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ew one thing dat irritates me is watchin jeanette aw and felicia chin act cute. the other is lookin at sharon au with the str doll fringe and hv the yucky expression on her face. it’s not dat i hate them, actulli i think they are quite good actualli but eww cant stand this kinda stuff.

the other thing is i think i canot watch this kinda show. will juz cry when i see the ppl cry. all the kids hvin to go thru so much problems. y lydat? they’re so young, and family no money for medication, so jiak lat. y muz there be pain and suffering? smtime i think, if onli i had a lot of money, den i can upgrade ah ma to a betta ward with better service. smtimes science and med is full of shit. smtimes the doctors and nurses in reality are juz so diff from those on tv shows like Healing Hands. too much shit for them to deal with dat they dun reallie care for the patient. dreamt of ah ma again the nite b4. nothin much realie, juz jumbled scenes, i was prolly juz tired. but still, aft every dream and i wake up, it upsets me. everytime i’m out on the streets n i see old men and women, i juz think of my grandparents. when i see kids with their grandparents, i hv this overwhelmin urge to grab the kids by their shoulders, shake them reallie hard and tell them that they shld treasure their grandparents coz they wun be around for long.
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Movie Mania!!!

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“honor the gods, love your woman and defend your country.”

alrite i finally managed to catch TROY!!! wow cool show but kinda sad.. i knew Hector was gonna die..but still quite sad, esp when his father went to beg Achilles for his body back. but i din expect Achilles to die!! so sad!!! hai~ esp since he went back to Troy to look for dat virgin priestess Briseis. so sad i tot they wld end up together. well at least Paris managed to mk himself useful! can’t believe dat he was such a loser!! i mean, it’s okie if he crawled back to Hector but i was expectin him to get up and fight some more!!! luckily LOTR came out b4 this or i wld hv gotten a bad impression of him. hai~ think he’s onli good at lookin pretty. at least they let him do smthin which he knoes best considering his Legolas background: that of firing arrows. hm cool show except dat i tot it was so sad with all dat killing.

BUT the main thing is the HOT HUNKY GUYS!!! haha wah man i nv tot i would like Brad Pitt so much. oh man he was so stylo. the onli part of his character i liked was when he went back to Troy to save Briseis and letting himself get shot in the foot and letting her go. wow dat was such a sad scene. i tot they wld end up together or smthing. and Eric Bana!! haha watched BHD like 2 yrs ago and tot he was quite cute oreadi. din mk it big until now. hope he gets more popular. wah but his chest in dat one scene in his bedroom when he was gettin ready to go to battle with Archilles was like huge! maybe it was the camera angle or smthing but his chest looked broad compared to the other scenes when he was hidden under all those clothes. hm but poor Sean Bean. in the movie, his character like quite impt leh. Odysseus helped to persuade Achilles to go to Troy and fight, and he came up with the impt idea of the gift horse to beat Troy!! how come his face and name wasn’t on the poster in big fonts? u muz squint hard to find his name at the bottom. well not dat i love Sean Bean or anything but still, i thought with such a character, he shld be impt enuf to warrant a mention, at least a small pic or smthing.

aniweas yar went to watch Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind too. hm nearly fell aslp at the beginning coz i din understand wat was goin on. but gradually got the pt, so i felt the movie was quite interesting. the concept was interesting. haha needed shiuan to help me figure out that you can erase your memories, but you can’t erase your feelings. reallie, i can’t imagine why wld any1 want to erase their memories. even if u hate that person so much, or feel so damn upset abt some1 or smthing, why remove it all? each experience helps you to grow, and lets you learn smthing diff. even if there were bad times, there muz defn be good times to balance it out. if u dun like the bad memories, and erase it, den they hv to erase your good memories aso. dun u want to keep the good memories? i dunno, smhow i juz feel that memories no matter good or bad, shld be treasured.

ah and Shrek 2 was hilarious!!! cant reallie rem Shrek 1 but i think this was even funnier!! Antonio Banderas as Puss was a hoot!! and Pinocchio and his “i’m wearin women’s underwear” *nose did NOT grow longer” was damn funny. and the MI2 reference!!! omg i nv laughed so hard at the movies.

hm went to watch some Arts Fest thingy aso. Morphia Series rated R(A). haha R(A) coz in the last scene, the lady was topless. hm again, interesting concept, and well guess everyone wld hv diff interpretations of it. but i loved the wine and pastry! haha regret u knoe..it was so damn dark inside, so i grabbed my wine glass reallie tightly thru out the performance for fear of spillin it or smthin. by the time i wanted to drink, the heat from my hand alrdy warmed the wine, so it tasted kinda flat or watever u call it. so i din finish it 🙁 so wasted!!

hm wat else? haven’t blogged in so long, i cant rem wat has happened or wat i wanted to record down. aniweas work is okie, gettin kinda bored coz doin mindless stuff like checkin invoices and all. so i’ve resorted to doin mindless stuff like surfin the net for mindless, clearin my sch email inbox etc. er think they prolly knoe dat i’m slacking? haha hey but like i alwayz say in my defense, the perm staff slack too. like the manager calls Sistic to book tix for Barney for her kids, and she was chattin on MSN today!! haha so why can’t i? except dat my #@%#$%^@$# MSN connection in the office sux like hell. i keep gettin d/c. bleargh.

