral. okie i knoe i’m irritatin by sayin dat i was excited to watch it becos collateral opens onli this wk and i got to watch it so earli, even earlier den the mtv contest ppl haha. how cool is dat? yar but aniweas i liked the movie. abit preachy at times, and abit corny as well, but generally okie. except dat i felt the dialogue at times was abit too fast for me to catch, so i would hv liked to have a copy of the script juz to go thru it again and understand it betta. felt tat the philosophy and themes highlighted in the movie was quite interesting. din even knoe the leading woman was jada pinkett smith until the credits rolled. i juz thought she looked familiar. so silly. and peter berg was in it!!! omg haven’t seen him for so long. wonder if any1 remembers him? he used to be in Chicago Hope. i loved dat show, alwayz tot dat it was betta den ER and George Clooney and co. aniweas yes he was in it and i din realise it as well. i tot he looked like Ethan Hawke, except er Hawke is cuter? and his voice sounded abit squeaky. muz be too much drugs haha. but yar still looks not bad lah. hm i liked the soundtrack tho. a bit of jazz and spanish/latin (??) music, esp the song at the end, very nice. would like to burn the soundtrack tho haha.

wed..wat did i do at work? hm nothin much, but at nite went to watch Top or Bottom. it wasn’t as great as Mardi Gras last yr tho. i thought dat ToB kao bei more den MG, either dat or my level of tolerance for shouting has dropped. aniwaes yea, again i enjoyed the themes dat they explored as well. i mean, other den the gay theme, there was like metal and plastic ruler thingy haha, and dealing with death and depression. i cried at the end. not juz the normal tearing but reallie crying. i swear if i wasn’t in a public place, i would hv cried my eyes out again. i can’t get over how poignant and significant the ending was, how the scene looks exactly like the one at the beginning with the same props, how they all said goodbye to Clem. i went back on Wed to buy the script so i can go thru it and mk sense of it all. i knoe there’s a deeper meanin to it, but i can’t seem to grasp it, but i feel it. aniweas yea it onli affected me dat much becos it was talkin abt death and sayin goodbye and lettin go, and it juz reminded me so much of ah ma. sigh.

Sat 31st Aug 2004
so i went for the MFG thingy. was in Orchard b4 dat, and i waited to freaking LONG for the stupid bus 16. i was so irritated and so kan cheong cos not very nice to be late. i waited for the stupid bus for at least 15mins leh!! and when it came it was so bloody crowded, luckily i managed to board it. luckily aso i not dat blur and alighted at the correct stop. the trial was pretty cool, but i felt so intimidated. the ppl there had a reallie great sense of rhythm, and i felt so out of place and stoned. felt so scared dat i would play out of tune and i felt so inadequate in my music knowledge. but it reallie sounded very cool and amazing when we gel together for the free form and the song. amazing to knoe dat different ppl and different instruments can sound like dat. anwieas i juz wished it would start quickly, so dat i can help out b4 sch starts. felt abit disappointed and angry dat they were takin so long to arrange everything. mebbe they realie do hv a lot of things to work out so bo bian. and one of the guys talked abt the Sarawak music workshop thing. he made it sound reallie reallie cool. how do u go to stuff like this? get invited? buy tix? wat?! i wanna go see too, even if i realie suck at music.

oh yes Evie, the cute guy we saw!!! she thinks he’s like an ABC, i think he’s got a Jap look. either way, he’s C-U-T-E!!! cant stand it lor, i dun care even if he has crow’s feet or looks late 20s/earli 30s. he’s so damn cool, and i love the way he speaks and laugh. wah dat’s it, i’m in lust hahahha.:blush1 i wun even knoe wat else to say abt him except dat he’s sooo good-lookin. i can wake up and go to sleep seeing his face 24/7 man. i wouldn’t mind! oh man cant wait to see him again, but too bad no pic of him for me to drool over haha. oh and yar, think he must be attached. Evie says he doesnt give off the gay vibes, wat gay vibes i raellie dun knoe but since she’s a fag hag, i’ll trust her input abt this. so means he’s straight, so means he cfrm attached. man she muz be some tall, slim, and with long hair chio bu. hai. can u imagine how his kids wld look with his kinda genes? wah.

oh and my bloody period came and i was wearing a bloody white skirt pun fully intended i think. but luckily nv stain at all, if not i wld hv been so mortified.

yes and clubbin is so NOT me so i dun raellie care whether i live near Zouk anot. i dun even knoe how to get there and where it is ah!

hm this comin wk is gonna be a pretty busy one again. hai think i’m gonna be very tired too. betta go and pack my messy table now.