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1) I need to sleep!! was out the whole day again!!
2) I reallie reallie need to stop spending money!! i can’t help it! go out every wkend, and when i do, there’s alwayz stuff to buy. and i cant resist. ma talked me out of buying this top, but i kept thinkin abt another pair of slippers so i bought it. loved the design! die, every wkend go out sure come back with shoppin bags. some more now GSS. damn nv tot i would like shoppin so much. but den again, i get bored/tired easily while shoppin.
3) MY WISDOM TEETH ARE IRRITATING ME!!! not 1 but 2 okie! at the bloody same time! why can’t they bloody come out at diff time or not ache at all?! the ache is irritating me lor..and it’s abit painful aso. the one on top is comin out so it aches, while the bottom one, which is half out half in, decided to for some strange reason to ache as well. so both the top and bottom of the right side of my mouth hurts. dare not go dentist leh..wat if he say muz pull? how to pull the top one when it’s not even out yet? how to pull the bottom one when it’s half in-half out? isn’t dat gonna bloody hurt? do i need surgery? the last time my dentist saw me, he said i shld pull it out, and i need surgery and my mouth will swell for 3 days!!! how?! i hv to go to work!! i want to cry!! haven’t gone to the dentist to pull out my tooth in a million yrs!! wat happens if it hurts? do dentists open on sundays? i think i can claim this from the company, but i’m too paiseh to do so, not veri nice lah. how? :err1 pain :pout1

Thought for the Day

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Everything that happens in this world, there is no absolute good or bad. Sometimes good things turned out to be bad things eventually, while bad things may become a gain.

Whatever good things that happen to you, enjoy it, but don’t have to hold on too tight to it, treat it as a surprise in your life. Whatever bad things that happen to you, don’t have to feel too sad or despair, in the end, it might not be a total bad thing after all.

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found a blog entry that i wrote when fakedevil was down.
Wednesday Mar 3, 2004
11:59pm

1) If you see me around or talk to me or watever, don’t ask abt my grandma. I don’t know wat to say, I don’t want to say anything, i don’t feel like saying anything, and no i’m still not coping very well with her passing. i juz feel i’m not strong enuf to handle this, however different Ralph or any1 else may think. And don’t be so bloody insensitive as to pt out the fact dat u think i shud not still be crying since 1 wk has passed. I’ll keep crying until i can look at her picture or talk abt her without tearing. The heart follows its own calendar and I’ll keep crying until i think i’ve grieved enuf.

2) My Comms individual presentation went quite well. I’m happy and surprised+amazed at the comments i received. will talk more abt it next time. was quite disappionted with my 1st Written Assignmt grade..got like B+/B coz the prof can’t quite decide wat grade i shld get. i kinda expected betta, hope the 2nd WA is betta. i need a grade betta den B- to pull up my GPA and to mk sure i dun hv to repeat another Comms elective next sem.

3) Think my MA this Fri is gonna be so screwed up. i juz hope i dun fail until so jiak lat. Hoping dat Stats on Sat wun be so bad since i’ve been doin my assignments. It’s times like this when i realli wonder wat i’m doing in a faculty like Accountancy.

alrite..so to go thru the pts one by one…
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Thought for the Day

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“Life isn’t about whether you danced with your dream date or whether you made the basketball team. It’s about being happy and living to see the people you love, to do the things you love, and to love that life that loves you all the same.” – Sue Zimmerman

If I could turn back the the hands of time

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hehe today escaped earli again! hai~ i live in fear of the time when they will suddenly, on the day itself, tell me dat i hv to stay, or got work to do. i think dat day will be comin soon but dunno when, so the anticipation is quite scary. but think this wk and nxt, hopefully shld be quite okie? june will need to finish up the budget, so mebbe dat is when the busy time will be. juz hope it wun clash with my DPA thingy.

speakin of the DPA thingy, so happy dat the CCMS secretary was so nice and friendly and helpful when i approached her abt it. now juz hope dat there will be some kinda of response from it. hai~ aniweas, called up Shan today. wow din knoe the salvation army actualli organises small grps of ppl to go myanmar to visit their adopted kids! too bad the upcoming trip is nxt wk and i cant go. think it would be so far to see in person how my adopted kid looks like.

aniweas, the day was qutie okie, except dat i was reallie sleepy. hai~ as usual, not enuf slp durin the wkend. argh. feel like the army guys when they can onli come out once a wk durin the wkend, and watch a movie durin the wkend. dat’s precisely wat i’ve been doin ever since i started work. go out onli durin wkends to watch a movie.

speakin of movies, i watched Facing Windows yesterday. italian film with english subtitles. shallow issues first, the female lead Giovanna is so pretty!! and Raoul Bova, woah! major cutie! but hm he din look veri nice with specs, i prefer him without. but i still think Rodrigo Santoro in Love Actually is much cuter, esp with specs. yar and Giovanna’s husband in he movie has one hot bod! okie but the show was pretty sad. it dealt with like, choices, responsibilities, regrets. stuff like that. “you should not merely want to survive, you shld demand for a betta world.” it’s juz so painful how smtimes we can mk the wrong choices and regret it all our lives and wanting so much to turn back time but can’t. i couldn’t help but cry. thinkin abt the wrong choices and the regrets, and tho i wasn’t the one makin the wrong choice or regretting, i was affected indirectly, and i could feel the pain and the regrets. at that pt, watchin the old man with amnesia Davide talk abt how he saved his townsppl from the Nazis to prove that he is worthy of them and that he wasn’t juz a gay Jew, but becoz of this, he failed to warn his love Simeone, who died in the concentration camp, juz made me wanted so much to turn back time. i’ve been playin the game of “what-ifs” a lot of times recently. and every time, aft goin around in circles, i find that, as much as i hate to say it, a lot of times in our life, even b4 we mk our choices, our fate has already been decided for us. does that mk sense?

still haven’t found Dr Chow’s email yet. shoot.

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haha am back veri earli today! left b4 6pm! wah heng sia, nearly had to stay late okie. there was some problem with the cost allocation to the different BUs and we all thought that we had to stay back to re-key the data into the system. hai~ my meetin got postponed at the last min, so i kinda said i was free to stay even tho i din feel like it. hai~ so silly rite? i muz reallie learn to say no or they wld juz exploit me everyday. aniweas luckily can juz cut and paste or smthin, so i juz hv to re-check the figures tmrw.

the thing i hate most abt all the work so far is tryin to balance figures. argh. its so *bloody* difficult to mk sure dat ur figures tie-up. i alwayz hv to recalculate a few times to get a balanced figure. argh. like, i do so many times now until i know which cost centres belong to which BU. well but i guess it’s interestin to knoe how an MNC works, except that i dont reallie do much stuff related directly accounting like preparing the actual cash flow statement and what not. all i do are juz calculations, calculations and more calculations for cost allocation and accounts receivable. i’m gonna be doin taxation soon, so i’m lookin forward to it. dunno why but i juz hv more of an interest in taxation and like, avoiding tax? haha sounds more fun den the normal accting stuff. yea but hope i dun screw it up too bad esp since i haven’t learnt taxation yet and i cant reallie rem much of wat i learnt at IRAS 3-4 yrs ago. haha which is why i was quite surprised dat they picked me?

aniweas yarz tmrw got meeting. sianz. last min cancel when i oreadi wear nice nice and prepare properly liaoz. sianz. dunno wat they want to talk abt. juz wish dat i could juz quit now the project now, but dat wld give me and the sch a bad name. and besides i need the performance appraisal form aso. later i got lousy performance appraisal den i die. sianz. goin off to watch AMI now. hope the vote jasmine out. she’s very pretty but i dun think she’s dat good, and her saccharine sweetness is startin to irritate me.

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ah ah ah i still cant get over how good lookin Hugh Jackman is! and i 4got to mention David Wenham aka Faramir in LOTR the other cutie! hm but in Van Helsing he quite small role lah, but think he’s quite a good actor, from a misunderstood younger son leading his country in LOTR to this hunchbacked, humourous “i’m a friar, not a monk” role in VH. man cant wait for TROY!!! more cute guys alert!!!
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saw last wk’s papers?

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last Tues, or issit Wed, there was an article on the front page of the ST abt a new cure for liver cancer. Dr Pierce Chow has tested it on lab animals and are lookin for patients to test on now. felt like callin or emailin him and juz scolding him, however irrational dat may seem. i mean, he was ah ma’s doctor!! and he came up with this cure!! why din he do so earlier?! why din he hurry up with it, why din he push it out faster, why din ah ma get the stupid sickness later? why din he at least suggest to us smthing?

i mean okie, drugs need a lot of testing b4 the doctors are assured dat it’s useful and won’t cause any harm and b4 it gets approved. but i’m quite sure dat in strict Singapore, testing will defn be rigorously to avoid any trouble with the HPB. so denf this testing for this cure would hv taken sm time rite? so wouldn’t dat mean dat durin the period ah ma was in the hospital, the cure was still being tested? it’s like, okie she would hv died eventually anyway. but u could at least let her try this drug/cure thingy even tho it’s not fully tested. i mean, let’s say the drug is not fully tested, and tryin it out on humans so quickly would cause harmful side effects. but either way, she’s gonna die from the stupid disease if u dun do anythin, so why not juz suggest this drug and juz test it out? even if she dies from the drug, at least we tried smthing, and aniewas it doesn’t reallie matter coz she would hv eventually died anyway. who knoes, if the drug was tried out on her, she could juz hv survived. why din he say anything instead of juz puttin her on morphine and lettin her drift away? want to juz search for his email and mail him and ask. think i could get into trouble for harrassment?